I Put Her Down Hours ago

 This relates to a passage in A New World where two monks are walking through driving torrential rain and come upon a village where a young lady needed to cross the road.  The older Monk picked her up so she did not get muddy and carried her across the road.   They went on their way and after around 5 hours the younger Monk said that they were not allowed to do that.

The older Monk smiled and said, I put her down hours ago.

So what I hear you say but it is that sort of thing we humans are extremely bad at.  We hold onto stuff and the outrage grows from a small incident into something far worse.

Yesterday my mind moved over to this when I realised that there is every possibility that this guy making my life and the businesses life hell could all be about how he thought I might of made a fool of him even though he never said anything at the time about it.  I certainly never said it although I am tempted to say it now.  

He's let this brew on his mind and it has grown and grown and instead of the adult conversation where he could have said something to me and I could have apologised it's full on retribution and tribal warfare.  For a word.....  

No wonder I am feeling it as well as it is an unbelievable reaction and his actions are beginning to look like he's going to invade Poland!   Could it be that all that effort and all that money has gone to a revenge vendetta because of a hurty word imagined in a conversation?  The more I think about it the more that crystallizes and hones into sharp focus.  "He's not a fool"  well you could have kidded me as who would spend the time and energy trying to destroy their own business and for why? 

Oh well, I have no idea what he will attempt to do next having exhausted his repertoire.  Hopefully he will go away and never darken my door again - they never do, do they?  I've seen it time after time as the red mist comes down and people do some pretty stupid things out of temper.   

Surely Not

 A phrase that someone used at the end of the meeting last week was something along the lines of he's not a fool.  Those words were used over a year ago by this chap giving me all the grief and I thought no, surely not, he can't be holding on to a simple misunderstanding from all that time ago.

Simple it is and I suppose he may have got the drift that me having told him and written it out 4 or 5 times that I was repeating very slowly once again he felt I was making him appear a fool - who knows who to?  He was the only one in the room!

Surely it cannot be that but the more I considered it, the more this makes some sort of sense now.  Having got the wrong end of the stick he then threw all his toys out of the pram and he's been a pain in the arse ever since.  Wow, has that really played on his mind all this time?  Now of course, having pursued this to (I hope) its conclusion, it has become a self fulfilling prophecy and the result is what he had imagined a year ago.

If this is what it is and I'm now fairly certain that it is, there isn't a way back for either of us as what he feared had happened (and hadn't) now has if that makes any sense at all?

So That's The Paperwork Done - Relaunch

 So that's is now done, the meeting minutes and covering letters in the post and whilst I feel this is all behind me now, I still dread what this bloke and do next?  I don't think there is much but you never know if he will quit and call it a day.  Judging by his attitude to date, you'd have to say he will come up with something equally aggressive and just annoying and upsetting although what it could be remains to be seen I suppose.

As an INTJ it doesn't make a lot of sense to me how people can get all charged up about things and how, on earth, things have escalated because, you know, feelings!  It beggars belief that this actually may all be down to how he thinks I may have treated him "like a fool" Apparently that sounds like what it is - coming from someone else.  If that's what I have gone through all of this cr@p for then it makes it even worse.  How can you deal with people like that?  

Anyway, the bottom line is that the action has been defeated and the business should be secure.  I am sure he can continue to make things difficult if he wants but frankly it's time to let it go. Me?  I'm going to talk with a few people and then make a decision.  I'd rather walk away than play anymore games.

A Little Better Today

 The problem when you are being attacked is that you take it personally and whilst back in the day I never used to, these days I do.

I feel sorry for this chap which perhaps I shouldn't but he doesn't appear to know how to handle a dispute he kicked off and which went from I never want to see or deal with you again, to the most outrageous attack letter to something of an afterthought letter which I ignored to this latest nastiness of regime change.

