This guy that has a problem with a record I sold him has now come back and suggested that this "mark" on the record - which was originally a big graunch and across the whole surface is now hardly noticeable unless under a certain light. I've not played this lot back to him as of yet.
I'll wait until both sides of the story are played out and then show how the big problem, is a little problem and is now not much of a problem. for 99p purchase is taking up a lot of his time he wants the postage back - I don't think so. Will be interesting to see where it goes - I'll just shut the bloody thing down I get fed up of dealing with people like this.
Friday, January 10, 2014
The Ups & Downs Of Splitting Up
It's a real roller coaster of emotions and reactions. Yesterday was a case in point. We looked at a number of potential houses to rent. That's OK? Sure it is. But your mind races on to what will it be like and how will it work out. Not that worrying about it will help but it just makes things any easier.
I think I may just disappear off the radar for a short while and close down stuff that I don't use. eBay being one that just p1sses me off. You do get some stupid things on eBay and everyone wants "something for nothing" which appears to be a disease of the Internet connected world. I find that these sorts of people drain your energy and bring you down. So that can go now, it served its purpose and so that's fine. I have some other similar accounts which I intend to go through and cull. My email address will be changing too soon and so that will also help as if I miss any to shut down, the email will bounce too.
I really cannot get going on the business planning - I need space, time and inclination and to be in the "right mood" to do it. The atmosphere here can easily be cut with a knife :-) The place is also cluttered full of packing boxes, bubble wrap and is untidy which doesn't suit my organised mind one bit :-) I think the move will resolve that as I will be in a space that's peaceful and tranquil without the dread of bumping into Mrs. F. It's painful to both of us to be in each others presence. So sad really that it's come to this, I feel sad writing this because I think it's a shame that as I know look back I did try a number of times to repair and change all this and it never succeeded. How I hope that she gets over it and gets to the other side and moves on.
Getting out of here will free her up as well as me I have no doubt. To me it is one of those things that has been coming down the line like a slow motion train wreck - it was inevitable and the nearer it got the greater the feelings of dread, the depression and the angst and I realise now that so much of the problems I had after my brush with Cancer were additionally caused through, I suppose, the realisation that this would be the end point. It was certainly in my mind that things had changed and that life wasn't going to be the same and that collateral damage had and would be a result of it all. I had to be at home more often, I couldn't get away with working away or working all sorts of long hours. It truly is, in hindsight, amazing the lengths I went to not to tackle the problem.
It's all day by day stuff as people say it is and that time will heal and all these things are true but there also a point where it's a matter of, if you are changing your life, then you might as well go and change lots of things at the same time. I can't be doing with lots of the things that I have in the past that now feel like baggage and so I'm sort of thinking that I may as well cut these loose too and move on. It's a funny thing to say but I've wasted a lot of time avoiding the issues by signing up to internet sites and distracting myself. They are time wasters and drains on me so they've got to go as has anything that doesn't actually do anything for my quality of life..
I think I may just disappear off the radar for a short while and close down stuff that I don't use. eBay being one that just p1sses me off. You do get some stupid things on eBay and everyone wants "something for nothing" which appears to be a disease of the Internet connected world. I find that these sorts of people drain your energy and bring you down. So that can go now, it served its purpose and so that's fine. I have some other similar accounts which I intend to go through and cull. My email address will be changing too soon and so that will also help as if I miss any to shut down, the email will bounce too.
I really cannot get going on the business planning - I need space, time and inclination and to be in the "right mood" to do it. The atmosphere here can easily be cut with a knife :-) The place is also cluttered full of packing boxes, bubble wrap and is untidy which doesn't suit my organised mind one bit :-) I think the move will resolve that as I will be in a space that's peaceful and tranquil without the dread of bumping into Mrs. F. It's painful to both of us to be in each others presence. So sad really that it's come to this, I feel sad writing this because I think it's a shame that as I know look back I did try a number of times to repair and change all this and it never succeeded. How I hope that she gets over it and gets to the other side and moves on.
Getting out of here will free her up as well as me I have no doubt. To me it is one of those things that has been coming down the line like a slow motion train wreck - it was inevitable and the nearer it got the greater the feelings of dread, the depression and the angst and I realise now that so much of the problems I had after my brush with Cancer were additionally caused through, I suppose, the realisation that this would be the end point. It was certainly in my mind that things had changed and that life wasn't going to be the same and that collateral damage had and would be a result of it all. I had to be at home more often, I couldn't get away with working away or working all sorts of long hours. It truly is, in hindsight, amazing the lengths I went to not to tackle the problem.
It's all day by day stuff as people say it is and that time will heal and all these things are true but there also a point where it's a matter of, if you are changing your life, then you might as well go and change lots of things at the same time. I can't be doing with lots of the things that I have in the past that now feel like baggage and so I'm sort of thinking that I may as well cut these loose too and move on. It's a funny thing to say but I've wasted a lot of time avoiding the issues by signing up to internet sites and distracting myself. They are time wasters and drains on me so they've got to go as has anything that doesn't actually do anything for my quality of life..
People?
Sometimes you can't get people. So I've received a complaint about a record I've sold which was sold "as is" and Caveat Emptor. The guy got it for 99 pence plus P&P and wants his P&P back because he tells me the record is ropey and scratched. I have suggested that it wasn't and that he had adequate opportunity to ask before bidding and that the photos show the condition. Frankly I don't give a toss and so I decided to shut down all my accounts with the company as they really think that it is worthwhile pursuing this line of enquiry.
From my point of view - everything will be locked down tomorrow - all bids have been taken off, all items taken off and they can go sing for their money. I will shut down that and all accounts after being a customer for 10 or more years. I don't really give a toss over 99p anyway but what it did was just say to me - why bother... You get all these money for nothing types and low lifes on there. Frankly for the price the guy paid he may as well have gone down the road and bought a pint of beer. Dick!
I'm actually thinking of really limiting my internet exposure and all my social media stuff soon anyway. Just use what I need to use and be done with the rest of it. It's just too much hassle and I'm sure it will be easier to simplify my life than make it complex - or any more complex than it ought to be.
From my point of view - everything will be locked down tomorrow - all bids have been taken off, all items taken off and they can go sing for their money. I will shut down that and all accounts after being a customer for 10 or more years. I don't really give a toss over 99p anyway but what it did was just say to me - why bother... You get all these money for nothing types and low lifes on there. Frankly for the price the guy paid he may as well have gone down the road and bought a pint of beer. Dick!
I'm actually thinking of really limiting my internet exposure and all my social media stuff soon anyway. Just use what I need to use and be done with the rest of it. It's just too much hassle and I'm sure it will be easier to simplify my life than make it complex - or any more complex than it ought to be.
Thursday, January 09, 2014
Viewing - Such Diverse Places
Having not gone house hunting for years and years. You tend to forget that you see all sorts of houses in all sorts of states.
Funnily enough Mrs. F. chose this present house - I was working away and came to see it with her after she had seen it first. It really is a nice place and I will be sorry to leave it. At one time I thought that I'd live the rest of my natural here :-)
I recollect us seeing some pretty appalling places when looking for our first house but being put off buying a lovely old Victorian Town House which today is worth millions :-) Such are the cards we are dealt. I'd have had to do it up but I was "in the trade" at the time so no real problems...
This wind and rain is certainly sorting out the properties though. The damp patches we have seen must be due to the rain being blown under flashings and I'm guessing it's three or four houses we have seen like that.
