I promised myself that I would set to and get these accounts done. Have I? No, of course not. I've done some other accounts but not the ones I should have and I've then been distracted my my Ad campaign on the App and then Facebook stole my attention and now I'm feeling a little guilty about not having even gotten started and it's half way through the afternoon and I really cannot be arsed to do anything.
I think that I will not even attempt it right now - I can perhaps go for it tomorrow but I must first get this dentist visit over and done with. Perhaps that is distracting me but I'm not sure quite why unless it is in the back of my mind stuff. They noticed a white mark on my gum where a tooth was pulled many years ago now. Tomorrow I need to go back and see if it is still there. If it is, then I'll need a biopsy on it. That won't happen tomorrow and may not happen at all of course but having been bitten once by cancer, you find that everything is cancer and everything is terminal!
That's the legacy of my cancer diagnosis and treatment. Every ache or pain, every strange noise or the fibrillating of your heart, cough, sore throat and so on is, until proven otherwise, cancer and will kill you. That doesn't go away and such things bring home regularly that mindset. Of course you can rationalise that it cannot be, that you look after yourself and so on but there is always that niggle and little voice to remind you. Even if they do see the mark on my gums, they will have to refer me and then biopsy it and diagnose it. I think it isn't likely to be anything like that although my mind thinks differently.
It was a crazy extraction as the tooth splintered as it was being removed and I had some bone and/or tooth fragments for a while afterwards. It was probably 14 or 15 years ago and I recall it being after it had snowed heavily and it was knee deep and I walked there after checking they were open. I had to wrap my face and cheek because of the wind and snow flurries and walk home it took about 30 minutes when it was really a 10 minute walk.
Oh well, let's see. At least the Dentist spotted it and we are following up but it does churn away inside of you.
