That was a good night's sleep, at last. One disturbance when OH got up and so I chose to as well and managed to fall straight back to sleep, a disturbance around 6 but back to sleep and when the alarm went off I had a cheeky 10 minutes more.
I did get up with a bit of a start as if expecting some sort of action or prepared for something but that went quickly. Imagine if you will a deadline or expectation of some sort of action required and it felt as if I needed to meet a target or undertake some sort of action, right then. It did go as quickly as it arrived.
It's about a year ago that I launched the App and had the run in with the business partner and two years since the whole thing kicked off and the de-stabilising affect this had had on me has been massive. I think I have always been too giving of myself in business and to be betrayed was a massive destruction of my being.
Anyway, this morning has dawned with me feeling a lot better and not with the nagging of the little voice in my head. That will no doubt arrive sometime today but I feel I can sort that out today and not let it all get on top of me. I've lost weight, I feel OK inside but want to lose more and it has been around 45 days without a drink and I have no desire to have a beer or a glass of wine at all. I am down a notch on my belt size and that makes for interesting times as my trousers are at that slipping down stage.
A little hope on the horizon, some of the main issues are still present but I hope to tackle those gradually, it isn't going to happen all at once I know.
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