It is a difficult thing this because as I have grown older my wish for revenge (if that is the right word) has diminished, I may think it for a while and then I let it go and think that Karma will actually sort this all out.
I have to say that I am pretty livid about recent events because I suppose it isn't logical and generally, that's how I am excepting recently which my brain has decided that high anxiety is the permanent state 😃 and I find myself swept up between moments of outright anger and frustration, then a period of calmness, then reflection and yes even forgiveness for perhaps this person I have known might be ill or having some sort of breakdown or being controlled by other forces unbeknown to me?
In the bad old days I'd have plotted something for this chap that would have pulled the rug out from his feet and he'd be left bewildered as to what had happened and would not have connected it with me or his actions, it would have been something out of the blue, not physical but certainly something mentally shocking to them. It's something you learn about when you are at work to protect yourself and your projects. It's almost like a war or boxing strategy where you let them come on and think they are winning and then boom, they're not anymore.
So I actually feel sorry for this bloke rather than revengeful. Perhaps Karma will level things down but at the moment I am still quite angry and upset about what he's done to me, it's made me anxious and nervous and a little worried as to what the hell he is going to get up to next. Shouldn't worry about stuff that you have no control of of course, but you try telling my head that!
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