The very first place we saw was great but no garage. The next place we saw was way out in the country but very cold, old and didn't quite fit our needs. The next place was quite nice but couldn't quite work out what was wrong with it - it didn't seem right although the place was pretty nice inside and out. On a busy road but again it wasn't too noisy. A real nightmare to get out of the drive though. The next place was nice, but difficult to get our heads around because it was fully furnished. It was an interesting property nonetheless and could work for us. So of the 4 we saw only the last one fitted our needs. The First one if it had a garage would have been perfect! What a shame. We are meant to be viewing one tomorrow although I've not heard back on it and 2 on Saturday.
It's difficult - as with all of these things - to get precisely what you need of course but hey ho a few more to see and then we may need to make our minds up fast.
Funnily enough Mrs. F. chose this present house - I was working away and came to see it with her after she had seen it first. It really is a nice place and I will be sorry to leave it. At one time I thought that I'd live the rest of my natural here :-)
I recollect us seeing some pretty appalling places when looking for our first house but being put off buying a lovely old Victorian Town House which today is worth millions :-) Such are the cards we are dealt. I'd have had to do it up but I was "in the trade" at the time so no real problems...
This wind and rain is certainly sorting out the properties though. The damp patches we have seen must be due to the rain being blown under flashings and I'm guessing it's three or four houses we have seen like that.
The very first place we saw was great but no garage. The next place we saw was way out in the country but very cold, old and didn't quite fit our needs. The next place was quite nice but couldn't quite work out what was wrong with it - it didn't seem right although the place was pretty nice inside and out. On a busy road but again it wasn't too noisy. A real nightmare to get out of the drive though. The next place was nice, but difficult to get our heads around because it was fully furnished. It was an interesting property nonetheless and could work for us. So of the 4 we saw only the last one fitted our needs. The First one if it had a garage would have been perfect! What a shame. We are meant to be viewing one tomorrow although I've not heard back on it and 2 on Saturday.
It's difficult - as with all of these things - to get precisely what you need of course but hey ho a few more to see and then we may need to make our minds up fast.
Wednesday, January 08, 2014
Places To See
We have three places to go see tomorrow and at least one on Friday and two to go see on Saturday. That should give us a good look and some idea of what we can expect - there's a spread of properties and values and hopefully we can get a feel to go forward.
I've started my checklist of stuff to do and it's a long list of change of address, new phone and so on. I'm going to take my friend's recommendation on an upgrade to my phone when that becomes due in a month or so. It knocks my current contract into a cocked hat and I might as well use my phone until it falls to pieces :-) It's not as if I need a new one even though this is a bit temperamental.
It's very difficult to concentrate on the business at the moment and I find that I spend long tracts of time thinking through the business and making notes but not actually progressing with it. It's OK I've had plenty of time to think, test and change my ideas - it's been quite interesting as I've thought through the processes and as I've bought things from complex back to making them nice and easy to start with :-) It's a matter of taking each idea and challenging it and testing them. For example DVDs - I was going to get them printed and then write on them. I realise I can print these in house and they'd look just as good but also they would have nice printing on them not some old permanent marker :-) The Jewel case was similar. Now I plan to just get paper covers and the customer can make up their mind what they want to do. If they want Jewel cases that's fine they can do those themselves. From my point of view I don't have big storage issues as there is little bulk with the paper cases, lower space, cheaper P&P and handling and this is the way I'm working things through in my mind. It also saves a bucket load of money too.
Mrs. F. is out tonight. I'm meant to be at the Jazz but my friend isn't going. I'm in two minds - the last time I took myself down there but there was no Jazz but I had a "good drink" with the Steward. I might just take myself up the road here for a few beers and take my business folder and go and develop the web site and the pricing that would give me something to do! I could do with getting out of the house. It's difficult to understand why unless you live with this sort of sadness that pervades the place. It really feels like a Funeral Director's parlour. :-)
Anyway there we go. I also get the chance to go out tomorrow afternoon which, if it is nice, I will walk to the meeting and back. It's a bit of a trek but I like the walk and it gives me some exercise, stretches my legs and allows me to stroll with some music playing through my MP3 player.
I've started my checklist of stuff to do and it's a long list of change of address, new phone and so on. I'm going to take my friend's recommendation on an upgrade to my phone when that becomes due in a month or so. It knocks my current contract into a cocked hat and I might as well use my phone until it falls to pieces :-) It's not as if I need a new one even though this is a bit temperamental.
It's very difficult to concentrate on the business at the moment and I find that I spend long tracts of time thinking through the business and making notes but not actually progressing with it. It's OK I've had plenty of time to think, test and change my ideas - it's been quite interesting as I've thought through the processes and as I've bought things from complex back to making them nice and easy to start with :-) It's a matter of taking each idea and challenging it and testing them. For example DVDs - I was going to get them printed and then write on them. I realise I can print these in house and they'd look just as good but also they would have nice printing on them not some old permanent marker :-) The Jewel case was similar. Now I plan to just get paper covers and the customer can make up their mind what they want to do. If they want Jewel cases that's fine they can do those themselves. From my point of view I don't have big storage issues as there is little bulk with the paper cases, lower space, cheaper P&P and handling and this is the way I'm working things through in my mind. It also saves a bucket load of money too.
Mrs. F. is out tonight. I'm meant to be at the Jazz but my friend isn't going. I'm in two minds - the last time I took myself down there but there was no Jazz but I had a "good drink" with the Steward. I might just take myself up the road here for a few beers and take my business folder and go and develop the web site and the pricing that would give me something to do! I could do with getting out of the house. It's difficult to understand why unless you live with this sort of sadness that pervades the place. It really feels like a Funeral Director's parlour. :-)
Anyway there we go. I also get the chance to go out tomorrow afternoon which, if it is nice, I will walk to the meeting and back. It's a bit of a trek but I like the walk and it gives me some exercise, stretches my legs and allows me to stroll with some music playing through my MP3 player.
An Evening Sat Working On My Computer
As we were playing musical rooms again I decided that I'd come upstairs and I had some messing around to do. I thought my collection of music was missing some albums. I found out that what has happened is that albums with the same name (greatest hits of, the greatest hits of, hits of and so on). appear as one album (in the album listing) not against each artist. I've found about 50 missing albums and have had to go and alter the name subtly on each so that it now shows the album title and the artist so presenting me with an obvious choice now. There are a lot of other examples and I am still coming across them Who would have thought there were two albums called 'Green'? So that kept me occupied for a while.
Then I got talking to me 'angel' 'spirit guide' or whatever else we want to call her. Had a lovely conversation with her and then my cousin from NZ and then another young lady I know and so the evening flew past in idle chit chat. Mind you - I was pleased about that to some extent as it was getting a bit boring.
I feel in a good place after these chats, I feel like there is someone I can talk to. It is particularly difficult at the moment here and I understand that. I'm meant to be out Wednesday night but my friend has cancelled as the weather is bad. I don't know whether to wander down there anyway - last time I did it had been cancelled anyway and I ended up drinking some pretty powerful Beers / Porter! Maybe I'll think of something else to do but I will try and get out even if only for a short while. I could I suppose see if anyone else fancies a few beers.
I'm out at a Lodge meeting on Thursday representing my Lodge - it will be good - I think the rain will be gone and so I might walk there and back for the exercise if nothing else. Saturday is my mother Lodge meeting and so I'm looking forward to that. I will probably see if I can walk there and get a taxi back I think. It doesn't make sense to drive as I do enjoy a few beers and why risk it. It's better to grab a taxi and not your licence.
