whatever was outside - I tell you it frightened me and I was resting quite nicely in my office when the dog, here on a 3 day visit - an ex guard dog, Clyde the Rottweiler is actually a bit of a cutey pie and a little bit shy but whatever drifted past the front door got a bit of a shock :-)
L and her friends are out "clubbing" in London tonight - not sure what time they'll get home but I imagine the dog might make a sound on that one too.
I'm not feeling great again today I was all wound up ready to do the bathroom but that's on hold and I'm trying to get myself motivated to do some accounts and to sort out my plans for a new business or to go work somewhere but once again I just find myself battling with these demons and whether I really want to go back into full time employment, run my business or start a new one or to perhaps do something a bit different. I'll have another think tomorrow and see if I get anywhere.
Monday, August 13, 2012
False start - totally messed up week
The best laid plans and all that. It was good that the Plasterer called and halted me ripping out the bathroom but as you might imagine the house is ready to go, I have two rooms full up with tiles, bathroom hardware, wood, screws, drills, diamond saws and so on. I'm sitting here after having a listen to my Isles of Wonder CD, wonderful memories. But then I'm really stuffed and I had my days all planned out.
Now as a Project Manager I should have had a contingency plan(s) worked out and indeed I did have if it was a one or two day delay but now it could be longer and everything is up in the air. It's a pain but can't be helped I suppose. I'm working out what I can get tucked into and know that I may start something only to drop that when the bathroom comes back into being again.
With any idea of working with my old company dashed on Friday, I find myself wondering what I might do from here on in. It is difficult to analyse it all at the moment and I was at one time convinced that I'd be able to get back into the special area that I'd developed with my old company, especially having "written the book" for them. It was amusing, looking back, that they couldn't get customer "buy in" but then they quite gleefully showed me that they were only using the first three steps in the 6 step process I had championed. Needless to say, the last 3 steps are all about the customer experience, "buy in" and follow on work, the areas they struggle with :-) You can't make it up sometimes!
I've got my cystoscope to come in a few weeks time and the results of my CT Scan and so that will be a milestone of some significance I hope. I'm back to questioning it all again and that's because I've lost my focus today - just when I was ready to go and get stuck into renovating my bathroom. Now that's not going to start for sometime, I'm sort of drifting along again. I've found something I can do, not exciting but nevertheless it should occupy me for a day or so. I've only one more set of accounts to complete and I've done most of the Donkey work but now need to sort out the balance sheet which isn't looking great. I can't quite see why it doesn't balance but just need to knuckle down to it and spend some time double checking it. I can then get the auditors in. I also need to get my other auditors in for the other accounts. With the dining room table groaning under all my tools and equipment it will be interesting to find a flat spot to sit down and review them :-)
Now as a Project Manager I should have had a contingency plan(s) worked out and indeed I did have if it was a one or two day delay but now it could be longer and everything is up in the air. It's a pain but can't be helped I suppose. I'm working out what I can get tucked into and know that I may start something only to drop that when the bathroom comes back into being again.
With any idea of working with my old company dashed on Friday, I find myself wondering what I might do from here on in. It is difficult to analyse it all at the moment and I was at one time convinced that I'd be able to get back into the special area that I'd developed with my old company, especially having "written the book" for them. It was amusing, looking back, that they couldn't get customer "buy in" but then they quite gleefully showed me that they were only using the first three steps in the 6 step process I had championed. Needless to say, the last 3 steps are all about the customer experience, "buy in" and follow on work, the areas they struggle with :-) You can't make it up sometimes!
I've got my cystoscope to come in a few weeks time and the results of my CT Scan and so that will be a milestone of some significance I hope. I'm back to questioning it all again and that's because I've lost my focus today - just when I was ready to go and get stuck into renovating my bathroom. Now that's not going to start for sometime, I'm sort of drifting along again. I've found something I can do, not exciting but nevertheless it should occupy me for a day or so. I've only one more set of accounts to complete and I've done most of the Donkey work but now need to sort out the balance sheet which isn't looking great. I can't quite see why it doesn't balance but just need to knuckle down to it and spend some time double checking it. I can then get the auditors in. I also need to get my other auditors in for the other accounts. With the dining room table groaning under all my tools and equipment it will be interesting to find a flat spot to sit down and review them :-)
Early morning call
Bad news is that Mr. Plasterer now isn't coming - he has some problems and his mother isn't at all well and a call overnight from the Hospital got him to call me early to make sure I didn't strip out the bathroom. Have to say whilst I'm disappointed about that at least it wasn't a call once I had stripped everything out! I'm getting minor grief about that already and it hasn't happened yet!
I was hoping to do that this week as a bit of a distraction.
I was hoping to do that this week as a bit of a distraction.
Yay - Olympics
Mr. Bean in the opening ceremony, Eric Idle in the closing - who'd have thought it....
Well, what can I say? A few dissenters wanted a lot more music at the end but then again we had plenty in the beginning - a good games and full houses and lots of support for all the athletes.
