So What's It Going To Be?

 How long do I go on making excuses for and accepting this awful human being for?  I think that I've done the christian bit way too much now and when his cards were shown yesterday I now fully understand that he has canvassed the shareholders and they will all vote with him and at least I now know what I thought was the case all along.  The trouble is they are all as delusional as he is.  He figures that if he votes me out and he takes over, everything will be fine and I will have to hand over all the business assets and so on.

He thinks that this comes with no financial cost to himself.  No doubt the magic money tree will provide.  So I am not dealing with a realist at all more a Walter Mitty type character with some strange view of the world.  The only person who has any business acumen in the group if most probably the one person who should know better but I think they are the ones to prick up the pieces, waiting in the wings to bayonet the wounded and pick over the corpses.

Not one of them has the best interests of the business in focus and not one of them could comprehend the complexities of unravelling 9 years worth of work!  

So, I am now turning my attention to the fall out that this meeting will have.  It will be quite interesting I imagine and I need to now disconnect myself from the personalities and the working relationship that was there before.  It is he that has lost his head whether through spite or vengeance (for what I am not sure) and all of these are his actions.  Publishing the letter where he threatened me physically didn't do anything and so that sets out the calibre of the people I am dealing with. No one has condemned his actions as far as  I know.  If I saw something like that I would like to be on the right side for sure.  They don't know me and have now all colluded to try and have me removed from my job.  So be it.  

I find lots of people these days have no moral compass and are outraged in one area but not in others, they shout about one sort of "this next thing" and utterly silent on similar matters when their intelligentsia whistle kicks in.  So with these people now having facts before them take the side of a bully and someone who threatens violence unless he gets his way!  Where was their thoughts in this but then I realise that they were each gifted their shares and he is just collecting their eternal souls as payment.  A quisling effort the lot of them.

So, now it's time to actually stop worrying about it and prepare to pull that carpet from under them all in a short while and try not to look smug or anything else as it's only business and that's all it is.  

On Edge - Sunday Thoughts

 Yes, why is that?  I think it because the tactics used by this bloke are all planned to put me at a disadvantage and yesterday another letter which told me much of what I knew already about the man.  It's not him pulling the strings here.  Goodness knows it is costing him a small fortune in solicitors and postage alone.  

I really am not happy about it and it's long since gone the point where this is acceptable behaviour.  Once the meeting is over and done with I'd like to hope that that is it.  I cannot think of anything further he can attempt.  This is full regime change and he showed me part of his hand sending me copies of the proxy votes.  It's a typical intimidation ploy and so I guess what he's showing is that he has a strong hand and in his estimation, has won the argument.  I know different as he hasn't worked out the difference between the number of votes and the percentage of votes.

I could, but I cannot be arsed to play silly buggers here.  I could quite easily start to confuse the situation but it really isn't worth it, the business hasn't even turned a buck as of today and I'm not expecting it too for a while but this guys full on as if it is some massive corporate.  Whoever is controlling him is an interesting thing and let's hope that he turns his attention on them when this horrible sad episode concludes in a few weeks or so.  

Pest Control

 Like an annoying fly buzzing around your head and making that buzz noise past your ears, this bloke has turned into a complete nuisance.  I have fly spray here but not human spray!  I don't think we citizens are allowed mace or pepper sprays LOL!

Another letter arrived this morning and it's designed to be Intimidatory and threatening - which it is slightly for it shows how people are going to vote in the upcoming shareholder's meeting.  And if I run the numbers it should indeed threaten me.  But I want to see the whites of his eyes when he metaphorically pulls the trigger to remove me from the business except that I don't think it will actually work out that way.

He's still got almost two weeks to throw some more stuff at me.   

The Task Ahead

 It's almost a year since the parting of ways and then shortly afterwards we found that the App needed to be totally rewritten.  Looking back today on the adverts and stuff from a year ago it certainly looks as if I was in full flow on the social media stuff and looking forward to the launch.

A year.  It sounds a long time and in many ways, a lot has happened since then.  None of it is making it any easier as this chap is still bothering and harassing me.  I hope in two weeks time that it will be over and that it will free me up to really concentrate on the business.  

