I found myself feeling a little bit down around mid morning. I'd picked up some of my medical notes and re-read some of the treatment stuff and the recurrence data and suddenly found myself feeling quite sorry for myself and quite emotional about it. I can't say that it lasted too long but I do feel a little less happy than normal and a little less buoyant but I can't say that I'm surprised by that.
I'm still battling with the fact that there was something wrong with my tests. All the other doubts also start to surface then too. Stuff like whether anything else is about to go wrong with my body.
Sitting on my own doesn't give me much time to distract myself but at least I have short listed some candidates for my job so I hope that I have been fair and objective. I've submitted those to the office. Perhaps that too has just added to me feeling a bit down?
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