Got the call that Mr. Plasterer is coming in on Wednesday morning to do the bathroom so delivered the bad news to the family. After showers tomorrow morning it's no more home comforts until at least Saturday if not Sunday depending on how well I can remember waht I used to do 30 years ago :-)
Feeling OK about this - I need an "outlet" for myself for a short while.
Well, what can I say? A few dissenters wanted a lot more music at the end but then again we had plenty in the beginning - a good games and full houses and lots of support for all the athletes.
Got the call that Mr. Plasterer is coming in on Wednesday morning to do the bathroom so delivered the bad news to the family. After showers tomorrow morning it's no more home comforts until at least Saturday if not Sunday depending on how well I can remember waht I used to do 30 years ago :-)
Feeling OK about this - I need an "outlet" for myself for a short while.
Saturday, August 11, 2012
Am I unemployable?
Sounds strange but I realised that yesterday was one of those days where someone who had a title and ran a business (good for him) did not match up to the respect that I gave them on first meeting them. By that I mean that I have a healthy respect for authority and I always start by demonstrating that. Some people mistake that side of me as weakness and yesterday, listening to this chap rattling on I realised that this wasn't the meeting of two like minded individuals. In fact this was that typical "British" and sometimes "French" 1970s industrial revolution type Us and Them attitude.
I find that way of dealing with people totally out of my orbit. I do find myself doing it but only after I've got to the end of my patience with someone. You have to go out of your way to do that.
So this guy was never wrong and had no problems and the issues we talked about weren't happening. Which is a bit strange as I know they are and that was why I was there so once I started to stretch my legs a bit and demonstrate my bona fides it was quite amusing. All that happened was it became an entrenched discussion, no matter what I tried to do, there was no space to do anything so I just went on the attack and replayed the issues that had got the company into trouble in the first place (the growth issues that they are having now) and of course I also reversed out as who would want to work with people who don't understand the value you bring to the table.
This threw up a worrying trend in the way that I deal with this sort of stuff. I don't actually care. I didn't care whether I got this gig or not. If I had, I would have done well for them, as it is, they don't feel they need to do anything and that's OK too. In fact I left them saying it was nice to meet them and that I was glad that they were able to manage on their own (not exactly those words). Whilst I might get upset at the way people deal with me, it underlines a bigger problem - one that I've always had - and that is people need someone like me to get things done but they really don't like the way I get things done. Not that I'm difficult to work with but I do get my own way and I do get jobs done and obstacles are removed and if that's people, well so be it. Everyone wants a "Strong" manager until that is they actually get one - suddenly they find that the medicine is too bitter. I am almost sure that I'm "unemployable" these days mainly because the interviewer soon finds themselves out of their depth or digging themselves into a hole. If they did 5 minutes preparation it would help. I suppose though no one likes to meet someone (like me) who is brandishing a copy of their latest accounts and share holder details and starts to ask difficult questions.
Oh well, back to the drawing board (do they still use them?) and onwards and upwards.
I find that way of dealing with people totally out of my orbit. I do find myself doing it but only after I've got to the end of my patience with someone. You have to go out of your way to do that.
So this guy was never wrong and had no problems and the issues we talked about weren't happening. Which is a bit strange as I know they are and that was why I was there so once I started to stretch my legs a bit and demonstrate my bona fides it was quite amusing. All that happened was it became an entrenched discussion, no matter what I tried to do, there was no space to do anything so I just went on the attack and replayed the issues that had got the company into trouble in the first place (the growth issues that they are having now) and of course I also reversed out as who would want to work with people who don't understand the value you bring to the table.
This threw up a worrying trend in the way that I deal with this sort of stuff. I don't actually care. I didn't care whether I got this gig or not. If I had, I would have done well for them, as it is, they don't feel they need to do anything and that's OK too. In fact I left them saying it was nice to meet them and that I was glad that they were able to manage on their own (not exactly those words). Whilst I might get upset at the way people deal with me, it underlines a bigger problem - one that I've always had - and that is people need someone like me to get things done but they really don't like the way I get things done. Not that I'm difficult to work with but I do get my own way and I do get jobs done and obstacles are removed and if that's people, well so be it. Everyone wants a "Strong" manager until that is they actually get one - suddenly they find that the medicine is too bitter. I am almost sure that I'm "unemployable" these days mainly because the interviewer soon finds themselves out of their depth or digging themselves into a hole. If they did 5 minutes preparation it would help. I suppose though no one likes to meet someone (like me) who is brandishing a copy of their latest accounts and share holder details and starts to ask difficult questions.
Oh well, back to the drawing board (do they still use them?) and onwards and upwards.
Bitterly Disappointed but not Unexpected
I could see that one of the guys needed me to come back and sort out the problems. The other guy didn't know me, hadn't done his homework and played a series of - well - how shall I say this? Stupid cards. Some crass questions were asked, they hadn't read what I'd told them to and they told me all the reasons that they were doing well and at the same time all of the reasons that they'd never be a great business.
