I forget that I am retired now and so occasionally I'm aimlessly thinking about what I have to do today! That's right, not a lot really, my time is my own and after 50+ years of working it has come as a bit of a shock. Once again, I find myself here late afternoon looking at what I have accomplished today. Funnily enough I did something constructive this morning but otherwise, I am sat at my PC playing a couple of tedious games to pass the time. I really ought to go do something but I cannot be bothered.
There's something very strange about this as I have plenty of things to do including catching up on my reading, sorting out some accounts and the like but I just don't feel like it and this has been a problem for a couple of years and one of the hints that something isn't quite right.
I know this and I am coming out of the depression that I had last year but there's still something niggling away at me. Apparently my better half tells me that I am not as bad as I was in 2020 when I was really down in the dumps - probably because I knew what Covid lockdowns would mean to my business and to the future. Hey ho, that prediction was pretty much spot on, killed my business and a cost of living crisis and things are really beginning to look as I predicted with large chain shops closing down now and the awful service that work from home has promulgated. Bad management of those working from home doesn't help either I suppose.
Anyhow, that is what it is and I am OK in myself and getting a clear almost empty head is great as I am not constantly worried about stuff or fretting about things which is great. Back to where I was perhaps 10 years ago maybe. Things take time and I am just going to have to work through this like I did with the other stuff.
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