Again. Yes here we go towards Christmas and it feels very different this year. I am being very careful with my money as I do not know quite how much this new pump will have cost me yet and so where I'd normally buy a bit more than I probably should this year I have bought a bit less.
In many ways I am still not quite right either in my head and subsequently, that sort of makes you feel physically fatigued too. I do feel mentally and physically drained and it's all been too much this year. Whilst Christmas is often time for a great reset (that doesn't last much beyond mid January to be fair) I actually do need to do something about it all. I launched the new version of the App this morning but I haven't told anyone (other than the Developer) and I really haven't fully decided what to do about the business. My heart has gone out of it with all the threats and brickbat throwing of the divorced "partner" in the business.
I wouldn't normally kowtow to bullys but this has gone a little too far to be comfortable and it makes me ill just thinking about it. The crazy thing is that I know, in a straight argument, it would be laughed out of court but who wants that to go that far anyway? His arguments are preposterous and his attempt to remove me from my position was also interesting in the fact that he even thinks he is justified in doing it. A narcissistic egotistical act. As I am not dealing with a business person or rational actor it makes things edgy I suppose? If the business had some income and some money behind it then we could engage a solicitor and make this all go away. We don't so it hasn't.
Anyway, that decision is hovering between just giving it all up or running with it and seeing where it takes us.
So a month of pretending that this is all jolly and fun coming up. Will I get into the Christmas Spirit? Who knows. Right now, not so much. Perhaps in a week or two I might feel a bit better about myself, the business and my situation? Maybe.
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