Bloody hell, the last few weeks have been horrible and there's uncertainty and some trepidation that having kicked the problem into the long grass and hopefully disposed of it, the irrational accusations, for that's what they were, could easily raise their head again.
Such is the nature of people who set off without a preconceived plan of what they are trying to achieve continue to paint themselves into a corner and like a wounded animal it makes them desperate and dangerous. If you conceive a plan where the outcome you want is the destruction of your fellow colleague and to grind him under your heel to dust and humiliate him then you'd better be right, you'd better have all the facts to hand and you'd better have an escape plan. But, if you go all in through malice and vexatious intent then you will be blinded by your own anger and be unable to understand the complexities of the war (for that's what it is now) you are about to unleash.
There's no way out you see when you run a campaign on anger and without a clear strategy about what you want to achieve and how you are going to get there. There is also the fact that you blindly believe in your case and your cause is just and perfect in your own judgement. Heaven knows why it was felt necessary to go all in and then double down leaving no way out when the truth of the matter was demonstrated by their own hand! Forgetting a key piece of evidence was folly and stupid and now that it is in full view, it destroys the whole reason for the min campaign. There's no ability to retreat and there's no real chance to reconcile even though I have provided that avenue for you. It's a big climb down and a huge loss of face but ignoring my entreaties over and over again will just add up to further painting yourself into a corner.
I imagine there's now a difficulty in having to deal with me after having abused and accused me of various things, professional stuff and that's one thing I have always maintained. Thinking that I wouldn't have the documents to back up my position was another miscalculation on your half. But I can see you not wanting to do the right thing and come and sit down at the table and discuss these things and retracting your falsehoods and attempting to restart.
Why do people do this? Why do they make a rod for their own back and practice self immolation? What on earth is the point of getting so angry (and so wrong) that you destroy all hope of reconciliation or retraction and leave yourself with a trail of destruction in your wake surely you must know that it can only lead to your own downfall? I suppose not, people let their anger overrule their logical brain and sacrifice everything for nothing. A shame after all these years but I cannot be my brother's keeper and I am unable to stop the little voice in his head taking him over and resulting in an outcome diametrically opposite of that which he probably felt he was going to achieve. Sad but he has wounded me after all these years.
I doubt I will trust anyone else in the future which is my take away damage.
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