Today I am stalling and procrastinating a bit because despite being ready for this launch moment something is nagging me and I am not sure what it is but I know that if that is stopping me from acting on the plan, then I need to just take a short break and then resolve whatever it is.  

So a short moment's reflection is required whilst I try and understand what is happening here.

The Great Day Has Arrived

 Yes, here we are I can push the release button when I like, everything has passed muster and it is literally, just a push of a button away.  I think I will wait until the OH is here and we can finally after 8 long years go for it.  It seems like a lifetime and yet another stupid pedantic letter arrived from this bloke who is determined to make my life hell.  After getting fretted up about it, it shows the level of the man.  

I'll be meeting him eye-to-eye in a few weeks if he doesn't back out of it that is. It depends on whether his friends side with him or abstain (that's what I'd do) but I think that he wouldn't have taken on this action unless he'd spoken to them but perhaps they might reflect on the facts they now have before them will they vote for money or for oblivion?  

Oh well, it will be resolved soon.  For now back to launch day and hopefully some interesting times ahead.  

Law Of Unintended Consequences

FAFO is pretty apt for the problems I am having with a certain individual as he will find out soon.

What though this is about is the number of stories you read or hear about where someone (but generally some government local or otherwise) comes up with a brainwave, pushes it through against all the evidence to the contrary and then has to spend more of yours and my money putting it right or in some cases doubling down until complete destruction is wrought.  They then appear like moles emerging into the bright sunlight, hardly believing their eyes at how Armageddon has devastated their ideas.

Take the parking restrictions in many places, priced to actually make revenue they in fact deter people from going to town, I now only go for seeing my Dentist once a year or my optician once every two years.  When I have been recently I can always find a space!  It used to be that yo'd have to try two or three car parks but now, as the tumbleweed blows across the tarmac it's much easier and more expensive.  The shops are either up in arms about it (some offering to cover the cost of your car parking) or like about 50% of the high street are boarded up!

Same town, they made plans for a one way system and using the ring road and narrowed the high street and put in larger pavements.  They did not however, have pull ins for the busses and so after a very short time of it opening we had neither this bypass system working and the traffic was backed up because when a bus stopped, everything stopped and you couldn't overtake either really.  Space given for pedestrians added to the blockage and they had to reverse engineer it back to the old system and blow me down it worked!  Millions of our money once again.

I still use the mantra "If it ain't broke, don't fix it"  but they always have to justify their position by doing good things and f*****g it up.  "There's been a huge drop in trade and we'd urge people to come and visit our lovely town"  In other areas by the sea they put the charges up so much that no one came and they were once again blinking in the bright sunlight and could not understand it.

They painted Double Red Lines in some areas and businesses now have half or less of the trade they used to have.  We truly are run by Muppets and that';s being cruel to Muppets.  Businesses move away and customers are happy to drive to the outskirts to the large supermarkets and stores because the parking is plentiful and free and there are more facilities.

The waste of money is outrageous and no one gets punished for it anymore, no one sees the stupidity of local parish councils my local one serving less than a 1,000 people getting involved in climate change.  The larger councils getting involved in politics in Africa or debating and ruling on Ukraine or commenting on Middle East policy.  They cannot even empty the bins properly and treat us like kids.

Slowly we see it unravel and let's hope it isn't long before the adults take back the reins and stop this awful waste of resources.

Feeding The Crocodile

 Winston Churchill famously said, “An appeaser is one who feeds a crocodile, hoping it will eat him last”.  We see this more and more these days.  Cowardly politicians will not go and take the hard route to tackle the ills of the country having actually caused those ills in the first place.  Looking after your people should be your first sworn duty but not this omnishambles of the past 20 or more years.  No, they cannot be brave and tackle the problems made by them as appeasers and servants to the wet liberal metropolitan elite (let's call them woke).  

