I know I've been in a strange place most of today and Flocky came and cheered me up a bit this morning but I've started to lose my voice a bit and that's stress and anxiety and depression all in one there. Nice to report that A had a good day at work but didn't enjoy the call from my mum at all.
Dad now realises that he is "fading away fast" and that he is dying, he said as much today and the Doctor came along and basically said "Sorry old chap, I can't do anything more for you other than to make you feel comfortable." So the Morphine Syringe Driver has been installed today and the inevitable decline has started. My mum reports that he is bloating up a bit with water retention and she thinks that is a precursor to Renal failure.
I have a meeting tomorrow for a potential job and on Wednesday I'm due out - and it's my birthday. The girls are threatening to take me out tomorrow evening for a meal and so I'll make that and just have to take pot luck on what has happened during the day although mum and kid brother have my mobile if they need me.
I have to say I'm really not in a great place today, the 6 year anniversary hasn't helped much and I'm just going to have to see what will be this week. I really don't feel great but that's pretty obvious why that is.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment