Flocky and I met up and he castigated me for not calling on Tuesday when I was so low. Interesting as the very last thing I wanted to do was to talk to anyone! Flocky suggested he would be able to "snap me out of it" and that's interesting as he and I have both been to the depths of the Black Dog and so he knows a lot about this. I feel somewhat naughty that I didn't call anyone and I've got lots of very nice and good friends who will gallop to the rescue - I just don't acknowledge how wonderful my friends are really - I don't deserve them do I? :-)
The bottom line is that you just turn into a self wallowing mass of introverted self serving goo and aren't really in any mood whatsoever to call anyone and let them in on the secret. I wouldn't want to "phone a friend" if it meant emptying my guts out to them. YES I know that is what friends are for but are they really? I wouldn't want to burden my friends with it and yet I know that I've done that before for them.
Ho hum. I was a lot better today, I thrive on the right sort of company and I have to say I'm really blessed with some lovely friends and many of them through Freemasonry. The Masons have a number of particular rules that mean that you can call them and sort stuff out like I've just had. They are like the Samaritans in many ways. Whatever I said tonight was taken in and will not be repeated. My friends suggested different courses of action but didn't dictate what to do they just listened and provided balanced feedback and a shoulder to cry on and someone to bounce ideas off, that's all there's no judgement calls or anything else what more could you ask?
We discussed Mrs. F's and My President's Christmas Lunch on Sunday and the running order and all that good stuff. It's important that we have some idea of the structure even though the day may go slightly different to what we have planned :-)
I hope Mrs. F enjoys her day I really do.....
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