We went out yesterday to meet an old friend and had a great meal too. Flocky and I got stuck in to some good nose bag and then the talk turned to experiences and the like. All three of us have had "our troubles" and our experiences are useful knowledge for other people.
It opened up the little portal into my mind once again last night and I'm just really pleased to be where I am but still get the survivor's syndrome - "why me?"
I cannot get motivated today. I need to get on and do some work but I just don't seem to get tucked in and do it. It looks as if I will need Friday off to catch up with all the stuff I've got to do.
SO even now, 3 1/2 years or more after this all began I still find that I'm affected. My mind and body aren't as fit and ready as I want them to be and my "will" which probably got me through this episode just seems to be taking a vacation at the moment. Maybe the problems I give myself these days just aren't as challenging as fighting cancer. That probably nails what I have been trying to say above...
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