I feel I am going through it at the moment and waking u with the room closing in on me is not nice. It happens occasionally and I dealt with it by going downstairs and falling asleep in the snug area. However, the problem remains that it is all part of the stress I am having with this company problem and that is affecting everything I do. It is just the unnecessary cr@p that this bloke is hurling at me. None of it is necessary at all, none of it makes any sense, if he succeeded in his plans there'd be a total disaster for the business, it would collapse and it would be yet another one of those stupid (and I've seen it often in my working life) things where someone has talked themselves into failure and snatched defeat from the jaws of victory.
It is though having its toll on me and now I've started to think, why not? Why not just walk away and leave him with the biggest mess to deal with - I imagine it would ruin him financially - although I'd do something else. But that's me of course.
I need to break this spiral downwards. It should be all over this time next week and so I only need to hang on until then. It's a bit like stressing before an operation. It doesn't actually do anything to help.
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