So annoying, so annoying is procrastination. It comes at me in waves and sometimes I used to kid myself that I was building up stress pressure to make me do something. It's a bit "Eat the frog" as we used to say. I have stuff to do and it just sits here staring at me and before I know it, it's late afternoon and I head off out with nothing done of any significance.
It doesn't help with the craziness going on with all these threats and unpleasantness which I really don't need at all and that makes me tetchy too. I don't mean to be sharp with my responses but I do find people these days appear to want to be told what to do or have questions answered or generally be looked after and so I sometimes get a bit one word answer mode and also my sarcasm superpower goes full superhero and I find my attitude whilst 100% accurate hasn't been tempered with what little diplomacy I own.
So I am annoyed with myself as much as anything and I don't like getting old as I no longer have the Rhinoceros hide that protected me through my working life. I don't need all of this, it's unwanted and I'm lumbered with it. I just want to actually enjoy my retirement, perhaps that's it. You end up in situations you never planned and your reward is to get castigated by others for something you never wanted, never wished for and would happily get rid of. Maybe that's what I really needed to do (if I wasn't so deeply involved and embroiled) walk away and let some other schmuck take it over.
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