Why you may ask is my mind whirring? I think it is because I know now what I didn't know then.
Have a listen to this and see if you can see what the problem is?
Yes, it's something like that but not entirely. It's the same with a number of the friendships from back then. We were good friends and now I look back and think to myself, oh my goodness, that's what they meant! I'm not very good at picking up signals at all and here I am looking back and suddenly it all makes some sort of sense in that neither of us were asking the right questions and not just this occurrence.
I wonder what would have happened as, of course, I probably wouldn't have had the same course through life had these things happened in the order they did but blow me down, there's photos of us just being good friends and we all used to hang around together.
Later on there's a photo of someone else and she's looking at me in a way that sort of confirms what I felt at the time but didn't act on.
Too late now but these insights and what their ramifications may have been are interesting. You can't change the past but you can imagine what it might have been like. Are they regrets or just an insight? It is often stated that "I wish I'd known then what I know now" and I can see why that would be. I would have actually asked the question, been more certain about my ground, understood that the signs were all there but I wasn't as quick on the uptake as I should have been. Certainly in one case I am sure of it. Life would have been interesting indeed had that happened. It's the same with another friend who I just hadn't realised was making lots of signs and I was just being a thicko LOL.
The band, Bear's Den are well worth a listen to. This series of First Loves is a particular favourite but I mustn't listen for too long as it does make me a bit sad.
No comments:
Post a Comment