Some Way To Go

 There's some way to go to get back to "normal" and this is a deep depression.  It's a series of things really and it isn't helped by the inaction it causes.  There's nagging doubt whether I will say or do the right thing and it all needs to be thought through before I do anything.  That leads to procrastination and that in turn leads to a general malaise about not getting things done, leaving things I would otherwise do and so on.  Down and down it goes and it is sort of levelling out but what do I know?

There's a general feeling of dread about what the country (government) is doing to add to this.  There is little or no leadership, you can see the infighting beginning and you can see the loonies for what they are, or at least I can.  Quite how much the country's finances can take is a matter for the markets I imagine who will determine such things but the debt and the loss of jobs, businesses and opportunities and the imposition of regulations to add more red tape to befuddle and catch out employers is the absolute opposite of what they promised.  Yes, they are politicians and you know they are lying because their lips are moving!

There's a sort of wading through treacle feeling as things grind on and nothing really happens in my life.  I am making small breaks through each day and I just hope that they start joining themselves together and things take an upwards turn.  I grind the days out and follow the habit forming chores of the week, bring the milk in, put the right bins out in the right order and so on.  

Oh well, let me hope that slowly I'll get back to my old self and things will even keel themselves.