Every move they make actually makes things worse and more complex and appeasement and change is forced on people along with more censorious draconian limits on our liberties and ever more tax paid by us to fix the haemorrhaging of cash to anywhere but where it is needed.  The list of projects the money is spunked up on is outrageous. The leaking of money by public servants (they are no longer civil) who are not business people is truly mind blowing.  Billions here and billions there and we have forgotten how to build things and how to control and manage money.

Gradually the public are seeing it for what it is.  There's been a shift in the overton window and the noisiest uninformed people, the real racists and bigots who believe themselves to be good and kind are rising to the top like scum in a septic tank.  We can see them now, we see that they are the very thing they accuse us of being.  The be kind brigade are anything but, the tactics they employ are to display to your face outdated pig ignorant set in their ways birdbrained lacking in basic knowledge yelling hypocrisy.  They cannot actually debate - these are the loud, braying of fools.  I don't really watch them as they are embarrassing to themselves and to the public at large.   

Asked what far right is or fascist few can tell you.  They scream racist and bigot but that's all they can do because that is the limit of their argument and generally the limit of their vocabulary.  It was amusing to catch someone asking these protesters where a certain country was that they were protesting about, they weren't sure exactly where it is.  Another asked about research which proved they were rattling on about something that was opposite of their stated protest.  They have no depth of knowledge in their subject and no arguments, no data, no peer reviewed science, no evidence and certainly no debating skills.  Denier, Bigot, Racist, and any other sub human response will do and if you yell it loud enough you've won the argument.  

We've let them get away with this uneducated, unwashed mass to get away with it because no one challenged it, no one stopped the lies and propaganda being bandied about and no one stopped the insults to our intelligence.  Cowardly we let them get away with it and those at the top need to hang their heads in shame for the damage done to this country and its people.

It looks as if the awakening is happening and let's hope we start standing up to this rot and if they want to shout and cry, give them something to cry for.  

Limbo Land

 When you want to have something sorted out and it's still three weeks away.  When the App is about to launch but you've still got to do the final UAT and resubmit it and it isn't ready for that test.

So many things are just in that limbo land and there's little you can do until they arrive.

To be fair there are things I can get on with but not enough to get me sat down and just thrashing my way through the list and achieving milestones and ticking them off.  I need some small but vital bits of information until I can actually do work without having to go back over it and edit or tweak it.

It's like being an athlete called to their blocks and awaiting the set and starting gun!  I don't want a false start, I want to hit the ground running so to speak.  Finding something to occupy my mind is necessary.

And Just Like That

 My attitude has changed.  You cannot change the past, you cannot predict the future nor should you worry about it either.  What will happen will happen and whilst the uncertainty is there because you cannot second guess what's about to present itself you can only do your best.

I know that I am prepared now and I just need to control what I can control and with the preparation I have already done and following the process we will get there and it will be what it will be.

My brain has to go through a process to get to where I am now, a playing of all the scenarios and that being said, the rest will just be what I cannot control.  I can control myself and that's fair enough but I cannot control the uncontrollable.   

"There are known knowns. These are things we know that we know. There are known unknowns. That is to say, there are things that we know we don't know. But there are also unknown unknowns. There are things we don't know we don't know."

Donald Rumsfeld

Yes - That LOL.

Clarity Of Thinking

 One of the payoffs when you do a lot of thinking (and writing) is that you start to clear in your mind what things actually are.  Not a "Eureka!" moment really but it was not as yesterday's blog post a moral dilemma at all.  In fact there is no moral ground at play here. It's not about business either, it's about some sort of revenge.  It's a bit around about face in as much as clearly, in his mind, I have wronged him and he is going to destroy everything albeit he does not realise that even if he could replace me, he'd have to compensate me for all the work I've done and the investment.

He doesn't give a toss about me and he is being motivated by blind rage.  The initial shot across the bow was deeply troubling but smacked of something wrong.  Once I had returned fire it wasn't really accepted (even though I supplied the evidence) and the threats toned right down but the illogical questions remained. Now we have a business procedure to endure to remove me and the reasons given are the same as the first and second letters.  Then you can see through the cracks of it all.  The headlines for why he wants me gone are actually down to his own actions in the first place and he cannot see that his actions have consequences. 

