I have to say that I felt wounded yesterday as if someone had literally stuck a knife in my back except it was my stomach and chest that I could feel the tension in. I could be outraged I suppose that someone who I have worked alongside for I think 9 years now could round on me quite aggressively and it hurts in a way to have expended all that effort for it to be wasted and to go nowhere just because they've had (what appears to me) a mental ablution.
It is a massive act of self harm really as on one day he gives away part of his business empire (it isn't built yet BTW and so is worthless as it stands) and threatens me that the new owner must have their shares blah blah blah blah. Well, it doesn't take Einstein to tell you that if you then torpedo the business by leaving before it is launched then there's every likelihood that there isn't going to be any reward for those shares anyway? Sometimes I shake my head and say "It's not me is it?" It's utterly crazy.
I've put everything on hold for a short while whilst I decide what to do about the business. I can close it down, in some ways a blessed relief from all the pressure. I'm retired I only did it to help him out in the first place. It's now complicated. I dislike complicated. It needs some capital to get it over the line. Am I prepared to put more investment in to get it over the line and in front of people? I only need to sell a few of these a year and I can cover the costs.
So I am being a spreadsheet jockey and doing my Excel gymnastics with the figures to see what impact this has had on the business and on me. I really, really don't need all this cr@p. Not at my age FFS.
So I am left to deal with the toys out of the pram moment and I suppose as he no longer wants to talk to me have anything to do with me that is going to be that. It's bizarre almost as if his Ego has taken control of his head but I can't do anything about him just the fallout I've now inherited.
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