I wonder whether the operation was some sort of milestone in my planning that somehow has sparked off a "new me". I'm somehow a different me again. I'm upbeat, looking forward and I'm feeling optimistic about the future. I am looking forward to taking a risk and seeing if I can get this idea of ours under way and funded.
I hear it in my friend's voices, their concern over the recurrence and yet, I don't feel that it is quite as bad as it sounds. I suppose it isn't if it is your voice and your head thinking around the ideas. Bless them, they sound worried and yet, I don't believe it is something that you can worry about. I'm under observation and in the hands of a specialist who will advise what is right for me when we next meet. I think the only things I need to know are what treatments are there going to be so I can plan my way around them. One of the key things I must do is to get some time together with my business partner and plan the way ahead in more detail. Any treatment would just mean I have to set my plans a little differently especially if I am on some full blown treatment again.
I really feel well and I just want to get on and get things sorted. I think I've come to terms with leaving my job albeit I am going to be retained for a while and I am certain that by only doing strategic work it will be better for me in terms of using my mind and solving problems.
It still amazes me how integrated I became to the organisation in just 2 years. At least I can still help even from afar and I even did about 3 hours work today remotely on the web site upgrades - well it kept me busy :-)
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