I've visited this subject before but I was thinking how much things have changed with my family probably more than other areas. I had the shakedown of my friends almost 4 years ago now as some stepped up to the plate and other faded into the distance.
My family have been great really but that has been practical help and probably putting up with me when I haven't been that great myself. Kudos to them but recently, because we never did discuss what the hell was wrong with me - they treat me like my Doctor treats me. They see the illness in terms of black and white and miss out (probably rightly so) on the way it plays with your mind. But that matter of fact remoteness which is pretty useful I imagine for them to deal with things means that I just happen to be another person in the house. We dance around each other and then when we get a social event no one really bothered with me apart from me buying the drinks! Really! The girls have friends of their own and Mrs. F. was extremely busy chatting to everyone else so I spent quite a bit of the evening on my own sipping beer.
I'm no great party animal but I can be and usually am fun at these sorts of things but I couldn't exactly amuse myself with my jokes and stories - I've heard them all before.
I guess I felt I was being treated as some sort of Leper and that is why I wasn't particularly happy.
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