I can see that things are getting close now - Flocky is close to signing and exchanging contracts and we are seeing a number of houses on Thursday and Friday with a view to getting in as soon as. For me it cannot come too soon. I really need the time and the space and to take away the 'pressure' that surrounds me whether real or imagined. I can really cut loose and move things on then and that's the important thing to have the freedom to be creative and to work through my business without this constant "atmosphere" that pervades the house. In so many ways it just will allow me the creative space and the freeing of my mind to let me launch the business free of any incumbrences. It doesn't matter if I work 15 hours a day on it either because it is all to do with the new me, the new business, the whole thing is that fresh start that needs to happen.
I thought it was strange that my friend doesn't look at the new year as a changing point - it is after all just a date in the calendar. But of course you can use it as a milestone of sorts and work away from it. I feel 2014 is going to be a good year eventually once I've moved on and got this fresh start and a new routine and a clear vision of where I want to go. I know that I can't plan too hard and need to live for the day but I'm sure I can let myself have a clear view of where I'd like to go as long as I don't expect it to be real. Too often I was let down through not obtaining the various dreams and plans I had.
Then I got talking to me 'angel' 'spirit guide' or whatever else we want to call her. Had a lovely conversation with her and then my cousin from NZ and then another young lady I know and so the evening flew past in idle chit chat. Mind you - I was pleased about that to some extent as it was getting a bit boring.
I feel in a good place after these chats, I feel like there is someone I can talk to. It is particularly difficult at the moment here and I understand that. I'm meant to be out Wednesday night but my friend has cancelled as the weather is bad. I don't know whether to wander down there anyway - last time I did it had been cancelled anyway and I ended up drinking some pretty powerful Beers / Porter! Maybe I'll think of something else to do but I will try and get out even if only for a short while. I could I suppose see if anyone else fancies a few beers.
I'm out at a Lodge meeting on Thursday representing my Lodge - it will be good - I think the rain will be gone and so I might walk there and back for the exercise if nothing else. Saturday is my mother Lodge meeting and so I'm looking forward to that. I will probably see if I can walk there and get a taxi back I think. It doesn't make sense to drive as I do enjoy a few beers and why risk it. It's better to grab a taxi and not your licence.
I can see that things are getting close now - Flocky is close to signing and exchanging contracts and we are seeing a number of houses on Thursday and Friday with a view to getting in as soon as. For me it cannot come too soon. I really need the time and the space and to take away the 'pressure' that surrounds me whether real or imagined. I can really cut loose and move things on then and that's the important thing to have the freedom to be creative and to work through my business without this constant "atmosphere" that pervades the house. In so many ways it just will allow me the creative space and the freeing of my mind to let me launch the business free of any incumbrences. It doesn't matter if I work 15 hours a day on it either because it is all to do with the new me, the new business, the whole thing is that fresh start that needs to happen.
I thought it was strange that my friend doesn't look at the new year as a changing point - it is after all just a date in the calendar. But of course you can use it as a milestone of sorts and work away from it. I feel 2014 is going to be a good year eventually once I've moved on and got this fresh start and a new routine and a clear vision of where I want to go. I know that I can't plan too hard and need to live for the day but I'm sure I can let myself have a clear view of where I'd like to go as long as I don't expect it to be real. Too often I was let down through not obtaining the various dreams and plans I had.
Tuesday, January 07, 2014
That Was Interetsing
I spoke to one of the Estate Agents - well I popped in as it was next to my Doctor's Surgery. The place we had seen and I spoke to them about had been on the market for ages and ages. I explained the state it was in and that there was no room for negotiation and that the landlord wasn't going to do any of the work. She said that it was now with every Estate Agent in the area and for the same price and she'd be surprised if anyone would rent it.
That's interesting but Flocky came up with an even more interesting thing wondering if the guy just didn't have the money available to do it. That would fit too. It's interesting that the place is without doubt the worst condition we've seen! It appears that the Estate Agents also view this property with suspicion and rightly so.
We've found some more places to visit and hope that these might prove useful. One is in a really nice area and road that I've known for a long time and I can't remember why I've been down there as it is a dead end road. Also another on the old main road - a bit further out than planned but again, not a million miles away. Let's see what they bring.
Was surprised that some Estate Agents haven't got back to us on some properties. Makes you wonder why they market them online if they aren't going to send you the details or call?
That's interesting but Flocky came up with an even more interesting thing wondering if the guy just didn't have the money available to do it. That would fit too. It's interesting that the place is without doubt the worst condition we've seen! It appears that the Estate Agents also view this property with suspicion and rightly so.
We've found some more places to visit and hope that these might prove useful. One is in a really nice area and road that I've known for a long time and I can't remember why I've been down there as it is a dead end road. Also another on the old main road - a bit further out than planned but again, not a million miles away. Let's see what they bring.
Was surprised that some Estate Agents haven't got back to us on some properties. Makes you wonder why they market them online if they aren't going to send you the details or call?
Spirometry OK
Well that was a relief. My readings aren't bad bad. They are expected for someone who used to smoke and has given up. Interesting that I don't tend to get chest infections or anything like it thank goodness but the guidance was to get straight to Doc if anything lung wise was wrong, so I know that if I ever do get anything what the advice is..
My blood pressure was off the chart but it did come down on a second reading - weight was down which was good and near target so even better but I intend to go down a couple of stone this year if I can too so that will also reduce things.
Now to get bloods done and go back for a review. I will see if I can actually sort that out in the next few months - should be fun.
My blood pressure was off the chart but it did come down on a second reading - weight was down which was good and near target so even better but I intend to go down a couple of stone this year if I can too so that will also reduce things.
Now to get bloods done and go back for a review. I will see if I can actually sort that out in the next few months - should be fun.
Monday, January 06, 2014
Surviving Cancer
Back on the subject of this blog. Cancer and the journey. In many ways I'm pretty comfortable where I am on my health front. I have to go see the specialist nurse tomorrow as my Spirography tests weren't great and so I'll go and see what she has to say and get my blood pressure done at the same time. It appears the doc wants to see me for a review and they want a blood test too.
I hardly ever get ill - feel quite fit although I know I've put on a few pounds over Christmas I know that after this weekend I will be able to concentrate on losing that and once I've moved I just want to have the basic foods I eat available and not all these other things lying around the house :-)
As for my Bladder Cancer, I don't think about it half as much as I used to do. I know that I'm eating properly and I'm not doing absolutely everything I could do as I don't do the FOCC and heavy juicing of green vegetables I used to but I am eating well, losing weight and as far as I can tell I am a lot fitter and healthier than I was this time last year. Occasionally I think about it and it crosses my mind how lucky I am. Another chap I knew died last week and you hear about Cancer all the time and people are diagnosed, undergoing treatment and so on all the time and likewise some recover, some get some quality of life, some of course are not so lucky.
I suppose in some ways I have a "respect" for the disease and now I'm hoping that the next test is negative and that I can gradually see my Bladder Cancer sailing away into the far horizon and it just be a very serious illness I once had. A nasty dream, now long gone. OK that isn't going to happen as they will keep their eye on me for a long time but again that isn't too bad I suppose as long as it doesn't result in more visits for false positives! :-)
Whether it is the immunotherapy, my diet or that I rarely get colds and the like I do appear to have been very healthy this past year. I haven't been really ill for about 6 years - this time 6 years ago I was in a right mess with a horrible cold, ear infection and I was stone deaf - that left me with tinnitus which I suffer with to this day. Since then I've had the odd cold but otherwise all is fine, most of my troubles were mental rather than physical and it looks to me as if most of that was caused by my failing marriage and the shock of having cancer, the treatment and the recovery. I tend to underplay it but there is no doubt about it - it is challenging and it is life changing. Surviving it allows you to question everything and perhaps reevaluate your life and to be pretty honest about things I find. Sometimes you can be a bit too honest.