Looking at the first letter which was pretty awful it has diminished somewhat and the reasons to get rid of me were feeble but he then rallied his friends and attempted to get rid of me.  What I need to do is not to feel bad about him because he was willing to chuck me under a bus because of "feelings" not logic, not anything like that.  The stuff he wrote wouldn't stand up in a real shareholder's meeting as it would have been laughed out but he convinced his friends to join in.  The statement I wrote explained why they shouldn't but he hadn't told them that if he had of won it would almost certainly have caused the business to cease trading. 

There was no thought as to how to transition the business or how to disseminate 9 years work and pass over the business.  I think he thought well I'm the Director now and miraculously it would be made so.  Perhaps he has taken his lead from the Labour party?  They pronounce stuff and have no idea that they have to act on it.  No one seemed to pick up on it but then they've just got lumps of paper shares and they've never known anything about the business unless he told them.

The whole thing is stupid and pointless and even though I offered him a way back, he refused it and so here we are digging in deeper as if it is WW1!  I cannot make him talk or mediate and hopefully he's now received a sting and put down having lost this latest round.  Who knows.  He can I suppose launch some sort of huge legal action but he wouldn't get a 51% nod as I see it and it would cost a fortune to achieve precisely the square root of FA.  

It takes a while to settle down from nasty stuff like this and I'm sure he'll have something to say about it further along the line.  This time, if it comes, it needs to be brushed off properly.  If only we had a good number of sales I'd be able to do that but we've only been live 2 weeks and I've been dealing with him which doesn't give room for sales.

A short break and a chat with a few friends and get some balance back.  All of this over some misunderstanding and control of a company with big debts, no sales and having to combat noise and bluster! 

That Was Horrible - What An Up And Down Weekend

 That was dark, very dark, everything went dark on Saturday it was frightening but grabbing the book (A New Earth) dug me out of the hole and also got me back out of the very very black place I was in.  I've never really felt anything quite like it, meeting with a Death Eater from Harry Potter perhaps might give you the idea of what it was like.

The room, my mind, my body all went dark, black inside and drawing into myself.  I never want that again.  Much of the trembling has stopped and I can actually use my PC mouse and write again, so bad was it.  Yes, never again.  I am meeting up with my good friend this week and he and I both had our Cancers at the same time and resonate at the same frequency.

A reset is what is required and that is probably what I will now do.  Just reset myself and give myself some time and space.  

I remember years ago suffering from constant business attacks from so called colleagues and getting to a point that it wasn't worth it.  I knew I wasn't well and was burning out so I went into work one morning a few days after I had completed my tasks.  Wrote an email to my team, then one to my boss - whom I had warned repeatedly that his team were hounding me. Then left the office, walked to HQ and then spoke to my boss, said I was going away for 2 weeks and that I would be filing an official complaint because he had ignored my warnings over the months (pointing him to the various emails) and then I got a train home going past all the commuters coming into London.  I was home by 10 and then disconnected everything, put in the automatic messages and disappeared for 2 weeks. 

So maybe something like that leading up to Christmas - I'll work on it.  The difficulty is fighting the Ego and Pain Body as they truly did have a hold these past few weeks and I feel like I've been in a boxing match, the trouble is, I've been in a boxing match with myself which means I am pretty beaten up with it all.

At least the shaking has subsided and what we used to call a mental breakdown was averted and it's just a bit of annoyance and stress resident in my body that will need to be worked off in the next few days. 

OMG That Was SO Bad... Black Dog

Only a few times in my life have I been to such a very dark place.  When I kind of knew I had Cancer and when I was diagnosed with it.  When I told my Ex that it was all over.

Yesterday was as low as I think I have ever been.  It was horrible as if the lights were going out in the room and I collapsed in on my mind for a short while.  Perhaps an hour I was in very very dark territory.  I'm not fully out of it but I came to a conclusion that this could not go on and so found and then read my well dog eared copy of Eckhart Tolle's 'A New Earth' - there is a section about the Pain Body and I really needed to read that and just stop the slide into one of the worst depressions I can thin of.  