Suddenly it dawned on me that this lovely company I knew and loved hadn't really made the massive industry jump they'd predicted because they'd dumbed down when they needed to step up and understood the value of what they had. This made for an interesting "difference of opinion" about the value proposition and why they'd asked me in, in the first place!
To say I was disappointed would be an understatement, I was very down about it for a while until I realised that this IS the way it is going to be from now on. I'm hoping not to sound too vain but I think I've been around enough major businesses and programs to know a thing or two. I thought it was funny that this "young guy" started questioning my credentials and within a few moments I'd blown him away with the global work I'd done and the major businesses I'd worked for.
I did though, after a few minutes, go for the jugular and it was obvious he had no job available, that he wanted "something for nothing" and hadn't bothered to check me out. He was a bit disturbed when I suggested that the way they had allocated the shareholding would make it a bit difficult for major businesses to deal with them especially as there was £2 of called up....
So I came home, grabbed a six pack of beers and spent the afternoon and evening feeling very down. I really wanted to go and make a difference to these guys, I have good karma with them (or did have). I'd always warned them that they were a tiny technology business tucked down the end of a country lane in the wilds of Yorkshire. Today, they proved that they still are stuck in that rut they were in 6 years ago. Of course I wish them well but they showed no signs of wanting to go and tackle the big boys. What a waste.
As for me - well - that's taken out another avenue for me but I'll bounce back over the weekend. I'm disappointed but not surprised by this. I really have come a very long way in 6 years..
Suddenly it dawned on me that this lovely company I knew and loved hadn't really made the massive industry jump they'd predicted because they'd dumbed down when they needed to step up and understood the value of what they had. This made for an interesting "difference of opinion" about the value proposition and why they'd asked me in, in the first place!
To say I was disappointed would be an understatement, I was very down about it for a while until I realised that this IS the way it is going to be from now on. I'm hoping not to sound too vain but I think I've been around enough major businesses and programs to know a thing or two. I thought it was funny that this "young guy" started questioning my credentials and within a few moments I'd blown him away with the global work I'd done and the major businesses I'd worked for.
I did though, after a few minutes, go for the jugular and it was obvious he had no job available, that he wanted "something for nothing" and hadn't bothered to check me out. He was a bit disturbed when I suggested that the way they had allocated the shareholding would make it a bit difficult for major businesses to deal with them especially as there was £2 of called up....
So I came home, grabbed a six pack of beers and spent the afternoon and evening feeling very down. I really wanted to go and make a difference to these guys, I have good karma with them (or did have). I'd always warned them that they were a tiny technology business tucked down the end of a country lane in the wilds of Yorkshire. Today, they proved that they still are stuck in that rut they were in 6 years ago. Of course I wish them well but they showed no signs of wanting to go and tackle the big boys. What a waste.
As for me - well - that's taken out another avenue for me but I'll bounce back over the weekend. I'm disappointed but not surprised by this. I really have come a very long way in 6 years..
Thursday, August 09, 2012
Excited maybe
I'm looking forward to meeting up tomorrow with these guys from my old company which has now transformed a fair bit since I was last there. It's an interesting time going back to where I was quite happy albeit where I also had some insight into what was coming down the line. It's one of those jobs where they get you in for your experience and background and for your strong management skills and then don't actually listen to you properly or consciously ignore your advice.
That said, I departed on good terms and did a fair amount of work but it appears that the work I did do wasn't implemented or perhaps because not one of the original team remain, it has gotten lost in the system and is gathering dust on some hard drive somewhere. This is an opportunity to resurrect that work and to get involved again with them.
I'm certain that it will be a good discussion anyway as I know exactly what problems these guys will be having which was why I was brought into the business in the first place and then, having got there, I got bladder cancer. Unbelievably that was 6 years ago! By the time I was back to working again I was a bit of a mess and had lost my confidence and had lost control of my place on the greasy pole that was the "politics" of the job. It appears though that the new management and owners have put in some sensible people and that they now have a stable organisation that needs some decent people back into build it. I sense an opportunity to get back to what I really enjoyed and what I did really well and I always did describe it as my dream job as I was able to bring all my experience to bear. Sounds familiar to an earlier post about what to do next? It sure does.
Strange how the disappointment from one situation led to me asking a question which led back to a position that I was in 6 years ago. Life can be pretty surreal sometimes..
That said, I departed on good terms and did a fair amount of work but it appears that the work I did do wasn't implemented or perhaps because not one of the original team remain, it has gotten lost in the system and is gathering dust on some hard drive somewhere. This is an opportunity to resurrect that work and to get involved again with them.
I'm certain that it will be a good discussion anyway as I know exactly what problems these guys will be having which was why I was brought into the business in the first place and then, having got there, I got bladder cancer. Unbelievably that was 6 years ago! By the time I was back to working again I was a bit of a mess and had lost my confidence and had lost control of my place on the greasy pole that was the "politics" of the job. It appears though that the new management and owners have put in some sensible people and that they now have a stable organisation that needs some decent people back into build it. I sense an opportunity to get back to what I really enjoyed and what I did really well and I always did describe it as my dream job as I was able to bring all my experience to bear. Sounds familiar to an earlier post about what to do next? It sure does.
