I find it crazy that I am retired and yet I have no time to be retired at all. This business has kept me busy for years now and for what good it has done me, I may have well as dropped it years ago and just gone out and been retired. So that's actually the thing isn't it? What the hell am I doing working on something that now it's done (well half done to be fair) and I've taken all that flack about it no longer feels worth the effort.
I've just stopped working on it as my heart isn't in it anymore. I need to make a decision to either run with it, halt it or pause it and the investment in time and money is part of a complex equation around what to do next. It's one of those thing that can go well if I invest a lot of time and effort, over and above what I've already done, yet, I have lost interest and don't really want to anymore. Such is the impact of the attacks I've received that if I walked away today, I don't think I would feel anything anymore, it would be a relief.
No doubt once I've spoken to the developer and find out what he is likely to do now I will be better armed to make a logical decision on which way to go. For now, it's in the balance I feel. What's the point of using anymore of the life left to me if it is just to fend off attacks from enemies of the company? If I close it, they too have nothing left to complain about.
It's messy though but I am certain that I will have an answer in the next several weeks. Who needs all the negativity and uncertainty when I can shut it all down and all that disappears?
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