I used to have a poster above my desk of a cartoon mouse (I think it might have been a person) with a screw right through their middle attached to a wall. It said something along the lines of "Be kind, good and gentle to others and you will obtain your just rewards"
Once again, in life I have gone out of my way to help someone, for over a decade I have helped and guided this person and my reward? You guessed it, they've made some sort of decision themselves that has backfired and...... it's my fault!!! Quite how this logic and powers of deduction led their decision to have been in anyway involving me I don't know so they've gone off the deep end and accused me of all sorts of stuff and yet if they'd have spoken to me I could have given balanced reasons why they should probably not have made a hasty and ill thought through decision to their detriment. Having not sought my advice or consulted me they then go on to do the most illogical thing and realise too late that it cannot be undone.
As I say, not the first time in my life. Three others when I was younger were looked after as my own, I spent time with them, helped schooling, college and university, became a father figure and was parent taxi to them. I barely hear a word from them now. The amount of support I've given to various people including monetary support goes un-repaid. Minds, like my wallet are empty and forgetful when needed.
I'm getting too old to give my time to these people anymore, I will help anyone but now I feel that I'm getting metaphorically "screwed to the wall" when I freely offer to help.
It feels wrong but I have to withdraw helping others out to my detriment if all they do is forget all the help you've given them. They try and make you feel bad and stupid me, I do. It worries me that they've done stuff to themselves and want to victimise me for their own actions.
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