Strange how the disappointment from one situation led to me asking a question which led back to a position that I was in 6 years ago. Life can be pretty surreal sometimes..
Fine line between happiness and being down
I pulled a blog earlier on this week as it was very glum and downbeat and was full of doubt and was one of those written in the depths of feeling very down and at that point where you don't see a way out and you feel that everything is stacked against you.
Today I'm totally on the other end of the scale, I'm going to be talking to some people whom I can make a huge difference to their business and I'll be able to re-do (by the sounds of it) the stuff I originally started to do for them. That will be a challenge but a good one.
Of course this too could go wrong but let's see what happens. I have the opportunity to have a good discussion with them tomorrow and see where we go from there.
This is typical of the swings of mood I get (or have had since Bladder Cancer) and it's just one of the things I have to deal with constantly. At least this time, I know the people, understand the problems they have and know how to deal with it.
Today I'm totally on the other end of the scale, I'm going to be talking to some people whom I can make a huge difference to their business and I'll be able to re-do (by the sounds of it) the stuff I originally started to do for them. That will be a challenge but a good one.
Of course this too could go wrong but let's see what happens. I have the opportunity to have a good discussion with them tomorrow and see where we go from there.
This is typical of the swings of mood I get (or have had since Bladder Cancer) and it's just one of the things I have to deal with constantly. At least this time, I know the people, understand the problems they have and know how to deal with it.
Wednesday, August 08, 2012
Good a meeting on Friday
It's going to be a bit bizarre if you think about it. In May 2006 I got the job I'd always wanted in a company that I'd always wanted to work for and then a month or two later - BANG - along came Mr. Bladder Cancer to knock the wind out of my sails and ultimately it, together with some people who I did warn had over-estimated the business pipeline, served to make me redundant. It was an obvious thing to do and I held no grudge about it as it did mean that others kept their jobs - you may have to look at blogs from January 2007 onwards to see this.
Well, it looks as if things have turned around fully and I find myself back in discussions with them once again and having the same conversations I had in April 2006 about how the products and the services could be improved. This will be interesting as I did a hell of a lot of work on this at the time and it appears that the problems we discussed then are now coming home to roost as the business picks up. Unfortunately of those who used to be there that I know of, many are abroad, retired and one superb chap died of Brain tumour - so sad, he was a remarkable person. Others have set up other businesses and so I'm probably one of the only people left around who has the background to do this.
It's funny how stuff like this comes around as I was pretty upset, if I'm being frank here, about the awful way my application was dealt with for the other job, especially given who they were and their supposed professionalism. This came about from a flippant email I sent which just asked whether they were interested in discussing me getting involved again - they did say they were but not much had happened so I thought I'd ask the question.
Nice to see I've got an interview / meeting on Friday and managed to get middle of the day to miss the Olympic rush. At least I'll see if there is anything concrete in this. It would be good if there was as I enjoyed the challenge last time and it was mainly my illness that stopped things happening and me not being able to identify some of the silly stuff that was going on whilst I was away from the office.
I delivered my urine sample to the Hospital and had a look in to the blood samples area but it was hot and full of people so I decided I can do that another day and had a few coffees with Flocky Bicep which was, as always, quite pleasant. It makes my mum laugh as she thinks I am going out for "Girlie Coffees". I suppose that is quite a strange thing to do to many older people.
Well, it looks as if things have turned around fully and I find myself back in discussions with them once again and having the same conversations I had in April 2006 about how the products and the services could be improved. This will be interesting as I did a hell of a lot of work on this at the time and it appears that the problems we discussed then are now coming home to roost as the business picks up. Unfortunately of those who used to be there that I know of, many are abroad, retired and one superb chap died of Brain tumour - so sad, he was a remarkable person. Others have set up other businesses and so I'm probably one of the only people left around who has the background to do this.
It's funny how stuff like this comes around as I was pretty upset, if I'm being frank here, about the awful way my application was dealt with for the other job, especially given who they were and their supposed professionalism. This came about from a flippant email I sent which just asked whether they were interested in discussing me getting involved again - they did say they were but not much had happened so I thought I'd ask the question.
Nice to see I've got an interview / meeting on Friday and managed to get middle of the day to miss the Olympic rush. At least I'll see if there is anything concrete in this. It would be good if there was as I enjoyed the challenge last time and it was mainly my illness that stopped things happening and me not being able to identify some of the silly stuff that was going on whilst I was away from the office.
I delivered my urine sample to the Hospital and had a look in to the blood samples area but it was hot and full of people so I decided I can do that another day and had a few coffees with Flocky Bicep which was, as always, quite pleasant. It makes my mum laugh as she thinks I am going out for "Girlie Coffees". I suppose that is quite a strange thing to do to many older people.
