Yes, I am having a mini meltdown and for many reasons I suppose. Analysing the reasons probably doesn't help either but dealing with them, that's another thing. Are these "things" the cause or the symptom? Will fixing one or all of them be the right approach.
It's bad as I can clearly "get out of it" but not for long. A few bits of work yesterday distracted me but I soon slipped back into this state of mind. Interestingly my tinnitus disappeared yesterday for a while but it's back this morning. I woke overnight again but managed to go back to sleep in 20 minutes whereas often if I wake and it is light I come downstairs for an hour or two.
The pain body is really giving it some stick at the moment and I just need it to pass and to go back but here, right now, writing this, it wants to pile the pressure on. I am working my way through this a bit at a time but it is really difficult this time. The way my mind works isn't conducive to sorting this out, there's probably not a nice easy answer to it I do need to work my way through it somehow as it is debilitating.
I don't want to do anything, just sit and stew so that needs to be worked on. Let's see what I can do today to do that.
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