Eating

Strange that I wasn't really feeling like eating and even at lunch time I forced down some tuna and Spinach.  I think that the diet will be a bit shot this week as I go up and see my dad.  I'll probably stay with my mum which will save me some hard cash.  


Mum seems to have started to realise that Dad will probably not come home now and I think that she is able to say these things to me but not to my brother who would be a little upset by that sort of talk.   Dad's not great, still eating and drinking and getting good care but has a number of small ailments that aren't helping him be comfortable but each is being checked and acted on.  Tomorrow he has a big assessment day, it appears that they have stabilised how rough he was feeling with pain killers and they have managed to get him to walk a few steps but, in all honesty, the three or four steps completely exhausted him.  I think he is a bit more lucid and I believe that he is at least able to have proper 24x7 care that mum just cannot achieve.


I'm going to go see him this week after I've spoken to mum after this assessment I will go up for two or three days and see what I can do.  At least I can do some of the driving around in place of my brother and sister-in-law.  I guess that I might also be able to allow him to "tick the box" if he is waiting to see me.  My daughters are in their examination week and final project weeks at University and I'm very much hoping that nothing disturbs their week so that they can get their work done.  


I am preparing myself for the worst and whilst I know my brother wanted me up last week, at least this week I can managed more than a cursory visit.  We will just have to see how it goes.