I found a lovely quote yesterday and sent it to a very special friend of mine this morning:
"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit."
Albert Schweitzer
I got a lovely note back saying that I did that for them. I sent it because I felt that they had done that to me! Funny we both thought the same about each other. I'd never thought that I may also be someone's spirit guide too :-) Made my day did that! :-) I tend to not see that sometimes I'm capable of being the change and being there for other people. I tend to see myself receiving and I don't see myself as a giver particularly.
I hardly ever get ill - feel quite fit although I know I've put on a few pounds over Christmas I know that after this weekend I will be able to concentrate on losing that and once I've moved I just want to have the basic foods I eat available and not all these other things lying around the house :-)
As for my Bladder Cancer, I don't think about it half as much as I used to do. I know that I'm eating properly and I'm not doing absolutely everything I could do as I don't do the FOCC and heavy juicing of green vegetables I used to but I am eating well, losing weight and as far as I can tell I am a lot fitter and healthier than I was this time last year. Occasionally I think about it and it crosses my mind how lucky I am. Another chap I knew died last week and you hear about Cancer all the time and people are diagnosed, undergoing treatment and so on all the time and likewise some recover, some get some quality of life, some of course are not so lucky.
I suppose in some ways I have a "respect" for the disease and now I'm hoping that the next test is negative and that I can gradually see my Bladder Cancer sailing away into the far horizon and it just be a very serious illness I once had. A nasty dream, now long gone. OK that isn't going to happen as they will keep their eye on me for a long time but again that isn't too bad I suppose as long as it doesn't result in more visits for false positives! :-)
Whether it is the immunotherapy, my diet or that I rarely get colds and the like I do appear to have been very healthy this past year. I haven't been really ill for about 6 years - this time 6 years ago I was in a right mess with a horrible cold, ear infection and I was stone deaf - that left me with tinnitus which I suffer with to this day. Since then I've had the odd cold but otherwise all is fine, most of my troubles were mental rather than physical and it looks to me as if most of that was caused by my failing marriage and the shock of having cancer, the treatment and the recovery. I tend to underplay it but there is no doubt about it - it is challenging and it is life changing. Surviving it allows you to question everything and perhaps reevaluate your life and to be pretty honest about things I find. Sometimes you can be a bit too honest.
I found a lovely quote yesterday and sent it to a very special friend of mine this morning:
"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit."
Albert Schweitzer
I got a lovely note back saying that I did that for them. I sent it because I felt that they had done that to me! Funny we both thought the same about each other. I'd never thought that I may also be someone's spirit guide too :-) Made my day did that! :-) I tend to not see that sometimes I'm capable of being the change and being there for other people. I tend to see myself receiving and I don't see myself as a giver particularly.
House Fun
Blimey - the landlord of the place we looked at that could be compared to a Pig Sty isn't accepting any offers and yet out in the market there are plenty of places far nicer than the example we had presented to us. In many ways it is a surprise because the amount we offered would mean he would get tenants almost straight away. I doubt anyone will touch the place until it is cleaned, warm and brought up to standard. That could take a month or two and by then he'd have lost two months revenue.
I never quite understand people who say they are entrepreneurs or businessmen / women who don't grasp the basic concepts of money. We were paying up front and in advance allowing the landlord to invest that money - it's certainly worth more than paying it in bits. It's like you see people fannying (that's a technical term) around with the odd penny here and there. By the time you've done all that messing around it's cost you more than you are likely to gain. We had simple rules to turn our cash around 13 times a year (every 4 weeks) and I recall having one of the biggest rows of my life when I was summoned to Manchester - 5 hours away and when I arrived got a dressing down from some little Clerk Oiik over a 50 pence anomaly on £30,000 pounds worth of invoices. I threw the 50 p at him hitting him extremely hard told him there was his F*****g change and stormed out. My MD and I had an interesting conversation the next day :-) I kept my job and got admonished with a few words - then a smile and a "Don't do it again".
It is one of my major failings I'm afraid, I do not have any time for amateurs, people who act like children, people who are unprofessional or obstructive and jumped up clerks - well they are my favourite as many people will testify. Want to be humiliated in public and made to show just how stupid you are. Pick on me. It really isn't nice when I cut loose as the lady in the Orthodontists who ignored me for 5 minutes whilst talking to her friend on the phone, that meant that arriving on time for our appointment we were then late. I could go on but the row that erupted after we had seen the specialist was spectacular and left the woman reeling and those in the waiting room I hope were amused as I tore into this woman's rudeness and how I was checking if she was on work placement or on probationary period. Best of all the specialist had to come out and tell her that I was only conveying his wishes and to carry them out. My daugher however was not amused and I never accompanied her there again.
Anyway - it's a shame that the house isn't going to be the one we will live in, I can't see him shifting it in that state, not unless someone is absolutely desperate to live there. I think I'd be warmer and cleaner camping. Not to worry either as we are seeing three properties this week.
I never quite understand people who say they are entrepreneurs or businessmen / women who don't grasp the basic concepts of money. We were paying up front and in advance allowing the landlord to invest that money - it's certainly worth more than paying it in bits. It's like you see people fannying (that's a technical term) around with the odd penny here and there. By the time you've done all that messing around it's cost you more than you are likely to gain. We had simple rules to turn our cash around 13 times a year (every 4 weeks) and I recall having one of the biggest rows of my life when I was summoned to Manchester - 5 hours away and when I arrived got a dressing down from some little Clerk Oiik over a 50 pence anomaly on £30,000 pounds worth of invoices. I threw the 50 p at him hitting him extremely hard told him there was his F*****g change and stormed out. My MD and I had an interesting conversation the next day :-) I kept my job and got admonished with a few words - then a smile and a "Don't do it again".
It is one of my major failings I'm afraid, I do not have any time for amateurs, people who act like children, people who are unprofessional or obstructive and jumped up clerks - well they are my favourite as many people will testify. Want to be humiliated in public and made to show just how stupid you are. Pick on me. It really isn't nice when I cut loose as the lady in the Orthodontists who ignored me for 5 minutes whilst talking to her friend on the phone, that meant that arriving on time for our appointment we were then late. I could go on but the row that erupted after we had seen the specialist was spectacular and left the woman reeling and those in the waiting room I hope were amused as I tore into this woman's rudeness and how I was checking if she was on work placement or on probationary period. Best of all the specialist had to come out and tell her that I was only conveying his wishes and to carry them out. My daugher however was not amused and I never accompanied her there again.
Anyway - it's a shame that the house isn't going to be the one we will live in, I can't see him shifting it in that state, not unless someone is absolutely desperate to live there. I think I'd be warmer and cleaner camping. Not to worry either as we are seeing three properties this week.
Sunday, January 05, 2014
The Stigma Of Divorce
It appears to me that Mrs. F. feels that there is some sort of "Failure" on her part for the predicament that we are in now and that it is somehow shameful or a failure or some other such heinous crime that she can't tell anyone. Really? I mean do people still judge it like that. In these days of living together and children out of wedlock I'd be surprised if anyone looked upon it as anything other than what it is. It's sad and regrettable but surely, if you can't actually live together then why go on pretending that you can to give the appearance and to pander to some one else's opinion. In my mind that's just plain wrong and surely we can get away from worrying about what other people feel about it?
I remember a time where it was all said in hushed tones about someone being divorced and it was almost always associated with infidelity and spoken of accusingly. In my own lifetime these opinions and ideas have changed completely.
