A day I never thought I would see arrives and I shall retire shortly at the grand old age of 66.
I had Bladder Cancer and then it took 16 years of repeated reviews (six years too long they now say) and I have been well for many years. A few niggles of course but hey, getting old probably comes with plenty of those.
I find it strange that I don't feel my age (if you are even meant to) and that I'm supposed to be an old man now! I feel like I'm still in my thirties and if I do something like DIY I find I can't do what I used to :-) I fitted a bathroom and a log burner last year - the log burner weighed 120kg and I managed that on my own with the appliance of science and well-remembered physics lessons from school and a little maths too of course.
So why write a blog post today? Well, I find that my mind has been in a bad place these past years not helped by the ridiculous Covid restrictions imposed by our imbecilic Government. That and the sheer damage done to us and our economy (surely they must have done a Cost Benefit Analysis). On top of that as I head to retirement I found myself back in my black dog darkness and was just not wanting to do anything. The prospect of winding up my business (again caused by the government) and then setting up my pensions and realising that that phase of my life is now over and a new one is about to begin were gnawing away at me and if truth be known it has probably taken 3 or 4 years to come to where I am now.
What I did though was to make a decision to use some of the money from my pension to do some work on the house and then I decided to have a real holiday. I haven't really had a real holiday for about 10 years. Most of the time I've ended up working hard to self-cater and drive places but this time I wanted something a bit different and so I'm off with the other half to Mauritius for 2 weeks of all-inclusive luxury. There's nothing to do but lie on the beach, go snorkeling, fly my drone, read and listen to music, and eat and drink all day long. I've always had to "do things" on previous holidays but here, you can do something if you want and if you don't want you can just laze the day away.
I am hoping that my batteries will be recharged and that I can make this a defining break between my past life and the new one to come. I'm not quite used to it and I'm without purpose at the moment. I don't think that will be for long because just by booking the holiday I am feeling upbeat and much happier than I have been for a long time, perhaps years.
It is hard to change your life (again) but after having worked for 50 years, it's time for me now and I need to selfishly start to focus on myself and plan to do something with these years to come.