I know people generally cannot see the wood through the trees but this is another level really.  When someone initiates an argument and then shifts the blame back onto you, it is known as blame-shifting or scapegoating within the practice of gas-lighting, a manipulative behaviour intended to avoid responsibility and make you feel guilty or ashamed. This is a form of emotional manipulation designed to deflect attention and control the narrative, often used by individuals with narcissistic tendencies or in abusive dynamics. That is very broadly what is happening here, he seems to now live in a dream world where, in his mind, he can run a tech business but he owns no IT equipment and almost lives off grid.

This fantasy appears to be the problem as he instructed me to do a series of things which I did and then accused me of doing those exact things!  

So rather than me feeling sorry for him or pitying him, my whole attitude has changed.  It's a matter of survival and he needs to get it off his chest I guess but his actions if they were successful would damage the whole business and his "friends" interest in the business too. If they vote with him at least I will know who is for or against and that will determine what to do after that.  I doubt that any of them and him have the detailed business knowledge to make the decision that is required and have no idea other than my statement to comprehend the magnitude of the problem.

In his blind rage, he has lost the logical argument and he has not undertaken his research.   You should never interrupt your enemy when he is making a mistake" is a famous aphorism attributed to Napoleon Bonaparte.  There's whole books relating to this and I've used it throughout my career.  On one occasion, a number "team" members were out to make my life hell, the customer however, was very supportive of my work.  So much was piled on me that I had to keep going to the customer and request extra time and money for the project which I submitted in new plans to the "team" at regular meetings.  It was an 18 month project and my 6 months turned out to be close to a year.  Once I had my work signed off by the customer, I casually slipped into the conversation as I was about to handover and leave whether he had granted extensions to the other teams who were responsible to complete the 12 months work (originally).  The customer had granted no extensions, no extra money etc because no one had asked for it.

So there we have it, they made my life hell but can you imagine that they had asked for no more money - they were still paying out for quite large teams (£ Millions) and no extension of time so they had 6 months left to do 1 years worth of work.  It was interesting watching the penny drop on the team and my arsehole boss who had turned the dogs on me.  My part of the project made money, delivered a sound piece of work, commended by the customer and they had taken their eye off the ball.  They didn't look like they were laughing at all.  

I still have my Programme Manager's Mantra from all those years back written by Sir John Harvey Jones: “The only good thing about no planning, is that failure comes as a complete surprise and is not preceded by a period of anguish and fear.”

And so, whilst it has taken me a while to get there.  It's now pretty clear that this is just a sad angry old man who's made a huge miscalculation, now doubling down and digging further into trouble.  He ignored the olive branches and life raft thrown to him by me.  Blinded by rage he probably needs to play this card which he supremely confident of winning, if he gets his friends on his side he will turn up confident of victory as he thinks (incorrectly) that he has the required votes to win.  I can just let things go on for a few minutes, let him have his say, and then watch as his victory and dreams dissolve into dust before his eyes - you need a 51% poll but the number of share votes you have totalled do not 51 share votes do not make 51%  it doesn't work that way. 

Recalling a similar outcome many years ago, my right hand man, when you could say such things to people, having been accused of something and we proved beyond a doubt that it was someone else, the culprit caught red handed as we were investigation with the customer, looked directly at the accusers and stated "Well, do I get a f*****g apology or does someone get a smack in the mouth?"  We actually got a very nice slap up meal!

So the main thing is that if you play the scenarios and try and understand what the motivation is and work out your numbers, then you can enjoy them getting their comeuppance!  

The Moral Dilemma

 The problem I seem to be having is that what's coming up next is going to go down like a fart in a spacesuit.  One of us is going to completely defeated and deflated and they don't seem to realise what's in store for them.  After some pretty vicious attacks threatening all sorts of actions, those actions disappeared and they presented a "gotcha" to remove me from office.  There's no plan to their action, they think that removing someone from office doesn't have consequences and it's totally wrong of course.  There's no logical argument that is correct and there is a naive view that I will hand over control of the business I've built expecting my cooperation and no consideration.