I've got a feeling that I may not be the best person to discuss it with either because I just see it for what it is and it's time to move on. I can see I've upset everyone in my family because I've turned their world upside down but I have to measure it against my own sanity and my own life. There was no way I could have tried any harder to change things nor could I get anyone to change with me either. That's the tragedy if you like. The warning signs were there for a long time and I'd tried all sorts of ways to make those changes and do something about it. I'd even prepared myself to make us work together (job wise) so that we could get closer or have a common interest.
Oh well, it wasn't to be and time to move on and in many ways, moving out of here will settle things down a bit I expect. I am not sure if the girls will want to see me or not? That too will be something that I expect will evolve a bit. It feels like they are on their mum's side and I'm OK with that because frankly, she needs as much support as can be given to her. I'm not particularly worried about that in the short term, I just hope that somewhere along the line we can meet up for a coffee or lunch or dinner or something when they are over.
A lot will change after a short while I am certain of that. I can see that the dynamics need to move on. It's a bit like I was on the phone to my mum and she said where was everyone and I said I didn't actually know, they were out. Of course, I've hardly ever known where everyone is for years and it started to hit home to me that it has always been like this or has for a good while. No one talks to me or tells me anything - it all comes as a big surprise to me. Another reason I did put to Mrs. F. about why I was going, there are more like that. I don't know why I beat myself up about it really.
This week should see some positive moves anyway as we get to look seriously at some places and then go back and see if any progress is made on the property that looked like a bomb had hit it. I hope that they may have done the right level of work on it so that we can say yes and get in ASAP. The sooner the better in both our cases really. I'd like to start moving stuff over and get in over the course of a few days and do a number of runs with my stuff to gradually get myself eased in. As Mrs. F. is out during the day it makes it easier for me to come and go Monday to Friday. I now need the impetus to get cracking with the business - it is taking longer than I wanted but in reality, I will just be a month or so later than I expected and I have time and inclination to get working and sorting stuff out.
I remember a time where it was all said in hushed tones about someone being divorced and it was almost always associated with infidelity and spoken of accusingly. In my own lifetime these opinions and ideas have changed completely.
I've got a feeling that I may not be the best person to discuss it with either because I just see it for what it is and it's time to move on. I can see I've upset everyone in my family because I've turned their world upside down but I have to measure it against my own sanity and my own life. There was no way I could have tried any harder to change things nor could I get anyone to change with me either. That's the tragedy if you like. The warning signs were there for a long time and I'd tried all sorts of ways to make those changes and do something about it. I'd even prepared myself to make us work together (job wise) so that we could get closer or have a common interest.
Oh well, it wasn't to be and time to move on and in many ways, moving out of here will settle things down a bit I expect. I am not sure if the girls will want to see me or not? That too will be something that I expect will evolve a bit. It feels like they are on their mum's side and I'm OK with that because frankly, she needs as much support as can be given to her. I'm not particularly worried about that in the short term, I just hope that somewhere along the line we can meet up for a coffee or lunch or dinner or something when they are over.
A lot will change after a short while I am certain of that. I can see that the dynamics need to move on. It's a bit like I was on the phone to my mum and she said where was everyone and I said I didn't actually know, they were out. Of course, I've hardly ever known where everyone is for years and it started to hit home to me that it has always been like this or has for a good while. No one talks to me or tells me anything - it all comes as a big surprise to me. Another reason I did put to Mrs. F. about why I was going, there are more like that. I don't know why I beat myself up about it really.
This week should see some positive moves anyway as we get to look seriously at some places and then go back and see if any progress is made on the property that looked like a bomb had hit it. I hope that they may have done the right level of work on it so that we can say yes and get in ASAP. The sooner the better in both our cases really. I'd like to start moving stuff over and get in over the course of a few days and do a number of runs with my stuff to gradually get myself eased in. As Mrs. F. is out during the day it makes it easier for me to come and go Monday to Friday. I now need the impetus to get cracking with the business - it is taking longer than I wanted but in reality, I will just be a month or so later than I expected and I have time and inclination to get working and sorting stuff out.
Declaration of Independence
I wonder if I ought to set out a Declaration of Independence or a Bill of Rights to put me on the right road to my Independence? :-)
We already uphold the 5th Amendment in the house anyway. LOL.
But seriously I was thinking along the lines of making sure I enjoy myself and get out and about. I was having a series of dreams about actually getting out of the house and "doing something". It's all too easy to be sat inside and do nothing and it would cost very little to get out and go for a walk around my local area here. It's one of the best things - I have so many choices of walks and all within a few minutes. I think I shall try and make sure that I do actually get out and about again like I did in the Summer of 2013. The fresh air and just getting out of the house being the thing.
It depends on where we eventually end up too I suppose. If it is the place we are asking them to negotiate for us then I think there should be some footpaths and walks around there too. It's only 5 minutes from here by car so I can always head back and park up and go for a walk. It isn't going to be that difficult.
I find myself looking forward to getting out of here and on a miserable day like today to be getting on with something even if it is the household chores. I don't want to be working all the time, although I will have to put quite a bit of effort in at the beginning to build the business.
I'm transitioning over the financials to my control - it's having a few interesting moments as I go through and change standing orders and direct debits, credit and debit cards etc. All good fun. There'll be loads of silly things I'll need to sort out like licences and vehicle registration, voting forms and so on. Luckily some of these can be achieved on-line but my driving licence that I have managed to go without changing for 20 or more years now needs to be one of these new fangled EU type credit card ones - nightmare - another money spinner as you have to update it (like your passport) every 10 years and if you don't they fine you. This country lives on sodding fines - they don't reward you for doing something but they are happy to wield a big stick in the other direction. Bunch of faceless bureaucrats :-)
So - it's a boring Sunday, quiet at the moment but yet another storm coming in to add to the gales and rain we've had for about a month now I suppose. I should be getting on with some accounts but my heart really isn't in it and I think it will be much better to target doing that tomorrow. I know I have the whole day to do it with no one around to distract me. Not that I get interrupted except by the imposed silences in the house. :-)
We already uphold the 5th Amendment in the house anyway. LOL.
But seriously I was thinking along the lines of making sure I enjoy myself and get out and about. I was having a series of dreams about actually getting out of the house and "doing something". It's all too easy to be sat inside and do nothing and it would cost very little to get out and go for a walk around my local area here. It's one of the best things - I have so many choices of walks and all within a few minutes. I think I shall try and make sure that I do actually get out and about again like I did in the Summer of 2013. The fresh air and just getting out of the house being the thing.
It depends on where we eventually end up too I suppose. If it is the place we are asking them to negotiate for us then I think there should be some footpaths and walks around there too. It's only 5 minutes from here by car so I can always head back and park up and go for a walk. It isn't going to be that difficult.
I find myself looking forward to getting out of here and on a miserable day like today to be getting on with something even if it is the household chores. I don't want to be working all the time, although I will have to put quite a bit of effort in at the beginning to build the business.