Tuesday, August 07, 2012
DInk - the game changes once again
I thought this morning, what the hell, I'll just fire off a speculative email about a job that someone suggested to me a month or two back that I thought had gone. It's part time, it pays reasonably well and it is something I enjoy doing. I got an email straight back and a meeting on Friday. The trouble was that I was expecting the plasterer on Thursday and Friday but he luckily cannot attend until next week which means that I can have the chat on Friday after all.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained so to speak. I know that there will be bits of the job I won't like but, if it is anything like I used to have, there was enough flexibility to arrange suitable meeting dates, ability to work from home and many other things. In fact, it was my dream job, the one I had when I got Bladder Cancer. Except that this time, I can probably do part time, freelance work which will suit them and me.
So that pleased me and frightened me all at the same time. I imagine Friday will be a bit hectic up in town but I've suggested late morning which will keep me away from the crush.
I'm meeting up with Flocky tomorrow for a coffee and will go via the Hospital to drop in a urine sample and if the Phlebotomy department is open and there are no queues I shall have my bloods done at the same time. Mind you, only if there is time - at least I'm not on a fasting one which is a pain in the backside as you have to wait ages for a test first thing in the morning. Last time I did one I got in trouble for overdoing the fasting - so I complained about the amount of time you have to spend waiting around. It's easier to starve and go in lunchtime but it doesn't appear to do much good for your results which needed re-doing.
Anyhow, things look a little interesting with this possibility on the horizon. Looks like the bathroom may not be under way this week which is sort of OK excepting that L returns from holidays and so next week will be "interesting" as she is also bringing back a dog to stay for a while. When I say dog, it is a Rottweiler which fits large mammal in my book. I don't like dogs, or cats for that matter and so I'm keeping well out of the way.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained so to speak. I know that there will be bits of the job I won't like but, if it is anything like I used to have, there was enough flexibility to arrange suitable meeting dates, ability to work from home and many other things. In fact, it was my dream job, the one I had when I got Bladder Cancer. Except that this time, I can probably do part time, freelance work which will suit them and me.
So that pleased me and frightened me all at the same time. I imagine Friday will be a bit hectic up in town but I've suggested late morning which will keep me away from the crush.
I'm meeting up with Flocky tomorrow for a coffee and will go via the Hospital to drop in a urine sample and if the Phlebotomy department is open and there are no queues I shall have my bloods done at the same time. Mind you, only if there is time - at least I'm not on a fasting one which is a pain in the backside as you have to wait ages for a test first thing in the morning. Last time I did one I got in trouble for overdoing the fasting - so I complained about the amount of time you have to spend waiting around. It's easier to starve and go in lunchtime but it doesn't appear to do much good for your results which needed re-doing.
Anyhow, things look a little interesting with this possibility on the horizon. Looks like the bathroom may not be under way this week which is sort of OK excepting that L returns from holidays and so next week will be "interesting" as she is also bringing back a dog to stay for a while. When I say dog, it is a Rottweiler which fits large mammal in my book. I don't like dogs, or cats for that matter and so I'm keeping well out of the way.
Square One
It's a strange thing but I'm right back to the beginning again. I wasn't successful in the job I went for but you tend to know when it wasn't a "real" job as the reply was disrespectful and they obviously hadn't read through the CV etc. properly as they hadn't referenced it (like you would).
That's now brought me back to where I was before and that's hating the idea of working for anyone other than myself ever again. I just find that the people you have to deal with are sh1t and no one really deals with people in a nice way any more.
The trouble is that I'm dithering about what to do. There's lots of fanciful ideas and the chance to go do something that's more "lifestyle" than working like a "slave". I need to consider the options or should I say reconsider them as I did start off doing this and got distracted by the possibility of a job elsewhere. That has soured my outlook or in reality just brought it back to me how much I abhor working for people who don't really care about you.
That's now brought me back to where I was before and that's hating the idea of working for anyone other than myself ever again. I just find that the people you have to deal with are sh1t and no one really deals with people in a nice way any more.
The trouble is that I'm dithering about what to do. There's lots of fanciful ideas and the chance to go do something that's more "lifestyle" than working like a "slave". I need to consider the options or should I say reconsider them as I did start off doing this and got distracted by the possibility of a job elsewhere. That has soured my outlook or in reality just brought it back to me how much I abhor working for people who don't really care about you.
Monday, August 06, 2012
Doing some work
I sorted out the downstairs WC door lock - it's been needed to be sorted for a couple of years. I took me a little while as it was slightly larger than the old imperial one that was fitted and I also needed to do one for the bathroom I'm refurbishing. I'm going to wait until the room is almost finished though and I might need to remove the door to take off a little to get over the new tiles I'm putting in.
So that's the morning sorted and I'm trying to work out whether there's anything left I can do before I get the nod from the plasterer. Then, and only then, can I get cracking and take out the bath/shower, WC and Basin and cap off the services.