So that's the latest Regicide manoeuvre after me fighting off the first one and totally ignoring the second.  Third time lucky I guess?

But the dilemma is that it never needed to be this way.  It's a vendetta and there's me feeling almost sorry for this chap and worrying about it.  The old days I would have metaphorically stuck the boot in but now, I find that a petty thing to do.  Clearly he deserves it but he is blind with anger and has worked himself into a froth and he cannot get out of it.  I do not know if he's been Worm Tongued into it but it is his final throw of the dice and he thinks he is going to "win" and there are no winners in this there's no win/win and perhaps no lose/lose either.  One of us is going to win and one is going to lose.  He just doesn't realise that I outplayed him around six months ago.  I guessed that there would be one final throw of the dice and rather than picking up my olive branch he's played the final endgame, all in.

I ask myself why, when he's made my life hell does it concern me.  I suppose because it would be a shallow victory indeed and it will end with his defeat when I tried quite hard to get to a win/win and he felt he could not talk about it just pay more and more money to send the letters to me.  I don't know if he is doing this himself or is being advised by someone.  This last gambit is a big risk but I don't think he has worked that out.  It strikes me that no one has discussed this with him in detail or evaluated the risks especially as there is every possibility that the rug will come out from under him but anger and rage and vengeance do that to you I suppose.  

It's not fair, it's not a match of equals and has only one outcome and perhaps it is that that I am concerned about.  When I was in business years ago, you could get your opponent angry and once you'd done that and they started acting irrationally you'd won.

I will probably just play it cold and clinical, I don't need to shout I just need to follow the procedure, follow the script and quietly present the facts.  I am concerned that he will just get angry and become violent, certainly his correspondence is incendiary, threatening and ugly.  I just hope he will be too shocked by the outcome to react.  It's not nice being the harbinger of doom but then again, I have to remind myself this is all self inflicted and only he is to blame for painting himself into a corner.  

Ideology Trumps Common Sense

 The last week should tell you all you need to know about Socialism / Marxism. A government in deep trouble appear to think that you can tax your way out of some of the worst figures you've ever seen.  Huge debt, job vacancies plummeting and house prices falling with sales struggling.

The answer of course is to insult our intelligence, talk incoherent nonsense and tell us how kind you are by trashing their opponents whilst not telling us anything that they've achieved (because they haven't) in the past 14 months and taking a leaf out of Nero's playbook.  The way to combat illegal migration apparently is the well thought through policy of digital ID. Close to 3 million people have petitioned not to do it and their answer?  We are doing it anyway!  So by pushing this ID system it stops the boats?  Ihre Papiere, bitte! 

They throw insults at us, piss on our shoes and tell us it's raining and must be quite deluded because they think they are the good guys, they are doing the right thing.  If they all didn't have that nasty nasally thin squeaky issue affecting them so they can talk down to us as if we work for them I imagine is why they cannot actually smell the Coffee and observe what we see day in day out.

I go back to some of the worst managers I ever had and it was the same back then, so wrapped up in their self importance, they somehow actually thought they were doing the right thing and often said so and yet they had not a clue and stood surveying the total collapse of their part of the business and proclaimed that "it is good!" 

Not one of these people have any idea because they've never really had a job, never really had to speak to people.  Rules for thee but not for me every time.  They preach hate and think it is love  they are the very worst of us.

As I used to say and perhaps I need to start saying it more often "They are the very thing they accuse you of" for it is a mirror on their own thinking (I use that word lightly).  When you point the finger at someone there are always three fingers pointing back at you.  

You kind of hope that it all ends rapidly and we see what was described in Proverbs 16:18, which states, "Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall"

I Am Sure I Never Used To Be This Highly Strung

 I am quite anxious at the moment.  Dealing with irrational and unstable people used to be OK back in the day but this is another level.  A business matter is OK I guess but this is nasty, personal, ad-hominem attacks and relate to something he "thought" I said.  Rather than let that go it has metastasised into this full blown personal series of attacks and now a removal from the company as director.

Don't throw stones I was taught, keep it business (if it is business) and at least comprehend that there is no plan should he succeed, the company will go to the wall especially as he will not compensate for any work or expense undertaken.  Hence, it's personal.  Added to that he hides behind solicitor's letters.