I'm transitioning over the financials to my control - it's having a few interesting moments as I go through and change standing orders and direct debits, credit and debit cards etc. All good fun. There'll be loads of silly things I'll need to sort out like licences and vehicle registration, voting forms and so on. Luckily some of these can be achieved on-line but my driving licence that I have managed to go without changing for 20 or more years now needs to be one of these new fangled EU type credit card ones - nightmare - another money spinner as you have to update it (like your passport) every 10 years and if you don't they fine you. This country lives on sodding fines - they don't reward you for doing something but they are happy to wield a big stick in the other direction. Bunch of faceless bureaucrats :-)
So - it's a boring Sunday, quiet at the moment but yet another storm coming in to add to the gales and rain we've had for about a month now I suppose. I should be getting on with some accounts but my heart really isn't in it and I think it will be much better to target doing that tomorrow. I know I have the whole day to do it with no one around to distract me. Not that I get interrupted except by the imposed silences in the house. :-)
Oh well - another quiet night in
It's like a game of Risk in some ways. I came down from the office around 5 pm I wanted to watch the Ski Jumping (4 hills) and sat down watched that and a bit of the Luge World Cup, cooked some dinner and obviously I'd claimed the Living Room for I was undisturbed all night. The place was quiet by 09:30 and the lights were out so just me then! :-)
It's a funny old place here and the sooner I get out the happier I'll be because this is no life at all at the moment. I'd like to go do some work on the business but my head isn't clear enough. I make lots of notes and jot down ideas but only sporadically. I note that I stay up late as well and it isn't helping. I'll fall into bed again close to 2 am but I really should have been in bed before midnight.
I see the GP wants me to have a blood test and go see them. I always used to have my test just before Christmas as it is the only time when you can actually get it done I find. I shall see what sort it is - if it isn't fasting then I might go and do it but the fasting one is a farce and you can sit there for 2 or 3 hours and not get done. They also want a review - that's OK but I'm already going there next week so I'll sort that out afterwards. I have 6 to 8 weeks to do that. Actually it might be better to move it out a bit as I should be far calmer when I go.
I suppose we all have to deal with situations in our own way. I was chatting to the Estate Agent who asked what the situation was like and she said she could have popped over to the house but I said that my wife was in and it was probably a good idea that I went to see her rather than she come around to my house. Interesting - she saw the Jag and said "I knew you were rich". What a funny thing to say! The only thing I'm rich in and soon will be free to revel in that, is in life and in my friends. Whilst I'd like the idea of having some more money - the bottom line is that I really want to live in a nice place and be happy. That would be great. I have enough money to be happy, I guess I could work on early retirement too if I wanted but still the bottom line is that as long as you are happy and comfortable, have good health and can feed yourself then your going to be OK. Good old Maslow's Hierarchy Of Needs.
It's a funny old place here and the sooner I get out the happier I'll be because this is no life at all at the moment. I'd like to go do some work on the business but my head isn't clear enough. I make lots of notes and jot down ideas but only sporadically. I note that I stay up late as well and it isn't helping. I'll fall into bed again close to 2 am but I really should have been in bed before midnight.
I see the GP wants me to have a blood test and go see them. I always used to have my test just before Christmas as it is the only time when you can actually get it done I find. I shall see what sort it is - if it isn't fasting then I might go and do it but the fasting one is a farce and you can sit there for 2 or 3 hours and not get done. They also want a review - that's OK but I'm already going there next week so I'll sort that out afterwards. I have 6 to 8 weeks to do that. Actually it might be better to move it out a bit as I should be far calmer when I go.
I suppose we all have to deal with situations in our own way. I was chatting to the Estate Agent who asked what the situation was like and she said she could have popped over to the house but I said that my wife was in and it was probably a good idea that I went to see her rather than she come around to my house. Interesting - she saw the Jag and said "I knew you were rich". What a funny thing to say! The only thing I'm rich in and soon will be free to revel in that, is in life and in my friends. Whilst I'd like the idea of having some more money - the bottom line is that I really want to live in a nice place and be happy. That would be great. I have enough money to be happy, I guess I could work on early retirement too if I wanted but still the bottom line is that as long as you are happy and comfortable, have good health and can feed yourself then your going to be OK. Good old Maslow's Hierarchy Of Needs.
The key to this is to work from the bottom upwards. You need to have the bottom layer in place before you can build on that with the next one and so on. You can see that in many ways Mrs. F. and I may well have the bottom part of the Pyramid but safety isn't there and neither are the others built on that. Here lies Mrs. F.'s problem in that all of the top 4 have been ripped away. For me I realise that I can rebuild this once I've moved our and on from where I am. I can rebuild the safety side and then start to work on the others. It's not all as easy as this but you can see how things can feel utterly desperate when at one time you had everything and now you know that all of that has, or will soon be, gone.
Saturday, January 04, 2014
Minutiae
We aren't selling this house - not as far as I know and I own half of it :-) but it is funny how I'm being asked about things in the garage - like the Piano - OK it has been lying around for close to 2 years and for a year in the garage. Also the Easter Egg Hunt stuff. So I asked if they needed to be moved - I mean why ask as they are stored where they have been for ages and it's just a nonsense until, that is, we come to sell the place when I can then decide what to do.
It's funny this attention to the detail without getting to the bigger picture. Surely the overall thing needs to be decided yet - I can't believe that here are around 6 months in and half her family still don't know :-)
We are at least progressing on the house now and have some more to go and see. A couple have gone already - I guess it is a New Year and lots of stuff kicks off again. We have three more to view this week and "discussions" are being opened on the other place we saw. Having done a bit of homework, we've sent the Estate Agent off to sort things out. Of course it isn't in their interests to get a lesser value but - honestly - the place was a mess. Just a day or so making it look nice would have been good and would probably have resulted in a deal being struck.
An interesting week coming up - I must sit down and do the accounts and subscriptions for the Lodge and get those sorted out.
It's funny this attention to the detail without getting to the bigger picture. Surely the overall thing needs to be decided yet - I can't believe that here are around 6 months in and half her family still don't know :-)
We are at least progressing on the house now and have some more to go and see. A couple have gone already - I guess it is a New Year and lots of stuff kicks off again. We have three more to view this week and "discussions" are being opened on the other place we saw. Having done a bit of homework, we've sent the Estate Agent off to sort things out. Of course it isn't in their interests to get a lesser value but - honestly - the place was a mess. Just a day or so making it look nice would have been good and would probably have resulted in a deal being struck.
An interesting week coming up - I must sit down and do the accounts and subscriptions for the Lodge and get those sorted out.
Friday, January 03, 2014
The Silence Of The House
It's bizarre how silent this place was this morning. Mrs. F had got up and gone to work but switched off the lights. L is away and A was lying in so it was pitch black and so quiet when I woke up this morning. At least I got up and was breakfasted and ready to meet Flocky for Coffee. The sun came up brightly and it was a beautiful morning. Now it is lashing with rain once again.
The lack of communication may be the way that people are dealing with the situation at the moment. I try my hardest not to be changed by it all. It is though a deafening silence and whether it is just ignorance or deafness (I still thinks Mrs. F. has a hearing problem she need to sort out) it is just another barrier and another timely reminder that, if I am honest and level with myself, it always like this. No one told me what they were doing until the last second. Everyone wanted something done "NOW" and I'd be the bad guy if I didn't drop whatever I was doing and fulfil said task or deed. "Don't bother!" would be bandied around if I were just a few milliseconds too late in picking up the gauntlet.
Any regrets that I have - and I do have some, bound to have, are pushed to the background as I see now that I just lived through this and put up with it and I no longer need to. I suppose we will eventually get around to talking again. I can understand the hurt and the angst and sadness but I suppose I'm so used to having to repair and arbitrate big problems when I used to do that sort of thing that as a living. Not so easy when it is personal I guess.
So there you go - things are still in never never land state at the moment. I know that it won't be long though and that once out of here I can just cut loose and get things going. At the moment it's difficult to concentrate on what I need to do, it just feels like there's a oppressive atmosphere, a huge black cloud hovering over the place.