So that's the morning sorted and I'm trying to work out whether there's anything left I can do before I get the nod from the plasterer. Then, and only then, can I get cracking and take out the bath/shower, WC and Basin and cap off the services.
Sunday, August 05, 2012
Goodness me
Well - another crazy day at the Olympics and more to cheer again today.
Not for me though, I'm getting quite tetchy and somewhat annoyed with explaining why - if I'm renovating the bathroom I need to take everything out to allow the Plasterer to do his thing and that will take 2 days. It will mean that they wont have a shower/bath available for around 5 days (I reckon) as I need to put in a new floor and that needs to settle and dry and then put in the bath. Even then it wont have tiles sorted out either. I suppose these days people are used to things just happening. The best bit was asking me to delay it which is impossible as it's taken me months to arrange the plasterer and everything revolves around his commitments not mine.
The trouble is that I'm getting annoyed by all this and perhaps I just ought to rise above it but certainly I seem to be having a sense of humour failure - not sure if that is about not getting the job (or even an interview) or maybe it is the upcoming scope. Maybe it is something else. I pulled a blog post last night about how I'm feeling and it's not a great place.
Not for me though, I'm getting quite tetchy and somewhat annoyed with explaining why - if I'm renovating the bathroom I need to take everything out to allow the Plasterer to do his thing and that will take 2 days. It will mean that they wont have a shower/bath available for around 5 days (I reckon) as I need to put in a new floor and that needs to settle and dry and then put in the bath. Even then it wont have tiles sorted out either. I suppose these days people are used to things just happening. The best bit was asking me to delay it which is impossible as it's taken me months to arrange the plasterer and everything revolves around his commitments not mine.
The trouble is that I'm getting annoyed by all this and perhaps I just ought to rise above it but certainly I seem to be having a sense of humour failure - not sure if that is about not getting the job (or even an interview) or maybe it is the upcoming scope. Maybe it is something else. I pulled a blog post last night about how I'm feeling and it's not a great place.
Saturday, August 04, 2012
What a Day
The Olympics - what a day - 6 Golds but what an advert for the UK and London. I don't think I've felt quite so emotional as watching today's athletes. Mind you I do hate this sticking microphones under people's noses when they haven't performed well or asking crass questions.
However, it has been a brilliant success so far and it promises to get better tomorrow too. Yes we ought to be rightly proud of the achievements and it is just great to see things coming together. Let's hope the rest of the world thinks that the games really are excellent. I have to say the "style" and "design" must be admired alongside the volunteers.
So good was the opening ceremony that I ordered the CD today - it hasn't got all the tunes on but it has the tunes by Underworld and others....
Very pleased with the Games so far...
However, it has been a brilliant success so far and it promises to get better tomorrow too. Yes we ought to be rightly proud of the achievements and it is just great to see things coming together. Let's hope the rest of the world thinks that the games really are excellent. I have to say the "style" and "design" must be admired alongside the volunteers.
So good was the opening ceremony that I ordered the CD today - it hasn't got all the tunes on but it has the tunes by Underworld and others....
Very pleased with the Games so far...
I know what it is
It is disrespectful to send out a standard letter that doesn't even have your name on it or referencing the effort made and so on. I wouldn't do it and I find it disrespectful that someone else considers this is acceptable.
I've now received all the materials I need now to do the bathroom so I'm double checking my lists and materials and making sure that everything is in order for me to start.
I've now received all the materials I need now to do the bathroom so I'm double checking my lists and materials and making sure that everything is in order for me to start.
Thursday, August 02, 2012
That Figures then
Got a non committal response to the job application a thanks but no thanks one and it sort of suggests to me that once again it was a bit of a fix up but they had to go through the process. I sort of guessed that it might be so and that is fine as it will allow me to get on and do some more stuff now. I can at least get on with home improvements without worrying about whether the job comes along or not and I also got my appointment through for the end of August, a nice early 9 am appointment which is great for me.
I'm beginning to address other issues too including whether I want to continue working on my own business or do something else and if I do, what I'd do for a living. I know my price now (or the one that I was happy to settle for for the last job). I wonder then if I can work out a way of moving on that. I'm not completely settled on what I want to do though as I can't seem to work out what is going on here at present. By that I mean that with Mrs. F. and A working full time it sort of puts some pressure on (whether perceived or otherwise) and Monday to Friday around here is pretty miserable - sure I'll have 2 weeks work ahead of me to do the bathroom and that will be nice but at the same time it's the "we're tired, we've been out to work" shit that I find annoying. I mean for most of their lives what the hell was I doing? No one wants to talk and I'm getting the arsey answers to standard questions. However, knowing how precise I like to be I do correct the answer. Here's one. I go to find the family calendar. It isn't there. "Where is the calendar?" I then listen to 5 minutes of bollocks about why it isn't there, how something has happened and eventually I find out that it is in the living room. So I gently suggest that the original question was where is the calendar? And that the answer is, in the living room. It's simple really. However, every question, every courtesy query (how are you) is met with a story so long that isn't even on subject that it is beginning to really piss me off.
