Snow on the ground outside (would be worrying if inside I suppose) which wasn't expected last night in the weather forecast, and the start of a better day for me. I haven't been as bad as yesterday for a very long time indeed. I'm not brilliant today but yesterday was absolutely horrible. The trigger, if there was one, was getting that "test" email through from the potential future employer and then seeing that they hadn't got part of it right. Suddenly the ground opened up beneath me and I was in a horrible place.
The alarm bells going off should be asking why did that set me off. It's obvious in my mind that I'm going for a job that I shouldn't be and doing it for the wrong reasons. I'm trying to please other people and not myself and I'm also concerned that it's running away from the issues I'm trying to iron out. There's one other thing that may also be playing on my mind and that's my mother is in hospital today to have a check up on an unusual lump and I'm sure that that is also playing on my mind too. Having already lost my father to Cancer this year I'm not sure what I'd do if my mother was found to have cancer or something serious.
At least today I am a little more with it and feeling somewhat better than yesterday so one small reason to be thankful for a good nights sleep.
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