Well I need to deal with this now and get my wishes down. All very matter of fact really and all very difficult as you are instructing your attorneys of your wishes should you be unable to do this for yourself.
It is strange writing out my health wishes as I keep much of this away from my family and now I have to explain certain traits and health conditions that they may not have been aware of as I have hidden them from it. My depression and up and down nature of that is one area that I find strangely OK to write about but I am not sure that they know the depth of it even though they've lived with it for a number of years. It will be interesting to see if they pick up on it I suppose.
The other stuff is pretty interesting to write about and should just reinforce that so much stuff is transitory in nature and deserves to be treated as such. Part of my review I am doing over the next few weeks in reality. The balance of work, life, relationships etc.
I am forcing myself to do a 'Wheel of Life' review and it is actually difficult because I absolutely know what I need to do and the inner fight is real. Of course I've always known, it's the curse of an INTJ the intuitive bit rises to the surface now but it was always there and deep down inside the direction was set. The trouble is that the conclusion isn't palatable at all, it isn't what I want and it really isn't the answer I was looking for.
Now, I will spend some days reviewing things and actually arriving at that conclusion and then having to make another decision whether to go with it or avoid it and that will be an altogether different proposition. The mind is putting it off and trying to avoid it LOL.
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