We always referred to this sort of person as a coward. It's a slightly deranged, vendetta fuelled below the belt nonsense of the very worst kind.  He seeks to remove me which he can only do by now involving his friends, fellow shareholders for without their unanimous vote it cannot become reality.  Indeed if he garners their support in his head he will defeat me and then take my place.  Under the old regime that would indeed work yet he has not been involved for almost a year now so that his eye is blinded to the new structure which will fail his attempt at a coup d'état.  But I get to see the whites of their eyes and that's probably a good thing.

 But, I find it stressful, far more than I ever did in the past and I think because this guy whom I've known for a long time turned from a nice well mannered person to a rude vengeful person in a few days. It's concerning I wonder if he is ill? I am probably more worried about how he will take to losing the vote.  Ideally if just one of his friends having now read the accusations that he has made and then seeing his original letter that kicked all of this off abstains or votes against then he will lose his motion, without me worrying too much.   Here's the thing though, I out vote him and his friends and I am sure that he will kick off when he loses, that sort often do as they have no plan B and they fail to accept that their own actions have consequences.

Years back I used to ruthless in this sort of scenario and it was part of the job to skewer people who acted a bit like this.  They'd get to the end of a meeting to suddenly find that they'd been hoisted by their own petard.  Like in martial arts, you use their own strength against them and only afterwards would they realise that they left with less than they arrived with.

It troubles me that this chap is coming for me in the most vile and disgusting ad hominem way and has finally built himself up to his full height to face me in a meeting and his "empire" will crash and burn before him.  I don't think he has the mental ability to see his arguments lost and suffer defeat and I, feel sorry for him.  I don't like the idea of his inevitable defeat playing on his unhinged mind but as I said above, there are plenty of examples of this sort of behaviour, Hoist by your own petard (Hamlet), those who Live by the sword, die by the sword etc

I am trying not to be vengeful and I am finding it difficult given the awful things he has said about me and the off hand way he wishes to dispose of me from the business (no compensation, surrender of shares for no consideration etc).  So perhaps, just perhaps, I need to reflect on this that I am fighting my own internal emotional battle on his behalf, trying to forgive but it is my ego wants him to take a punishment beating for how evil he has been to me and that's not really the way, my way.  

The struggle is that he's a sad, vengeful, vindictive old man and I am about to deliver a crushing blow to his vexatious behaviour and I have tried to resolve this amicably but he wants "his day in court" well in a meeting where he topples and overthrows the King and picks up the reins himself.  He will probably be extremely upset at the end of the meeting and I care about that.  Maybe I do not need to.  I just need to look after myself and the business and forget about him and his strange behaviour.  It's like those neighbours disputes you see on the news where they've been feuding over how high their hedge is.  

It isn't worth worrying about of course, he's the one being an arse not me.  Whilst this is the last throw of his dice it probably wont be.  I am sure he will keep on sniping from the sidelines.  Good luck to him and to me, I just need to re-read this and re programme my head.

End Of The Month

 So the meeting has gone back to the end of the month.  In some ways that is OK, today I have the release candidate to test and so I hope, if all goes well, we can release it and start to actually turn some money over.  That will be really useful to cover off the bills and to know whether it is viable.  If it isn't, then that's another story of course.

The other matter is of course still ongoing and vexatious.  You can hardly believe how horrible people can be but then I had heard that he can be a bit nasty and now I can see what they mean. I'll be ready for him when he comes for me.

FFS, Of Course It Won't Be Easy

 One of those days - the meeting has gone back three weeks and so the agony is drawn out even more.  Oh well, I can stop concerning myself about it now and see how things transpire I suppose!

Whilst I dislike the stress this is causing me, I will at least have an interesting time when the time comes.  The coup de grâce will be interesting...  I need to have a little more faith in my abilities and not worry so much.  