I find this level of drivel pretty difficult to live with. I ask a question about something and I get an answer about whether I want the car tomorrow???? WHAT? I only asked whether I could phone up the local builders merchant and how had they found them. This sort of obfuscation really doesn't suit my temperament at all well. The problem is that it just makes me worse and I can play this game until the cows come home. However, I've tried on two no make that three occasions tonight to sort this out and no one has the will to do it. When they want to get bloody minded, they do. It's a full moon so maybe that's it? It's like another simple thing - I need to get some ironmongery sorted out for the doors and you'd have thought I was going to demolish the house and re-build it. It really is simple - what door handle do you like? By the time we'd finished we'd discussed everything but the bloody door handle.
Anyway - a bad night and we are out tomorrow so I just hope that things get a little better. I need to finish off my ordering and get the wood from the merchants (No I don't need a car to make a telephone call!!!!!) and just get it sorted. At least I know what I am doing this next few weeks.
I'm beginning to address other issues too including whether I want to continue working on my own business or do something else and if I do, what I'd do for a living. I know my price now (or the one that I was happy to settle for for the last job). I wonder then if I can work out a way of moving on that. I'm not completely settled on what I want to do though as I can't seem to work out what is going on here at present. By that I mean that with Mrs. F. and A working full time it sort of puts some pressure on (whether perceived or otherwise) and Monday to Friday around here is pretty miserable - sure I'll have 2 weeks work ahead of me to do the bathroom and that will be nice but at the same time it's the "we're tired, we've been out to work" shit that I find annoying. I mean for most of their lives what the hell was I doing? No one wants to talk and I'm getting the arsey answers to standard questions. However, knowing how precise I like to be I do correct the answer. Here's one. I go to find the family calendar. It isn't there. "Where is the calendar?" I then listen to 5 minutes of bollocks about why it isn't there, how something has happened and eventually I find out that it is in the living room. So I gently suggest that the original question was where is the calendar? And that the answer is, in the living room. It's simple really. However, every question, every courtesy query (how are you) is met with a story so long that isn't even on subject that it is beginning to really piss me off.
I find this level of drivel pretty difficult to live with. I ask a question about something and I get an answer about whether I want the car tomorrow???? WHAT? I only asked whether I could phone up the local builders merchant and how had they found them. This sort of obfuscation really doesn't suit my temperament at all well. The problem is that it just makes me worse and I can play this game until the cows come home. However, I've tried on two no make that three occasions tonight to sort this out and no one has the will to do it. When they want to get bloody minded, they do. It's a full moon so maybe that's it? It's like another simple thing - I need to get some ironmongery sorted out for the doors and you'd have thought I was going to demolish the house and re-build it. It really is simple - what door handle do you like? By the time we'd finished we'd discussed everything but the bloody door handle.
Anyway - a bad night and we are out tomorrow so I just hope that things get a little better. I need to finish off my ordering and get the wood from the merchants (No I don't need a car to make a telephone call!!!!!) and just get it sorted. At least I know what I am doing this next few weeks.
You have to laugh
It's a strange thing. For 7 years we've been told that the Olympic games would cause travel chaos and that we should stay away from London. Businesses have heeded the warning of impending Armageddon and have allowed staff to work from home. Anyone with any sense has heeded the dire warnings and gone away on holiday or taken holiday and with all the warnings of travel chaos people are staying away.
Now, after a few days, London is like a ghost town (they'd have us believe) and unsurprisingly most of the tourists are at the Olympic venues and not in Oxford Street spending their cash. Hotels haven't sold enough rooms as business trips are down. So apparently businesses that rely on workers and also for tourists are suffering - amazing considering they've only had a few days of Olympic trading :-) You can't make it up can you?
And another thing - the news. It appears that for 2 weeks every 4 years, nothing happens in the rest of the world. So after being maxed out with 4 hours of Olympics, the news comes on and they - repeat word for word the closing phrases of the Olympics. they then do 20 minutes of, yes, you've guessed it, Olympics and then the rest of the world's news is crammed into the next 5 minutes..... :-) It is a joke.
On the personal front I have to say I'm struggling with stuff at the moment - I'd like to get going with the bathroom to get some attention on a project. Without a job I'm still considering my options, still no news from the job I've applied for - almost 2 weeks now. I've spoken about another project I could get on and do in the interim, that's a possible but I'm just struggling with what to do next.
Now, after a few days, London is like a ghost town (they'd have us believe) and unsurprisingly most of the tourists are at the Olympic venues and not in Oxford Street spending their cash. Hotels haven't sold enough rooms as business trips are down. So apparently businesses that rely on workers and also for tourists are suffering - amazing considering they've only had a few days of Olympic trading :-) You can't make it up can you?
