It's all well and good knowing that you are in a transition between being heavily involved in work work and acclimatizing to not working but other 'stuff' is oozing out of the mind and you recognize that you have been allowing strange habits to form over the years, that you are not bringing your whole self into things, that you are half halfheartedly approaching things around the house and garden and that you've just dropped the baton sometime ago on many things.
I am happy that another box of old stuff will go to charity tomorrow and I think that I will just do that from now on. Grab an opportunity and fill a box, book the man in his van to come over and it can be picked up and reused or recycled.
Behind all of this is the really worrying part and that is I am drifting away and becoming more insular again and perhaps that should warn me about where I am - and I kind of know stuff isn't going well, I feel OK but there's a nagging doubt inside of me too. I am pretty sure that I need to work out these niggles and worries and start to work out my own life, the universe and all that once again. Something is messing around with my sub conscious but I am blowed if I know exactly what it is this time. Oh well, time will no doubt reveal what it is and I can deal with it then.
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