Ew, I was bad a year ago, very down in the dumps. I'm a lot better but no where near as good as I should be. Not sure why that should be. Old age, now a pensioner and not really clicking with life the universe and all that still. I;m OK but just OK if you know what I mean? Things aren't getting done and I'm still procrastinating but not as much as I used to. I still dislike going out or going to events even though I'd probably like them.
So I'm thinking about what to do about it but we are right in the launch window of the music app and I need to be doing stuff for that, despite technology and my developer not cooperating with me to achieve it. Once again we've fallen at the last hurdle and it gets somewhat depressing that we are back here, two years after I read the riot act to them and 18 months later than the promised delivery.
My mother isn't well and at 87 I need to make a decision to go and see her I think. She has tests next week and that would be worth going along to offer some moral support.
It's adding this pressure in the background but at least I'm not carrying around all the cr@p I was dealing with last year. But, I just need to cast off this malaise and get myself going again. It's all very mundane and routine here and routine seems to stop me doing things which isn't great!
At least I know what it is and I think I can do something about it and I kind of wonder if I actually know what I need to do but I'm not prepared in the back of my mind to actually do it? It could well be that you know. I already know the answer but my mind is burying it away from me?
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