Perhaps some people just naturally merge into retirement and some have no issues at all as the phase from work to retirement painlessly move from one to the other?
Not me! Of course not, it has to be a drama and a huge bump in the road.
I had written and exit plan for the business determining what success or failure were and when to pull the trigger and make the decision to continue or walk away (you don't walk away BTW it is more controlled than that and is not over yet). That was purely a business document and was used to unemotionally come to a decision in a logical fact and data controlled way. It took no account of the consequences on me or anyone else for that matter.
It has taken a while, as you know, to become comfortable with the idea and the huge change that has happened and it still takes some adjustment too. Gradually my sleep is getting better and the "problems" are subsiding in my mind. They still exist a bit but control has returned and I can get back to sleep if I do wake with relative ease, certainly much better than the struggles I was having.
When you take away huge influences or drivers of your life and what you get up for without having done the preparations beforehand it really is difficult, I could hardly believe it and now, some 6 months or so later I am only just coming out of the other side. It has been a horrible experience and it's not fully done with me yet. I've lost a huge amount of confidence and I need to slowly reestablish it. Knocked the wind out of my sails you could say and the doldrums ensued. Onward and upwards!
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