It must be the strangest reaction you'd ever expect. I feel happy that I am now clear of this episode of my life which has taken a quarter of my life up so far. And yet...... something is missing.
I do not feel massively triumphal or deliriously happy or in fact any of the things you see on TV or Films. I feel relieved I'd say and perhaps like a load has lifted from my shoulders and yet the reaction I thought I'd have is not bursting out. I suppose as an INTJ I look at this as a matter of "it is what it is" and there can be no other way of looking at it really.
I met with an old friend for breakfast this morning and we had a good old natter especially as he had similar problems and he had the nuclear option to start with and so was "cured" quicker than I but he probably had more damaging after effects!
Anyway, here we are, at the end of this road and the start of something new. Life without Cancer (or the after-effects of Cancer) and onwards we go. The spectre of it coming back - or new cancer, however, hovers over me like a cloud. 14 years is a long time to be free of this all and I truly hope that really is it behind me. We live in hope and travel on for the moment in the present, in the now for the past is over and the future is yet to be.
