Having to give this book (based on the blog) a rest. It actually stirs up emotions from long ago and of course, they no longer exist and they are over but it strikes right into you some of it. And actually it's not worth the bother of the memory or the waste of time feeling it and replaying it all again. I was feeling quite upset and annoyed about one particular relived area and it's upsetting and yet, it's happened, it's over and I can't do anything about it really.
The characters in that episode are I imagine dead or in prison and it was part of the journey through life at the time. What I can see is how ill it made me and I imagine that's what is stirring up the emotions. You can see from an overview what it was doing to you when you see it month on month and of course, when you are at the coal face, you don't see it at all (the woods for the trees).
So I am going to give it a short rest and try and be disconnected from it for a while. What is interesting is how tired I was. I see it as a recurring theme and I see how stressful the job was but as I'd only given it a short while to see how it would go, it didn't matter in the overall scheme of things. The upside is that I had gone through the life of an internet start up seen the horrors of the green eyed, observed the failings of the incompetent self professed entrepreneurs and watched them implode as they hadn't thought through the business properly, had been incompetent about the software and negligent on the financial and business side. Their Laissez-faire approach to company law, insolvency practice and insurances etc was mind blowing.
In all is stood me in good stead for the jobs that came afterwards and even on the one I am on now.
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