And another thing - the news. It appears that for 2 weeks every 4 years, nothing happens in the rest of the world. So after being maxed out with 4 hours of Olympics, the news comes on and they - repeat word for word the closing phrases of the Olympics. they then do 20 minutes of, yes, you've guessed it, Olympics and then the rest of the world's news is crammed into the next 5 minutes..... :-) It is a joke.
On the personal front I have to say I'm struggling with stuff at the moment - I'd like to get going with the bathroom to get some attention on a project. Without a job I'm still considering my options, still no news from the job I've applied for - almost 2 weeks now. I've spoken about another project I could get on and do in the interim, that's a possible but I'm just struggling with what to do next.
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
Stuff Arriving
For my bathroom project. The flexible pipes have arrived this morning and I have all the taps, bath, shower kit, WC and basin etc. I have yet to build the units but I will do that when the Plasterer is here which will give me something to concentrate on. I have a lot of work to do as the bathroom wasn't really installed to a high quality and has leaked regularly and I've only been able to patch it up in the past. The floor needs fixing down, the whole room needs plastering and the ceiling needs redoing too.
It's been a few years since I tackled a bathroom but I used to do these for people in a weekend as a job on top of my day job. As an electrician I was trained in plumbing and carpentry and strangely enough you pick up lots of tips and tricks with other tradesmen on site. I'm looking forward to getting stuck into it though and the tiles, bathroom furniture etc look great as separates and I reckon it will look great when finished.
I've had to splash out on some tools to do the job as I've no idea where my old ones have got to. I've probably lent them to someone and never got them back or they just never made it to this house from the old one. Whatever, I have new tools to do the job and I'm glad that I'll have the right tools to do it as trying to force the wrong tool to do the job would just mess things up. SO I have a nice tile cutter and a circular saw for the work I need to do to the worktops and cupboards.
It's been a few years since I tackled a bathroom but I used to do these for people in a weekend as a job on top of my day job. As an electrician I was trained in plumbing and carpentry and strangely enough you pick up lots of tips and tricks with other tradesmen on site. I'm looking forward to getting stuck into it though and the tiles, bathroom furniture etc look great as separates and I reckon it will look great when finished.
I've had to splash out on some tools to do the job as I've no idea where my old ones have got to. I've probably lent them to someone and never got them back or they just never made it to this house from the old one. Whatever, I have new tools to do the job and I'm glad that I'll have the right tools to do it as trying to force the wrong tool to do the job would just mess things up. SO I have a nice tile cutter and a circular saw for the work I need to do to the worktops and cupboards.
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Where's my appointment?
The sort of thing that only I could think about as I walked back from my meeting earlier. Where is my next appointment for my flexible cystoscopy check? I'm sure it should have been in July although I had the CT Scan a little later (I can't remember when). I suppose if I've not heard soon I ought to chase that up. Not that it is the sort of thing you'd actually want to go and do regularly but needs must, I need them for the rest of my life but I suppose that it isn't so bad a thing that I'm being checked up like this and regularly so that, in case there is a recurrence, they can sort it out pronto.
I realise that I'm back into a bit of a low again. Not surprising I suppose after all the happenings of the past month or more. Life is sort of settled but I'm still not sure what I want to do with myself. The job I've gone for has all gone quiet. The thing I was doing at lunch time really needs some other people to do the hard bit - talking to people on the phone which I do find difficult in certain circumstances.
Jazz night tomorrow - first one for a while and a chance to wind down. I'll probably cheer up afterwards but I'm now recognising this pattern of feeling down more often than I have for a while. Maybe I need to get focussed and sort stuff out or hear about the job or anything. It's a bit disconcerting but I'm sure I'll work my way through it or out of it.
I realise that I'm back into a bit of a low again. Not surprising I suppose after all the happenings of the past month or more. Life is sort of settled but I'm still not sure what I want to do with myself. The job I've gone for has all gone quiet. The thing I was doing at lunch time really needs some other people to do the hard bit - talking to people on the phone which I do find difficult in certain circumstances.
Jazz night tomorrow - first one for a while and a chance to wind down. I'll probably cheer up afterwards but I'm now recognising this pattern of feeling down more often than I have for a while. Maybe I need to get focussed and sort stuff out or hear about the job or anything. It's a bit disconcerting but I'm sure I'll work my way through it or out of it.
Lunch Meeting
Having a chat about the work I did for my friend's business. I did this before dad died so at least 6 weeks ago. It has all gone a bit quiet now but we need to pick up on the plans I wrote up and where to go from here. It is a bit difficult to quantify because there are other considerations for me. It isn't my sort of job - or at least part of it isn't.
It will be good to get out of the house and have a few hours thinking about work and where it can go from here. The trouble is that it isn't for me but the management and planning are so that's the interesting conundrum to unpick.
It would be nice to get a few £s into the business though but I'm not sure that it will be a life changing event :-)
It will be good to get out of the house and have a few hours thinking about work and where it can go from here. The trouble is that it isn't for me but the management and planning are so that's the interesting conundrum to unpick.
It would be nice to get a few £s into the business though but I'm not sure that it will be a life changing event :-)
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