Gosh it is annoying when you get woken up and then try and go back to sleep. It wasn't too bad but it was 5:40 around 2 hours before I "normally" get up. My mind kept trying to analyse things, it did remember that I hadn't taken something out of the freezer which was funny though. Then I had to use my old eye rolloing trick and counting backwards to get back to sleep. It worked but there were various diversions which I identified and brought back and restarted the counting. I go from 200 backwards and I think I got to the mid 140s when I dropped off.
The waking dream was strange as I was a maintenance engineer in an old persons home and had gone to another home where we had the key to go and get a spare lampshade. It was dark and suddenly a woman came downstairs as we were preparing to leave and I was just about to start talking to her when I woke up! Slightly disappointing she seemed very nice.
Catching yourself getting ready to go down the Rabbit hole is important and not letting yourself fall for it is the thing. I hope that these fade away or I can continue to identify them and then control and dismiss them. I certainly do not want a recurrence of the summer's mind torture again.
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