Now that's interesting, I'm beginning to catch myself (my ego/pain body) diverting attention away from what I am doing. So far I think I've been able to catch it most times. It's trying hard and dragging up memories from the past, some that I've only just remembered through this fight in my head. The crazy thing is that there isn't any pattern to the daydreams and memories at all.
There's some interesting stuff that I've not remembered very well, the insides of buildings for example, I recognise some of the people and recall some of the situations but I'm realising what these are and stopping them. What they are, are an attempt to divert me and drag me back to having all this stuff going around in my head.
What's good is the emptiness and space I feel at the moment - like things have been lifted away and long may that continue. It's taken a while to get here and I just need to make sure I work at it and fend off my mind's attention seeking - lets see how I do?
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