I managed to go back to sleep and could have slept past the alarm clock too. That's better and a small part of the problems I've been facing is back under control.
Not everything is, there's still keeping control of the Ego/Pain Body to manage and I am doing OK on that but still need to work on it. If I can identify what is happening I can control it. The mind/brain starts to catastrophise the situation and you need to catch that quickly. Bring it back to right now. I have visions about not being able to cope in a situation and yet that situation is a month off, it hasn't happened, it's unlikely to happen and worrying about something that hasn't happened and is unlikely to happen isn't a good use or my time.
That's the current fight to get over, that and now living with the loss of my working life. What I knew for all these years has gone. Perhaps I am grieving for its loss? Life has a purpose if only I can now transition to retirement and enjoy it. It is yet another learning process that has to be lived and journeyed through. I thought I had it covered but obviously not.
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