Countdown

 Not the popular TV show, the countdown to the meeting this Friday to resolve this 1 year long nonsense.  Some people.  You have to try really hard to understand what planet they reside on and why they are completely illogical.  I did some more detailed research yesterday and found out some more intriguing information.  Some of that was procedural and some of it was things that had been bothering me and when you do dig deeper you see a bit more of what has actually happened here.

The interesting part of it all is that some of the language that has been used actually tells a story that what he claims and says is quite different to the reality of the situation.  The actions that were demanded cannot actually be enforced even if the vote were to go against me on Friday.  So what it confirmed to me is that the content was not written by the people who sent it.  My not responding to the last one was an interesting ploy and so here we are, a shareholder meeting and an attempt to oust me as the company's sole Director.  That should be interesting as at least I will find out and understand what I am dealing with.

The trick is to remember that it is a business meeting - he will treat it as a vent and personal vendetta.  I just need to minute his words and publish the minutes.  That could be interesting.  Always record everything and that's what I intend to do.  Always keep records of meetings and decisions so there can be no misunderstanding.  The production of such documents often helps to correct facts oftentimes badly remembered.

What surprises me is he knows my background, has worked with me on a number of documents and also has heard me explain why I do certain things in a certain way.  He is now challenging me on the very things he must realise I have available.  Oh well, there's none so blind as those who will not see as we used to say.

It's Like One Of Those Old B&W Silent Movies

 I thought we'd have a car crash with the current government and we'd just full speed drive into a wall or off a cliff, that sort of thing.  It actually feels like I'm watching a twisted macabre clown show, all psychedelic and almost unbelievable as it all starts to unfold.

Think of Buster Keaton in that famous scene when his car hits a bump in the road and all the bits fall off the car.  Laurel and Hardy too made a similar film scene.  But perhaps the best is the Laurel and Hardy where they and a protagonist destroy each others cars.  Each takes a turn to rip of a mud guard, smash a light until there is next to nothing left.

That's where we are right now.  The whole show is falling apart and there's no coherence to their policies, there's no combined strategy to deal with the threat posed by Reform who live rent free in everyone's head.  The various factions are all pulling in different directions, nothing is getting done because they do not know how to do it and then Mr. Charisma finds another idea whilst he's having his evening bath and shouts Eureka!  I have the answer.  He's done this a lot in 14 months and as there really aren't any adults around to stop him he declares that Digital ID shall stop the boats and solve everything.  

What planet do these supposed politicians inhabit?  Well I have no idea and this morning the Chancellor refuses to rule out VAT increases or perhaps changes might be the right way of saying it.  Already there is a reason that around January to April every year you cannot get tradespeople.  They know that if they earn over a certain amount tha they have to register and apply VAT.  It's not a level playing field at 20% on top.  I was faced with two quotes and one was around 75% less than the other totally due to the VAT and I spoke to the guy who was VAT registered and apologized that I liked his quote but... He knew straight away and that was a bit sad if you think about it.

I am reminded that this sort of thing has been going on all my life that they tinker with something and the laws of unintended consequences comes back to bite them.  Reviewing the latest stuff coming from the Office of National Statistics - not the headline stuff but the actual data, there's a lot more to be worried about.  The unemployment shows some losses but actually, when you dig deeper you find that state public sector job hires are the only thing that is propping this up and of course it's not real it's just spending more and standing still.  Underneath that in Hospitality (who must be taking a huge hit) and manufacturing likewise bashed about we ONLY lost 50,000 jobs last month!  It's a disaster and benefits etc are astronomical.  If a dummy like me can see it, why can't they?

Ideological theorists cannot understand why their Utopian dreams never come to fruition.  This is why.  I feel a mood in the country that isn't going to take all this nonsense much longer, fed up of being lied to all the time, watching the country go down the toilet telling us they have a black hole in their finances whilst spunking the money on weird stuff, stopping exploiting our own resources whilst happily paying more for them from abroad and with our cost of living going up at far more than the published 3.8% - I'd go 6 to 10% at least.  The price of gas has gone down but because they imposed a market cap everyone is paying far more.  Make it make sense?  It never will because all the departments are pulling in opposite directions.