Of course, nothing has happened, it's all in my head about what may or may not happen.  I suppose worrying about what might happen is counter productive but the ego and the pain body are pretty evil things and your own head gangs up on yourself.  It isn't logical and the INTJ kicks in and over analyses stuff that it doesn't need to.  All the permutations all of it nags to be heard and analysed and what if scenarios built and taken down.  I sometime hate my analytical brain and I need to just spend some time rebuilding - my confidence if gone, through the floor.  I dread getting the next letter from this bloke and yet, what is he going to do?  He's tried everything so far and I've not caved in but oh God, it's tiresome and I don't want or need it.

I'm seeing a very old and trusted friend this week and hopefully that might give me the reset I need.  Doing this all on your own isn't great either and I still have very shaky hands and huge doubts about my abilities and experience tells me that I should just treat it as business (which of course it is).  

Anyway, there we go.  A day of Eckhart Tolle and similar will I hope settle me down again.  At least I am not in the very dark place of yesterday.  

It Doesn't Make Sense Why I Feel Bad

 I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I feel somewhat bad about the meeting because, he's been trying to destroy me all the way along.  Not for any business reasons you understand but because he thinks I took him for a fool.  There's no other explanation other than he is just one of those people who have an evil heart I think and is hell bent on revenge but the problem is that it will come at a cost.  

It showed itself yesterday it was how I feel a meeting with your ex might be when you've been "done wrong!" but it showed a really nasty side to him which I have now seen manifest over the past 6 months.  

I then need to realise that all of this is to do with him and his actions would also have brought down the other shareholders and the business as there was no way he can pick up a business and un-stitch it from all of the IT and contractual elements if he had one.  Of course his friends are not versed in business either and perhaps follow him because they are sure he is right.  The inevitability is they all go down with the sinking ship.

Oh well, so be it but I feel bad and I think it is stress and worry more than anything else you know.  What is he going to do next?  Well there is little I think he can do next but you never know, he's tried just about all of the moves.  That's my next thing to go and check what possible moves remain?  

I now need to detach myself from this and work away from it.  It has gone on long enough and I am now thinking why not, why not give it all up and watch it crash and burn?  That's not a good starting point but it does one thing, it gets me out of the situation and it means I can get on with my life.  Choices.... 

Yuk. What Did I Expect?

 The trouble when you deal with non business people who think it is personal is you get an awful row and it got heated and messy ending up with him walking out and the vote didn't go ahead.  On reflection, that's fine albeit I never want to see this bloke again.  Nasty piece of work when he gets going.

Oh well, let's see what, if anything, he can now do?  So stressful too, I don't need it.  

And Here We Are, Decision Day

 I am calm and strangely still and quiet this morning.  Gone are the doubts and gone are the worries about today.  My hands still shake a little but that's been going on for a while now and I just need to ensure that I have my notes and wits about me.

What has brought about this is the final what if thinking last night.  I raised up from the detail and just viewed what is this actually all about.  That in itself brought the meeting down to one thing and one thing only.  It's a yes/no vote that's all it is.  I am guaranteed to win it but they don't know that at the moment.

I need to stay calm and collected no matter what comes up and ensure that the vote is the thing that matters, that's all that has been demanded.  The rest of it is noise or irrelevant and so it is only how they react and I cannot control that, I can only control myself and how I react.  I've been doing  this for years and so it shouldn't be something difficult or new to me excepting that it is about losing my position and business.  

I am prepared for this, I have played it out far too much in my head and need to realise that I must stop my potty mouth sarcasm just for a short while as this is taking place.

Everything is scripted and as my good friend and I used to say (all the time) "Follow the process" - that's all I need to do is to follow the process and bring it back to process if it drifts away.  No more no less, no going off subject just follow the process.

One Day Nearer

 And let's hope this nails it once and for all.  These days I don't deal with things in the way I used to and I dislike confrontation at the best of times but at least, once it is over I can just turn the corner and move on.  Whether he does, is up to him I guess.  I've had a series of these threats and nasty letters etc and for what purpose?  Who knows?  Some people go off and do strange things I suppose?

