Progress of sorts and that's something I suppose. I asked for Crossword and Puzzle books for my Birthday and an Adult Colouring Book and that's to allow me to unwind and concentrate on something else rather than my head space. It has been ridiculously hot in the late 20s early 30s but without the humidity which feels more bearable. My chiller has been working overtime and it does the job allowing us to sleep under our pitched roof bedroom.
In many ways things are very gradually getting better. The business cessation and dissolution is under way and the letters should arrive latest today to the shareholders. They have the right to object once the notice has been published but quite what they can object to is a moot point as all the Statutory duties required of the business have been followed.
There's one potential objection that can be made but he would have to prove his assertion and no paperwork exists to back it up in fact I have paperwork that refutes it.
Anyway, given that this is now underway and should be over in a few months, I doubt that there can be anything to hold it up but I've been wrong before and when people act out of emotion rather than logic these things can arise and it is one of the worries I am dealing with but of course it hasn't happened and so I need to check my fearful egoistic brain on that, which, as most of you realise, is the biggest part of my current and past problems!
Coming to terms with retirement is taking a while longer than I expected I have to say. I hadn't planned that the business would crash dive quite the way it did, or so quickly but I did everything I could to sort it out. Anyway, the bottom line of it is that I was expecting to be doing a couple of hours a day and then do "retirement stuff" I just hadn't worked out what that "stuff" comprised of!
It is not going to be an overnight thing either, I need to spend a little time working out what it might be. I'm living through the shock (we'll call it) of staring at the last phase of my life and I don't like it at all. It isn't what I expected and I haven't come to terms with it. That's my assessment of where I am right now. I am trying to figure out life's new meaning and I am failing miserably at that. I will get there by my usual dogged manner. For the moment it is eluding me and there's a lot of FUD (Fear, Uncertainty, Doubt) clouding my judgement, what little there is left of the old INTJ Manager me. Logic seems to have walked out and taken a break for the moment, perhaps it will return when I ground myself as I go forward.
At least I am sleeping a little better and I am not having so many bad and vicious thoughts. Slow and very gradual progress though.
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