I pitch this now as I am in my inner head state looking at what to do next and it occurred to me that when I fully evaluate what I am going to do next I really need to concentrate on whether (or not) I am making the decision for the right reason.
By right I mean that I, for example, am harbouring not great thoughts about the bloke who has been attacking me since he made the decision to unilaterally withdraw from the business saying he wanted nothing more to do with it financially or manually. So am I doing it (not decided yet) to get back at him? Show him (me) I was right all along. If I shut it all down who am I doing that for and so on?
I am going to now work on this aspect. I've done the work life balance which was very bad indeed and the Wheel or Life exercise scored bad in every element. That's not good and points to other things that need to be reviewed and tackled - I know some of those but it isn't a good start.
Then there are financial and time constraints and the impact on my personal life (albeit the above exercise points to me not having one LOL).
Intuitively I think I know what I really ought to do but the nag is that it probably isn't what you should do and will there be regrets etc. Before this all kicked off and I was left holding the baby so to speak, I had a clear idea of what needed to be done and how to do it.
Simply, if I close the business down it all goes away no matter what he says or does the business will no longer exist. If I continue he is likely to be a bad actor. In many ways this is just a side worry to the rest of it.
I do need to make sure the decision I eventually come to isn't based on some ego remnant - it needs to be clearly based on facts and data and not how I was "feeling" when I made it :-) Easier said than done as after all he has done to me in the past year, even though it worked out in the end in my favour eventually, I find it hard to forgive or forget that he railed against me the way he did because of (potentially) hurty words and hurty feelings! FFS.
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