This has always been an aggressive campaign from the start and despite the obvious huge variances in arguments put forward and the obvious counter intuitive points made defying logic and conflicting viewpoints, still these pathetic arguments and points arrive and so let this be an end to it.  I doubt he can let it go though and his accomplices have followed his lead blindly and not thought "How is this possible?"  or "Surely this cannot be right?"  but no, they've also followed this chap into the 500.

I just need to keep calm and maintain a clear head tomorrow and get the business through promptly.  I I expect that there will be disbelief from his side at the outcome as he has expelled so much bitter vile in my direction that he hasn't looked at the simple facts plain for all to see, right in his face.  

I am surprised that he hasn't wondered why I have not resigned and why I am letting the meeting go ahead.  I suppose he still has a little time left to contemplate why.  

Attempted Theft Is What It Is In Reality

 Given the benefit of the doubt for too long now I see that there are no scruples or honour here.  I guess I've always known that but I have now got to the point where I am getting a seething anger about all of this.

Who abandons things and leaves me to pick up the pieces and then 6 months later threatens all sorts of actions and a year later wants me removed from my position so he can take control?  I've had a year of picking it all up and getting it to market now - it is actually working and in the wild and he wants to take it away and in all probability will destroy it as you can imagine that I'd be especially cooperative in handing it all over for nothing.  They haven't a clue at all, not a scooby and I have to call it for what it is, it is plain and simple theft of the business and robbery of all the work I have done.  

It should never have got to this and I have offered to discuss but they (or is it him alone) want to wrestle it away and expect to find a business in a box awaiting them.  Yea, right, I'm just going to hand over all the paperwork, accounts and the like.  

Why are people like this?  What makes them think for one minutes that it is acceptable behaviour to do it too?  People these days have no qualms do they?  He walked out leaving me with it and now I've made it work and market ready he wants it back having done nothing to make that happen and firing off cr@p at me for the past 6 months.  

It Really Is A Turbulent Time For Me

 It's hard to describe the very mixed emotions I am going through right now.  I am as prepared for Friday's vote as I ever can be and squeaky clean but I still need to settle down as I am very edgy and shaky about it all.  I cannot lose the vote but I am going to have to deal with this bloke who's making my life hell (or maybe I am making my own life hell thinking about it).  Back in the day I would probably have looked at his cold dark eyes and mentioned that I could see all the way to his cold black heart but hey, not now, I have to be professional and balanced and that is perhaps it.  Back in the day, when I used to deal with such stuff day in day out I'd be able to say stuff like that and trade insults all day long and generally be OK with it all unless one of my stupid bosses were involved when I'd let them do all the talking, bury themselves deeper and I'd go pick up the pieces with the customer afterwards.

This is different and I should know better but it's the culmination of around 6 months of this sort of thing.  I'm having to prepare a lot because this bloke is being "Mr. Angry" and it's been unpleasant and so whilst I think when people see you eye to eye in the same room they  usually calm down I worry that this guy has been quite irrational so far.  Quite cowardly too hiding behind solicitor's letters and so on but now he's had to bring this to a special meeting that only he can attend (or can he?) and I need to be on my game so that the procedure is adhered to.  He likes to use the rules to throw the bombs.

Because he appears to be irrational and indeed his actions and words are conflicted.  He no longer wanted any communication and then complains when I have not contacted him for example.  So many of these statements made and then feigned surprise that he hasn't received things he himself expressly ordered not to happen.  

His cohort of shareholders have gone along with him and of course he "gifted" them their shares but not one of them has looked in detail at the evidence to arrive at their vote.  None of them have looked at the financial impact if they were to succeed either, if you make a regime change then there had better be a compensation package.  Of course there isn't, it's a vindictive, vexatious, getting even type action.  I'm not dealing with business people either so it's all just some sort of action without consequence to them.