Mention the Laffer curve and you get blank stares back.  There's not one of these people who has started and run a business, been in high office in a business or held a working tool or done a days work in the real world.  They instinctively know they are right when they are way off beam. 

Anyway, get the popcorn in and watch the bits falling off the car.  They see a shiny new car and we see a wreck.  One of us is wearing rose tinted glasses and It isn't me!  

When You Can Only Do

 As much as you can do and do your best.  Due diligence and research, scenario building and review, perhaps looking at "What is the worse thing that can happen?" 

This stuff is screwing me over and it is because I actually feel a little (not much admittedly) sympathy for this bloke.  It's wearing mightily thin but I have to continue to be professional and measured, level headed etc.  Thirty years ago the bloke would have got a bigger surprise as I took no prisoners when I was younger, it was my job and so many would try  but few succeeded in getting one over on me.

I recall that one of our ladies in the office heard me rip into someone and they said something along the lines of "I hope you don't kiss your children with those lips!"  you can probably understand why.

Now?  I don't want all this hassle and turmoil because some one who has thrown all their toys out of their pram decides that it is my fault and I should be the one who should be punished.  It's a pathetic waste of time, money and resources and wont get us any further along the road to resolving his problems whether they be in his head or elsewhere.  

But you can only do so much.  Thirty years ago Id have this resolved in 30 minutes, now, it will take a little longer as I need to prepare and cover many bases.  

Here We Go Again

 I find myself in "No, I  don't want to go [insert place here]" preferring to sit quietly here and attempt to get my head back together after another disturbed fitful sleep.

My mind, for what it is was, many years ago, was easily able to process such stuff but being an INTJ when I'm older is very different.  With all this nonsense going on with the company and shareholder meeting now arranged but requiring a lot of work to cover all eventualities.  I am not young anymore and so, what happens is a worry and doubt creep in and the self assuredness of my youth is no longer there.  I dealt with far far worse things than this, and to be honest, to lose would destroy the business under someone else's control and I could just walk away but the actual thing is, it's ready to launch, you can almost touch it.  My self assurance comes and goes in what, to me, is an illogical and not usual INTJ approach. 

I am meant to be out to see my friend get appointed to a very high position and I just don't want to go.  I don't want to leave the house much and I am aware that this is a problem that I've had for a number of years now.  So I need to apologise to him and I'll miss the meal I've paid for and all that.  There is no upside to this, it needs resolving and whether or not the current problem can be resolved will probably lighten or darken my overall demeanour.  

This time next week it will all be over for good or ill.  I am in a very strong position but when you are dealing with irrational, non linear, angry and non business like people, anything can happen.  Maybe that's what is gnawing away at me?  Who knows and it taking over my mind or more likely me just making excuses not to see the world is not helping in the slightest.  I had a few walks during the week and perhaps I need to take a few more?  I know that I need to do things but for now I also need to finance doing these (these are business things) and secure the business first and then I can secure myself.  If I can "steady the ship" then there's a secure base to work from.  

 

Worth Repeating I Believe

 The PM who appears to lie more each day now think immigration (illegal that is) can be stopped by making people have some for of 'Digital' ID.  

So here's what I want to repeat - the government and the civil service and all the other public servants are called servants for a reason..  They take our money and work for us and not the other way around and how many more times will it take to wake the public up and say that?  They work for you, not vice versa, they are "THE SERVANTS"!!!

It comes to something where the most outlandish things pass for policy, stuff not in any manifesto and how can someone so utterly despised think that this will increase his popularity.  Honestly, on the street, the man is hated second only to the Chancellor.  

After wasting our money on pointless virtue signalling rather than tackling the utter mess they and their predecessors have made they double down and it is now bordering on theft.  A few billion here and a few billion there just flushed down the toilet all the time.

Here's the thing, they don't even care about it, the way out of this crisis is to spend more, borrow more and spend it on wasted proejcts.

They also think that if you write it down or announce it (generally in isolation of other things that clash with it) that it will magically happen.  I wrote a not that I'd be a millionaire by now and do you think I am?  

Utterly pathetic and hopeless and I'm giving them a big up there using those words!