Calm But Still Not Right

 I find that the last few days have been calmer and I feel much better in myself.  However, I'm still not right and realise that I haven't been for years if I think about it.  Something isn't right and deep down in dungeons of my brain and deep inside my body I can feel it.

I really dislike going out anywhere and I would be quite happy to just be around the house and garden but that isn't going to happen and this "business" isn't going to run itself anytime soon and so that also drags at me.  I've just taken a short break from doing social media postings as I just can't think of anything to post - I imagine in a day or two that will change too.

I find people (not all) to be somewhat illogical or no longer feisty and full of character they don't seem to see what I see and they don't have the opinions that I do although they do parrot what they see and hear.  Back in the day we used to get a newspaper every day at one time and at weekends get two on Sunday.  A cup of coffee and a sit down to read cover to cover was something you did and yet still had time to do the massive garden we had, decorate the house and so on and I worked really hard too so coming home from work I'd have some food and then go and do two or three hours decorating work ready to be up at 6 again to go to work!  I can't do that now.  I can barely get the enthusiasm for anything.

Back to being informed - TV was for specific things and when it could be trusted to give you something like the facts and not their opinion was OK.  It was there for a little entertainment a bit of sport and so on.  The newspaper gave you the in-depth look at the world.  We both worked and we worked hard at work and play.

Today there is a stream of information available to you and that's OK but there doesn't appear to be the individual thought or analysis of that data..  There are lots of AI fakes, news but angled in the way that news outlet wants you to hear it and there is very little analysis or questioning going on.  I tend to have a low tolerance level for these things.  We have a government of naive, never run a business or a project types who have little grasp of the bigger picture.  They aren't even detail people and they certainly have no grasp on the need to encourage entrepreneurship.  The magic money tree has long since run out of money and the leanings toward more public sector and public expenditure without the money to pay for it from businesses being taxed so high they squeak is not the way to guide themselves out and "Go for growth" which they say they are doing.  Nasty socialist ideologies go down well with some people and if you rob Peter to pay Paul, you can always rely on Paul's vote.

The Keynesian socialist approach looks doomed already but no one seems to notice the economic data coming in and realise it isn't the bed of roses painted it's a forest of nettles and Venus fly traps.  Oh well.  That probably doesn't help my mood much either :-)