Saturday, November 08, 2025

Review Incoming

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  I've done this before and I suppose life cannot really be planned and neither can it be predicted.  I am in the place where I am throu...
Friday, November 07, 2025

Nothing To Fear Except Fear Itself

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 The phrase "nothing to fear but fear itself" is a quote from Franklin D. Roosevelt's 1933 first inaugural address, given duri...

Good - Another Thing Ticked Off The List

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  That's the car sorted out which is good.  A little work to do in the New Year which looks to fit in nicely with a trip to the dentists...
Thursday, November 06, 2025

Surprising How Little Things Increase Your Wellbeing

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  I enjoyed the meeting yesterday and whilst it droned on a bit - some people have no idea of timeliness and dither and waste time, we ate l...
Wednesday, November 05, 2025

Off To Another Meeting

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  I feel nervous and shaky but I am going to go to the meeting and see some other good friends whom I haven't seen since July, I am sure...

When You Are Not Thinking Clearly

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  It has been a hell of a six months for sure.  It is interesting that it has been around five months since I last went to a Lodge meeting a...
Tuesday, November 04, 2025

The Utter Weariness Of It All

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I know that I am utterly exhausted by all this goings on and I have a decision to make about life, the universe and all that.  Do I bother? ...

Now To Tackle More Demons

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  It's fair to say that this whole episode has worn me down and it isn't just that, there are other factors at play including frustr...
Monday, November 03, 2025

What If That Was All It Was About!

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  The Okey Cokey?  No, although that might be a disappointment.  No what if someone got it into their head that I thought they were a fool? ...
Sunday, November 02, 2025

That's Better - Calm (ish) Ness Returns

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  Yes, altogether a better calmer temperament today.  The shakes are diminishing thank goodness and whilst I am not 100% chipper, I am feeli...
Saturday, November 01, 2025

A Second Opinion Always Helps

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  Well it was great to meet up for breakfast.  Nice to hear both of our stories although not much good news rally is there?  I think we both...

Breakfast With My Friend

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  We go back a long way - probably 30 years or so and whilst we didn't quite hit it off first time, we gradually grew to respect each ot...
Friday, October 31, 2025

I Put Her Down Hours ago

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  This relates to a passage in A New World where two monks are walking through driving torrential rain and come upon a village where a young...
Thursday, October 30, 2025

Surely Not

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  A phrase that someone used at the end of the meeting last week was something along the lines of he's not a fool.  Those words were use...

So That's The Paperwork Done - Relaunch

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  So that's is now done, the meeting minutes and covering letters in the post and whilst I feel this is all behind me now, I still dread...
Wednesday, October 29, 2025

A Little Better Today

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  The problem when you are being attacked is that you take it personally and whilst back in the day I never used to, these days I do. I feel...
Monday, October 27, 2025

That Was Horrible - What An Up And Down Weekend

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  That was dark, very dark, everything went dark on Saturday it was frightening but grabbing the book (A New Earth) dug me out of the hole a...
Sunday, October 26, 2025

OMG That Was SO Bad... Black Dog

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Only a few times in my life have I been to such a very dark place.  When I kind of knew I had Cancer and when I was diagnosed with it.  When...
Saturday, October 25, 2025

It Doesn't Make Sense Why I Feel Bad

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  I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I feel somewhat bad about the meeting because, he's been trying to destroy me all the ...

Yuk. What Did I Expect?

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  The trouble when you deal with non business people who think it is personal is you get an awful row and it got heated and messy ending up ...