A Year Ago

 I was reminded that a year ago I was in a particularly dark place.  It happens occasionally that I get depressed and it can be for many reasons.  I think it is a bit of not being where aspirationally I thought I'd be, over thinking stuff, not getting where I wanted to be, getting old, getting fat, eating the wrong stuff, drinking too much and so on.

I can also trace some of it back to good old survivor syndrome and I was talking to someone who was ill and passed away shortly after Christmas and so there were lots of things going on.

I've come through that but there are still things that I need to change in myself and one of those is procrastination.  I still have the devil's own job getting motivated to do things.  I can and often do just go and do things but I can sit here and just do nothing and that's a problem too.  Feeling bad about doing nothing is a problem.  Sometimes doing nothing is OK I think.

Maybe it's all tied into the old work ethic, being busy all the time and not having time to myself.  Now I have time to myself I don't know what to do with it and I feel guilty for not working every moment of the day!  I can't win LOL.

Anyway, given up drinking the middle of this year was good.  I tend to only drink very occasionally now and not all the time, going Keto on my diet and also intermittent fasting is doing me good and I am around 2 stone lighter.  I'd like to lose another 2 or more stone over the coming year.

I also have this urge to get my affairs in order.  I'm feeling THAT OLD that I think it needs to be done.  I am putting that off but there is no need to as it is just being well organised and should help after I'm gone!   

I am so much better than I was this time last year and I feel quite well too.  Long may that continue...