After a nice lunch with my girls I came back to a house which is slightly divided shall we say. I find the current situation one that I have been in before but this is quite different I have to say. I woke with a start again around 3:30 and then my mind kicked in again and I was running through things that I shouldn't do and it was a maelstrom of thoughts and ideas but with no answers or dead ends on every turn.
When there appears no way out it makes your mind race even more to find some sort of resolution and that wakes you more and corners your options and there you are in some spiral of despair for no reason. After about an hour (it could be less) I managed to go back to sleep. It's these restless nights that are becoming a habit and I need to work on them. I am still tired from my previous fitful night and so I must work on getting past this current feature of my sleep pattern.
There's that nagging feeling once again that it will all end badly coming down the track. I hope not but you never know, it feels vaguely familiar!
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