And Names - What's That About

 I can remember certain names from the past.  Certainly those I worked with or that made an impression at the time but thinking about my Apprentice friends I can only remember a few first names and only two can I recall their whole name.  I gave a lift to Gary every day at college for over two years, can I recall his surname? Not at all.  Then the others in the car - one was Steve who went to work in Saudi and the other tall chap with equally long hair - I cannot remember - I can see his face but that's all. Then Trevor who played in the band and we occasionally roadied for the band (called Evil Weasel) they supported Stray at Skindles in Maidenhead.  Yes I cannot remember his name but he was great fun.  The other name I remember as one of the lads swore like a trooper and so I recorded him on my cassette tape to prove it.  He was talking about Nikki Lauder's accident and used every swear word I'd ever heard.

Then the people I used to work with, once again, only a few of the real characters or those that I hated (quite a few) or didn't get on with can I recall their names.  If someone happened to say their name I'd recall who they were and so on but I do have a brain that kicks this stuff out and has a waste basket type function.  If I need to remember something, I will.  However, I erased a lot of this back in 2007/2008 I guess when I found that my head was nearly exploding with "the past" and I just reset it.

It is a shame as I'd like to remember some of these things but as I have just proved trying to convert this blog to a book, going over past history especially related to my Bladder Cancer and the collateral damages surrounding that, is not good for my present well being.  Maybe it's the defence mechanism kicking in.  

Putting the names to faces though - it isn't that important I suppose?  We were all young and setting out on our separate journeys.  I wonder whatever happened to them all?  I think there were 30 of us and a few dropped out along the way, some went abroad, a few of us ended up in the office and I bumped into one or two over the course of the years but they had to remind me who they were!!

Strange how that manifested itself with the flashbacks, the faces but no full names, even though we spent close to three years in our training apprenticeships together.