I'm just though processing all sorts of things and trying to deal with my over analysis in my head.  I know that I should trust the process.  I know what to do and how to do it, I think it is the worry of dealing with amateurs and their reaction to them losing the vote quite heavily on Friday. 

Damn Claustrophobia

 I feel I am going through it at the moment and waking u with the room closing in on me is not nice.  It happens occasionally and I dealt with it by going downstairs and falling asleep in the snug area.  However, the problem remains that it is all part of the stress I am having with this company problem and that is affecting everything I do.  It is just the unnecessary cr@p that this bloke is hurling at me.  None of it is necessary at all, none of it makes any sense, if he succeeded in his plans there'd be a total disaster for the business, it would collapse and it would be yet another one of those stupid (and I've seen it often in my working life) things where someone has talked themselves into failure and snatched defeat from the jaws of victory.

It is though having its toll on me and now I've started to think, why not? Why not just walk away and leave him with the biggest mess to deal with - I imagine it would ruin him financially - although I'd do something else.  But that's me of course.

I need to break this spiral downwards.  It should be all over this time next week and so I only need to hang on until then.  It's a bit like stressing before an operation.  It doesn't actually do anything to help.

The Madness Of Crowds

 I fail to see why people follow like Sheep and lack critical thinking skills these days.  We used to have a class at school which I think wasn't called but was critical or logical thinking where we would debate a chosen subject, Euthanasia was one such that I vividly recall.  Mainly because one of the lads thought t was all about "Youth in Asia".  However, I digress.  

Given a set of facts delivered on the one hand and a load of strange disconnected things loosely tied together as a case, it would be perhaps obvious to the casual observer that the facts, compiled in chronological order would outweigh hearsay and rumour?  Of course not!

I do despair of our people today who cannot sift through details and logic or if they even looked properly cut through the nonsense and make judgements based on hard facts.  But it seems they cannot and they are invested into some illogical rantings rather than a set of hard and fast points.

If this is the level of investment into coming to a decision then we should all be worried.  

Haven't Heard From You In A While

 Nice to get a message from someone stating that they hadn't heard from me in a while.  Good to hear from him and that he noticed I'd not been quite so active on social media for a while.

So we exchanged a few notes and I am going to see him next month sometime so I can catch up with him then I guess.

I suppose you never stop wondering quite what all this stuff is about do you?  I play through my head various scenarios and yet, I know what the outcome is going to be.  I just don't know how he will react to it.  I suppose it doesn't matter too much.  I hope he will run out of options but there's sure to be something else for him to moan about. Mind you for someone who abandoned everything to do with the business he's certainly bleating on about it.  A retraction and a full apology would have sorted it out but no, not this loser, full on frontal assault.

Oh well I have to remind myself that it hasn't happened yet and we are getting towards that bit in the Westerns where the two gunslingers are just starting to squint their eyes and reach for their guns.  It never ends well when you set out down the line he has.  

The Difficulty Is That It Makes No Real Sense

The trouble with a logical mind is that you have real difficulty processing people who get emotional about business stuff.  You can understand it in a social context (well I'm sure others are better at that than me) but in a business context it has no real place.

Back in the day I would handle that as a weapon against the perpetrator.  If you keep bringing the person back on track and stop the conversation and restart the process to get them to agree with the facts they will either do that but more often than that, with the facts continually presented to them they'd end up getting annoyed and voila, you've got them.

The present situation doesn't make sense because the argument is built on sand and no matter what way I look at it, this is an insane set of circumstances presented not in any way to resolve a problem but to heighten tensions and be belligerent for the sake of it.  It's as if there is no plan and the outcome wanted doesn't make any sense either as both lead to the downfall of the argument.  So as there is no logical outcome and there is no way to resolve this apart from him losing his case, it just seems a bizarre thing to do.  If you start a mini war then what are you hoping to gain?  What's the end goal, what is its purpose, its raison d'être?  There is none apart from bloody minded petty revenge and for what?  By his own actions we are in this place.  I've tried all lenient means to try and resolve it but, no, he won't have it and it's only my head on a platter will resolve the matter.

