Close to tears earlier. Daughter sent me some goodies for Father's day and then I realised that I hadn't seen her for months and months and she's just off around the world and I may not see her before she goes and I miss her terribly. She's not the most communicative and my messages often go unread for weeks :-) bless her.
Then that kicks off all the other stuff and you know, sometimes I can just get on and clear my mind and other times, not so much. It's bloody horrible at the moment and it's not as if I haven't been through this before but it is just so annoying that I cannot break out of this using basic logic and common sense. "Pull yourself together!" and the like echo in my mind. If I could, I would, it's that easy and maybe I need to just follow my gut and take a break for a short while?
Of course there's stuff to be done and I need to sort that out too but after that, in a week or two perhaps I can just get out.
I have taken to walking each morning and that I feel is going to do me good. A little further each day until I get some sort of routine set. It does good I know.
I do hope that I can break this terrible cycle it is debilitating and doesn't serve any purpose but then - I've hit that what do I do now period. OK back to trying to work on what to do next. Too hot for manual work so perhaps something quiet and cool?
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