I find it strange that I am still flipping between OK and not so good all the time. Progress is knowing that this is happening and being able to do something about it. It's a struggle but it is something you can deal with. I really felt tearful this morning, no particular reason, just sad and that has passed quite quickly. I'm pretty sure it is this time of year that does it.
Your head really can be your worst enemy sometimes I think. It has all those "little voices" in there arguing among each other and the trick is to realise that this is going on and in doing so make them go away. It's the ego and the pain body and they are struggling to get attention and so it goes around. It's as if they don't want you to be yourself, be happy I suppose and there's the rub, identification of what it is will help to defeat the voices but they get going when you aren't expecting them.
In other news I've been trying my hearing aids. I think that they are great but on Sunday will be a big test as we will be at a Christmas do with lots of people so I hope that I'll be able to use them without blowing my brains out! They amplify so well but I find it a little too loud even on the quiet volume setting.
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