His friends, voting with him, cannot see the "Turkeys voting for Christmas" - they've all blindly followed his clarion cry which if achieved would end the business and leave him facing ruin.  I doubt he'd be able to pick up the business reins before the money runs out!  

Anyway, that's is what is unnerving me, that it isn't logical, it isn't rational, it makes no sense whatsoever and it's stupid and self destructive in the extreme.  If I wasn't so heavily invested I think I would have let him have his way and then watch as his world caved down around him.

It plays with my head why people do such crazy illogical things that will pour down destruction on their own heads and why his friends have pushed him into these series of actions.  Maybe they hate him?

 

Painting Oneself Into A Corner

 I know that for some people it must be difficult to vent their anger and then actually rationalise things and then make a plan, review it, test it, refine it and have various options before action.  If you don't then you tend to be running mightily fast into.... a brick wall!

There seems to be no overall plan at all, just the revenge cycle.  In each case, there's been no way out (for me) and no win / win outcome.  It's all good news for him and bad for me, no attempt at mediation and a dealing in absolutes and so where I've offered a way forward and a route out of this, he's gone about his business in a full frontal charge, a Light Brigade or Over The Top assault and has only sought that as his answer.

He is now left with his back against the wall, painted into the corner and doesn't realise it.   Convinced he will win and assured of his inevitable victory he cannot see the peril that lies before him.

That's how I'd like to keep him too, full of his impending defeat over his enemy, I hope he has a small celebration planned for after the meeting so that he can pass around his tears and they can collectively commiserate with themselves.  I think I said before that these are the sorts of people you wouldn't want with you in a spot of bother.  They are voting with him because he is their friend and yet none of them can have read the statements (or even have been worried) about his threatening letter to me - containing a physical threat.  So they are all condoning the violence threatened in there and worse still they are not standing up for the right thing, the right reasons.  Not one of them is!  I think that I would not allow myself to do that but then, that's me!

Not one of them has thought of what it actually means to their shares by voting this way.  But then not one of them has in anyway been involved in the business or contributed anything meaningful either in monetary terms or any input whatsoever so I suppose it's academic to them anyway.

I am having to remain neutral about it, difficult as that is, as I have to face off against him and it works to be calm and matter of factual about these things.  

Then It All Makes Sense And Peace Descends

 It's not a multi Million Pound business, not by any means and it hasn't made any money in 9 years.  Yet it felt like it throughout the year and that's the bottom line of why I was quite so het up about it all.  I know it could be big and I also realise that it could run off into a siding somewhere never to be seen again.

But there;s the injustice in it all and that yet again some febrile random has changed character from good to pure evil ever so quickly.  I think he is either ill or is being controlled.  It happened rapidly over he course of 6 or 7 days at most and at this time last year.  That was the complete divorce letter and then 6 months later the full broadside attack and here we are now because the first letters did nothing and did not bring about my removal which he craved.  Now we have perhaps the last throw of the dice which he currently thinks is the final gambit, the coup de grâce in his long line of attacks.

I've now settled down because I can no longer be bothered by it all and because he's now over played his hand, I see you and what you are trying to do and I know it isn't you doing it.  Two things.  One is he is going about this all wrong and should have realised by now that all of my responses have been aimed at negotiations and discussions and his are attacks and slanders in some cases but the other is that he is being advised strangely so Two I don't see if he or the puppet master in charge understand that they'd have to compensate me and they wouldn't get their hands on the business until they did.  By the time we got to Tribunal all the accounts and emails would have expired, they'd be no money in the Bank for paying the accountant and all the others that need paying etc.  That's why I wonder who it can be in charge the solicitors just seem to forward the letters and why haven't they advised caution?

Yes, it is strange but then lots of people don't actually have a plan for their actions and do not think it through.  I doubt there's a risk mitigation plan in place and no one appears to have properly read his statement or my business style response.  But I know where I stand now and so that's a good thing as it clears away any doubt about it.  They've voted with their friend and not in the best interests of the business.  Ho hum. 

