And by that I mean how I currently feel. I am trying to get the business back on the straight and narrow and with all the threats and unpleasantness that has gone on, even though none of it is of my making, I feel the breathe of condemnation about the decisions I am making to keep the company going and to recover from the desertion and then subsequent attacks about how I run the business.
It's in my mind really, that the attacks weren't really justified and weren't based on reality but it is still unerring double checking everything and wondering what someone else, who no longer has any connection to the business thinks about it! It's nonsensical really. Why should I care about what someone who has deserted the business, thrown their toys out of the pram and then accused me of (well) all sorts of stuff thinks.
Such is the way my brain works that I actually need to play all these scenarios out and makes sure I've covered all the bases I can possibly think about. It's tiresome and probably overkill but just in case I think I need to do that.
I have to take certain actions if I am to launch and run the business and I don't care what he thinks - I actually don't think he thinks and just reacts and digs his hole deeper and deeper until there is no way out. He doesn't really have a say in the business at all so what am I worried about? Well you know what they say about cornered wild animals. That is what I am worried about and it isn't logical or planned it's primeval.
Oh well, most things are thought through and so I hope that perhaps we can make progress and leave this nastiness behind us now.
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