The Hotel, the emotions, the symbolism, the love (yes the love). Eleven years on and it didn't turn out the way this old romantic wanted it to. It never could have, well I say never, perhaps in a parallel universe we are together.
It's nice, every now and then to reflect and remember with great fondness a magical time in my life when I was going through hellish times.
I found the Cancer journey more of a mind problem and the 28th June 2013 was a brief release from all of that. A chance of escape and dreamer that I am, it all looked so rosy and wonderful - a future of proper shared love and genuine interests shared but it was not to be.
I was both elated and destroyed at the same time. Genuine connections and proper love but it was not to last through circumstances beyond my control. I would have done anything at all to be with my Angel for the rest of my life. However, not at their expense and it's best that the right thing to do was to part. Very hard thing to do.
Do I? Yes of course I do. Reminiscing is lovely and painful. Like today, a little anniversary of a very special time and it could have been like that forever. Yet, here I am reflecting on that wonderful time (for that's what I remember - not the disappointment) fully knowing it could and can never be. I have another live now and that's where I am, in the now.
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