The lack of communication may be the way that people are dealing with the situation at the moment. I try my hardest not to be changed by it all. It is though a deafening silence and whether it is just ignorance or deafness (I still thinks Mrs. F. has a hearing problem she need to sort out) it is just another barrier and another timely reminder that, if I am honest and level with myself, it always like this. No one told me what they were doing until the last second. Everyone wanted something done "NOW" and I'd be the bad guy if I didn't drop whatever I was doing and fulfil said task or deed. "Don't bother!" would be bandied around if I were just a few milliseconds too late in picking up the gauntlet.
Any regrets that I have - and I do have some, bound to have, are pushed to the background as I see now that I just lived through this and put up with it and I no longer need to. I suppose we will eventually get around to talking again. I can understand the hurt and the angst and sadness but I suppose I'm so used to having to repair and arbitrate big problems when I used to do that sort of thing that as a living. Not so easy when it is personal I guess.
So there you go - things are still in never never land state at the moment. I know that it won't be long though and that once out of here I can just cut loose and get things going. At the moment it's difficult to concentrate on what I need to do, it just feels like there's a oppressive atmosphere, a huge black cloud hovering over the place.
Shocking Programme on TV Last Night - Diet Yo-Yo
I feel it is truly shocking that there are people out there who fully believe they are eating a "balanced" diet, calorie counting, getting their 5 a day and as a result are getting fatter and fatter and they can't understand why. This programme showed a number of women who throughout their whole lives had yo-yo'd between weights. The diets they had been on and he fads and the massive weight losses and regains.
It then went on about the inverted food pyramid we see these days and there are all these people basing their diets on carbs and fruit. Some were juicing huge quantities of fruit and that nearly finished me off when I went down that route. Some were exercising but once again it was this myth that by reducing calories you can somehow lose weight when clearly a calorie isn't a calorie (you need to read Protein Power, Gary Taubes, The DIet Doctor or The Insulin Factor).
It was heart rending to see these women doing crazy things to try and get thin and for some, the mental anguish was palpable. There's merit in many things but an Occam's Razor approach to the problem would surely provide some sort of clue here. Before the 1970s, you rarely saw an obese person, I think the rates were 1% or 2%. Then, to support the Corn Farmers of the US a new dietary pyramid was produced that shows carbohydrates making up the base of the pyramid with protein at the tip. It all looks rational and sensible as it has been "sold" to us as being good for us. Since that time, with everyone changing their diet, obesity and diabetes have soared and it's costing us our health and straining our medical system. It doesn't seem to be straining the drug and food companies. Just saying :-)
The hidden sugar in drinks which is pretty much artificial and unbelievably high in quantity is also present in many forms in day to day foods. Watch out for Dextrose, Fructose and Glucose all in the ingredients even of pickles and mustard. This stuff is addictive and of course leads to most of the diseases and conditions we see rife today.
I like the fact that there were no dieticians, cardiologist, personal fitness trainers and many other new professions back in the day, mainly because they weren't needed. Rarely did people die from heart disease, rarely did people become fat, not even in old age. It's all a bit strange that all of a sudden obesity and diabetes, heart disease, dementia and the like are now at 'epidemic' levels (not sure if that is true - the papers say so - and I've no figures to go on).
Is it me or are there vested interests out there that want us to be dependent on the drug and food companies? It's amazing that breakfast cereal has big green ticks on it saying it's good for your heart? Really!!! No I mean really? It's a box full of carbohydrates FFS and some of the levels of sugar in them are also atrocious especially kids stuff and we are told it is good for us.
Seeing all these sad ladies who just couldn't shake down their weight was tragic and I was constantly shaking my head whilst listening to the same old nonsense pumped out by slimming clubs and organisations - you can't get slim on cakes and chocolate. You can't get slim on grains and fruit - period - it will never happen. Most of these end up starving you, you end up losing muscle mass (not fat) and you forever feel hungry. I've lost 3 1/2 stone - have hardly ever felt hungry and gained muscle but lost fat - go figure.
I wonder whether this will end up like the Tobacco industry with damages being awarded to people because of the addictive ingredients used in processed foods? Who knows?
It then went on about the inverted food pyramid we see these days and there are all these people basing their diets on carbs and fruit. Some were juicing huge quantities of fruit and that nearly finished me off when I went down that route. Some were exercising but once again it was this myth that by reducing calories you can somehow lose weight when clearly a calorie isn't a calorie (you need to read Protein Power, Gary Taubes, The DIet Doctor or The Insulin Factor).
It was heart rending to see these women doing crazy things to try and get thin and for some, the mental anguish was palpable. There's merit in many things but an Occam's Razor approach to the problem would surely provide some sort of clue here. Before the 1970s, you rarely saw an obese person, I think the rates were 1% or 2%. Then, to support the Corn Farmers of the US a new dietary pyramid was produced that shows carbohydrates making up the base of the pyramid with protein at the tip. It all looks rational and sensible as it has been "sold" to us as being good for us. Since that time, with everyone changing their diet, obesity and diabetes have soared and it's costing us our health and straining our medical system. It doesn't seem to be straining the drug and food companies. Just saying :-)
The hidden sugar in drinks which is pretty much artificial and unbelievably high in quantity is also present in many forms in day to day foods. Watch out for Dextrose, Fructose and Glucose all in the ingredients even of pickles and mustard. This stuff is addictive and of course leads to most of the diseases and conditions we see rife today.
I like the fact that there were no dieticians, cardiologist, personal fitness trainers and many other new professions back in the day, mainly because they weren't needed. Rarely did people die from heart disease, rarely did people become fat, not even in old age. It's all a bit strange that all of a sudden obesity and diabetes, heart disease, dementia and the like are now at 'epidemic' levels (not sure if that is true - the papers say so - and I've no figures to go on).
Is it me or are there vested interests out there that want us to be dependent on the drug and food companies? It's amazing that breakfast cereal has big green ticks on it saying it's good for your heart? Really!!! No I mean really? It's a box full of carbohydrates FFS and some of the levels of sugar in them are also atrocious especially kids stuff and we are told it is good for us.
Seeing all these sad ladies who just couldn't shake down their weight was tragic and I was constantly shaking my head whilst listening to the same old nonsense pumped out by slimming clubs and organisations - you can't get slim on cakes and chocolate. You can't get slim on grains and fruit - period - it will never happen. Most of these end up starving you, you end up losing muscle mass (not fat) and you forever feel hungry. I've lost 3 1/2 stone - have hardly ever felt hungry and gained muscle but lost fat - go figure.
I wonder whether this will end up like the Tobacco industry with damages being awarded to people because of the addictive ingredients used in processed foods? Who knows?
Urgh - It's Late AGAIN
Whoops - out tomorrow earlish so need to make sure I get up. Plenty of weather going on outside with the 4th or 5th Gale of the last few weeks. People have short memories, I'm certain that the UK was known for being a windy and blustery place - sure I read that in some history book somewhere.
Any how - I missed that I was watching a +1 channel and instead of the film finishing at around 12:30 it finished at 1:30! I've been sat down working through my finances and sorting out what needs to be done and by when - the logistics of it all are pretty complex as I need certain things in place to set things up but I'm being pressured to go down another route that I'm not entirely happy with. Plus I've got to start transferring Direct Debits to my new bank account and that's fraught with danger too at the moment - I need to get my credit cards sorted too. If it's anything like one of the banks I've been dealing with for years who I've found out today are still sending one of the account details to the old Treasurer of 5 or 6 years ago. I've only written to them 3 times to have it changed and I feel a call coming on but of course, once I move I need all the addresses changed anyway!
