So why oh why am I here again?
Give this a watch it's around 10 to 15 minutes or so.
I just needed the KITA (Kick In The Arse) to remind me of this. I know this, I've been round and around this and I purposefully don't sit in our living room watching TV particularly as I find that propaganda but I do doom scroll my phone, Facebook but not so much Instagram and all the others.
The stuff I have been wrestling with for a while and we all know how Left Brained I am. The INTJ bit has now lost its purpose, its meaning, it's being the boss, being the technical guru, the planner, the arbiter of all things right and wrong. I am liking the sound of it already the omnipotent, omnipresent Project Manager LOL!!
But, back to this talk. I follow Dr Brooks on YouTube for goodness sake and I know I know this stuff - I just need to back out of the OCD or whatever I have been doing for the past God knows how long?
So the lesson is I need to remind myself of the right hand side of my brain more often - being an INTJ that is soooooo difficult I can't even begin to tell you how hard that is. Even when I convince myself I need to do more on the other side of my brain and know the reason for it - I wrestle with the implementation as it isn't logical or process driven. I've been here before and so the deja vu is strong with me on this and it is all very 'The Matrix' Now where are my blue and red pills?
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