Neither Fish Nor Fowl

 So I was once told when I had got the hierarchy of dinning seating wrong.  Done in a nice manner but there you go.

And so I find myself neither Fish nor Fowl at this point in time.  Neither happy nor sad, neither content or discontent and somewhere in a middle ground of my own making.  

Knife edged balance between them and struggling with a decision I had better make sooner rather than later but, and here is the but, I actually need to understand what is going on a bit better before taking the next steps.  Build a contingency plan perhaps would be another way of looking at it.  I'm back where I started 11 or 12 years ago and it makes little or no sense how I got here again other than my own INTJ let it happen way of dealing with things.

It truly is a problem coming down the track at me and this time, I don't have the easy ability to get out of it, get out of the way of it or to do anything about it.  I am kind of trapped and I need to extricate myself from the problem somehow.  Not sure how as it is very unclear what is actually happening.  There's no clarity and dealing with other personality types who don't do logic and the like, it means that things happen for no apparent rhyme or reason!

Of course, if I won the lottery all these problems would go away immediately but that is unlikely to happen.  I'm going to have to tough it out in the short term but it isn't great doing that because of that FUD (Fear, Uncertainty & Doubt) that pervades the situation.

Of course, it isn't life and death as such but it is just bloody awkward and transient.  Ho hum!