So I am less anxious than I have been, I'll be prepared for the meeting and my only fear is that he is quite angry (or comes across as such) and so I hope he doesn't get violent after he loses, I'm prepared for that but I actually hope he, like people who have tried this on me before is left with his jaw hanging open and bewilderingly wondering what the hell just happened!  

The Other Side Of The Lines

 No worrying about stuff today and no thought other than to protect the business, protect myself and to hell with the rest of them.  I cannot be having feelings for people who want me deposed from my job, having never met me or interacted with me.  Who's votes conspire to steal the business I built and which he and they deserted a year ago and now want to be part of, more so than their invisible shareholding for the past 9 years.

Not only do they want the business, they want all the money and they want to steal it off me by offering nothing in return for the work and expense - my time and money.  That's what happens when you deal with people who don't appear to have business sense and acumen - much like out current Government in many ways.  These pathetic turncoats make Rachel Reeves look almost competent.

Of course there's someone else behind all of this but it will be up to them to work out why they went for this burning bridges approach?  I'd offered discussions but full on attack is their approach and Sun Tzu and his book 'Art Of War' need to be my guide once again.  It's worked for me in the past and this time, unless he twigs what is going on, the rush towards his own undoing is assured.  

It will be no real victory as the film "The Untouchables" and Sean Connery's character said something like "Don't bring a knife to a gunfight!"  The stuff he published over the weekend is meant to intimidate me to believing he has secured enough votes to depose me.  That probably reassures him that he will 'win' but it also means that someone is controlling him to keep the pressure up and wanting me to concede but I want to see the whites of his eyes in the meeting and whilst I wouldn't normally do so, watch the wind go out of his sails as he comes to realise that his mission has failed.  Six months of his bitterness and anger can then go POP and he can sulk away and work out what to do next.  

It will be interesting to see who among his friends is Worm Tonguing him?  

So What's It Going To Be?

 How long do I go on making excuses for and accepting this awful human being for?  I think that I've done the christian bit way too much now and when his cards were shown yesterday I now fully understand that he has canvassed the shareholders and they will all vote with him and at least I now know what I thought was the case all along.  The trouble is they are all as delusional as he is.  He figures that if he votes me out and he takes over, everything will be fine and I will have to hand over all the business assets and so on.

He thinks that this comes with no financial cost to himself.  No doubt the magic money tree will provide.  So I am not dealing with a realist at all more a Walter Mitty type character with some strange view of the world.  The only person who has any business acumen in the group if most probably the one person who should know better but I think they are the ones to prick up the pieces, waiting in the wings to bayonet the wounded and pick over the corpses.

Not one of them has the best interests of the business in focus and not one of them could comprehend the complexities of unravelling 9 years worth of work!  

So, I am now turning my attention to the fall out that this meeting will have.  It will be quite interesting I imagine and I need to now disconnect myself from the personalities and the working relationship that was there before.  It is he that has lost his head whether through spite or vengeance (for what I am not sure) and all of these are his actions.  Publishing the letter where he threatened me physically didn't do anything and so that sets out the calibre of the people I am dealing with. No one has condemned his actions as far as  I know.  If I saw something like that I would like to be on the right side for sure.  They don't know me and have now all colluded to try and have me removed from my job.  So be it.  

I find lots of people these days have no moral compass and are outraged in one area but not in others, they shout about one sort of "this next thing" and utterly silent on similar matters when their intelligentsia whistle kicks in.  So with these people now having facts before them take the side of a bully and someone who threatens violence unless he gets his way!  Where was their thoughts in this but then I realise that they were each gifted their shares and he is just collecting their eternal souls as payment.  A quisling effort the lot of them.

So, now it's time to actually stop worrying about it and prepare to pull that carpet from under them all in a short while and try not to look smug or anything else as it's only business and that's all it is.