Clear to go in next Monday - the usual high blood pressure and high heart rate but other than that, I seem to be fit enough to go in for another rigid cystoscopy. For the last three times it was thought to be the last one and in a way, I managed to get myself through the procedure telling myself that.
I hate having to go in for these things. No matter what you think about it - it is traumatic and upsetting painful but you can live with that, damn uncomfortable - I can't even begin to describe the feeling inside as everything settles back into place again - yuk! Yes, I can now begin to start psyching myself up for going in and also trying to keep down the dark thoughts at the same time.
So here we go for another ride through to what must be Scar Wars VII? I need to go and check. I couldn't even remember when I had cancer this morning when chatting to the doctor :-) I said 2007 but in reality is was 2006 wasn't it. I wasn't thinking clearly at all.
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