Logistical fun - not. As I won't have a phone that will work on premium phone numbers it should be a great deal of fun contacting these people.
Suppose I'd better get to bed - I need some sleep - one of those days tomorrow - early coffee followed by an evening committee meeting - if I can get the cars moved around the drive so I can move my poor old Jag which has sat half on the grass for the past 2 or 3 weeks!
Any how - I missed that I was watching a +1 channel and instead of the film finishing at around 12:30 it finished at 1:30! I've been sat down working through my finances and sorting out what needs to be done and by when - the logistics of it all are pretty complex as I need certain things in place to set things up but I'm being pressured to go down another route that I'm not entirely happy with. Plus I've got to start transferring Direct Debits to my new bank account and that's fraught with danger too at the moment - I need to get my credit cards sorted too. If it's anything like one of the banks I've been dealing with for years who I've found out today are still sending one of the account details to the old Treasurer of 5 or 6 years ago. I've only written to them 3 times to have it changed and I feel a call coming on but of course, once I move I need all the addresses changed anyway!
Logistical fun - not. As I won't have a phone that will work on premium phone numbers it should be a great deal of fun contacting these people.
Suppose I'd better get to bed - I need some sleep - one of those days tomorrow - early coffee followed by an evening committee meeting - if I can get the cars moved around the drive so I can move my poor old Jag which has sat half on the grass for the past 2 or 3 weeks!
Thursday, January 02, 2014
Housing - Fun
It looks as if the place we saw on New Year's Eve may get a quick brush up and tidy down for us to go back and see it especially after it has warmed up and the bathroom and kitchen attended to. Flocky and I aren't averse to getting stuck in and cleaning the place up a bit but the previous tenants had left the place in a pretty shabby state.
So we've dropped a note to the Estate Agent and will have to hear back in due course. It's a great size and a good location but so awfully dirty and cold and damp- let's hope he can get it fixed. It's in his interest to get it sorted.
Somehow it all seems to be exciting and interesting...
So we've dropped a note to the Estate Agent and will have to hear back in due course. It's a great size and a good location but so awfully dirty and cold and damp- let's hope he can get it fixed. It's in his interest to get it sorted.
Somehow it all seems to be exciting and interesting...
Disturbed Night Sleep
I was up and down every few hours it seemed last night. I guess it was brain in overdrive again and I recollect waking dreams about odd things like room and office and space (amount of in new house).
I finally must have got off around 4 but had a rude awakening with the phone ringing and Mrs. F. telling me that something was wrong with the car and to let A know who she couldn't get in touch with so I'm up, awake and fed already. A has had her boyfriend drive her to her lesson so that's good. The alarm is actually only to do with the ignition key battery! :-) But a flat tyre isn't great either - don't people check these things before you need to do something? Maybe not.
I can only think that Mrs. F has gone to work, if so yippee! A day at home without having to feel like something someone stepped in :-) I have a few minor chores to attend to and then perhaps I can get on with some actual work. It is strange how good I feel knowing that she may not be home for another 10 hours!
Right - off to work - no need to worry about paths crossing for a while.
UPDATE: These modern cars - it was warning that the battery in the key fob was running low - NO honestly :-) Clever but alarming too. Think they've just fixed the tyre too.
I finally must have got off around 4 but had a rude awakening with the phone ringing and Mrs. F. telling me that something was wrong with the car and to let A know who she couldn't get in touch with so I'm up, awake and fed already. A has had her boyfriend drive her to her lesson so that's good. The alarm is actually only to do with the ignition key battery! :-) But a flat tyre isn't great either - don't people check these things before you need to do something? Maybe not.
I can only think that Mrs. F has gone to work, if so yippee! A day at home without having to feel like something someone stepped in :-) I have a few minor chores to attend to and then perhaps I can get on with some actual work. It is strange how good I feel knowing that she may not be home for another 10 hours!
Right - off to work - no need to worry about paths crossing for a while.
UPDATE: These modern cars - it was warning that the battery in the key fob was running low - NO honestly :-) Clever but alarming too. Think they've just fixed the tyre too.
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
Grinning and Bearing It
Soon be over I keep telling myself, it will soon be over and I can get on and mostly importantly move on. I just don't feel able to do that at the moment. It's the atmosphere and I find it oppressive because whilst I am quite used to be being ignored - at the moment the old silent treatment is pretty galling and the surprises - say goodbye to L she's back off to Cambridge - 2 or 3 days earlier than I was expecting - Oh OK :-) Bye...
The ins and outs the not knowing who is doing what is just marginalising me and I guess that's to be expected but it isn't particularly nice and neither is it helpful in trying to be just a little bit civilised. I for my part do not bite at it too much unless I feel like making a bit of a point. It's mainly that when I ask some question I get an answer that has nothing to do with the question I've asked or is designed to be obfuscating in some way. Never mind, it will be all over soon and in many ways it can't come too fast. It will give january some focus and allow me to try and spend my days concentrating on my business and on building it as soon as possible. In many ways I'm going to be a month or two behind where I thought I'd be but that's the way it is and I can't do anything about that.
For some irrational reason thoughts have turned to being on my own, I say irrational but I did "feel" it last night at the pub and I knew some people but none of the people I know as regulars were there, none of the regular bar staff were on and so it was a little lonelier than I was expecting and it probably got me thinking and the brain giving it large about being on your own and all that. I should know from 2013 that this isn't actually true and that I don't necessarily need to worry about it. I suppose it's just one of the sweep of emotions that you are bound to get.
I don't doubt that I've made the right decision though and that's good. I know that it would be easy to call it all off and say let's start again but that isn't going to happen, for my own sanity it cannot.
So the beginning of 2014 and it's a thoughtful and yet unproductive start. I think perhaps it might be worthwhile tomorrow to just start lining up the ducks (so to speak) bringing together the stuff I want to take with me and working out some basic logistics on that. There are lots of things I could take but if I am going to be moving again in 6 months then perhaps I'd better consider leaving them here - like my Piano and some of my books. At least it will give me something to focus on for a while.
The ins and outs the not knowing who is doing what is just marginalising me and I guess that's to be expected but it isn't particularly nice and neither is it helpful in trying to be just a little bit civilised. I for my part do not bite at it too much unless I feel like making a bit of a point. It's mainly that when I ask some question I get an answer that has nothing to do with the question I've asked or is designed to be obfuscating in some way. Never mind, it will be all over soon and in many ways it can't come too fast. It will give january some focus and allow me to try and spend my days concentrating on my business and on building it as soon as possible. In many ways I'm going to be a month or two behind where I thought I'd be but that's the way it is and I can't do anything about that.
For some irrational reason thoughts have turned to being on my own, I say irrational but I did "feel" it last night at the pub and I knew some people but none of the people I know as regulars were there, none of the regular bar staff were on and so it was a little lonelier than I was expecting and it probably got me thinking and the brain giving it large about being on your own and all that. I should know from 2013 that this isn't actually true and that I don't necessarily need to worry about it. I suppose it's just one of the sweep of emotions that you are bound to get.
I don't doubt that I've made the right decision though and that's good. I know that it would be easy to call it all off and say let's start again but that isn't going to happen, for my own sanity it cannot.
So the beginning of 2014 and it's a thoughtful and yet unproductive start. I think perhaps it might be worthwhile tomorrow to just start lining up the ducks (so to speak) bringing together the stuff I want to take with me and working out some basic logistics on that. There are lots of things I could take but if I am going to be moving again in 6 months then perhaps I'd better consider leaving them here - like my Piano and some of my books. At least it will give me something to focus on for a while.
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